Midnight Wisdom

23:53 30.07.2023 And you might wake up with more direction. Go through your conditioning, your demons, and see what happens. ~11,500 words. I’m just trying to see clearly. I hope I do. Khalid does not chase. Khalid does not try to connect.

21:54 23.07.2023 The House is a sacred place that gives to all equally

Sunday 16.07.2023 21:08 - recorded 19:00. What can I say? I’m not writing as much as I used to. For about 2 to 3 weeks now. Just doing 10 minute journaling here and there, in German. Does incredible things. I want to be in tune with life. Not just writing and thinking I have to finish things. Citizenship process continuing. Got the news of the Apostille right after my presentation on Wednesday. Go...

20:47 09.07.2023 Halas birthday yesterday. Bought gold earrings for mom, first time buying gold. I don’t have any trips planned for a while. I like finding unopened bottles of water before security check-ins. Drank a litter in a few seconds and almost died. But I feel amazing now.

23:09 I never did this before. Glad I did.

23:15 25.06.2023 That’s what my mom said to me right after I ended the episode. She came into the kitchen to get two dark chocolates for baba. I’m loved. I don’t have to be seen to know my qualities. I continue to grow and create.

21:34 18.06.2023 I talk about a lot of things. To add: I met a greek woman who writes really shitty poetry and she’s so excited about it. Lsned to it on spotify and it was horrible. Candy sucks. I hate this cancer feeling and I don’t want it. New season of rick and morty and black mirror. Amazing.

23:09 11.06.2023 realised im recording in the Bose headphones and they have shitty mics. Hope it’s alright. I talk about the movies, tantra events I was at ecstatic dance and a ritual night. Glad to be where I am. We move on from patterns. Awareness sets me free, right?

04.06.2023 23:11 blood moon tonight. Waning 99%. Refocusing on my core. Am I only worth loving for my attempt at fixing myself?

28.05.2023 21:49 talked to Jo han in Barcelona. Ali says hi.

Recorded 20.05.2023 around 10 pm uploading 21.05.2023 at 8:03 pm I smoked, listened to music, moved by body, shadow boxed and repeated karate moves I’m learning. And I thought. I thought a lot. And it was beautiful. Planned things with my job, thought of books to read, thought of who I want to be for my future and how I can be that. Hurt is a place that can help us operate and find something diffe...

14.05.2023 16:58 smoked a little and talk about what I’m going through. Just 6 months ago I thought I didn’t have a personality.

22:47 05.05.2023

23:07 30.04.2023

19:56 23.04.2023 where’d the month go.

16.04.2023 23:16 12% Waning Crescent. Right knee hurts. Watched shadow and bone season 2. Did a dragon festival with Cristobal today.

08.04.2023 16:39 I did 15 pushups before my haircut, I had to tell the barber to wait a second.

You are strong. You are not responsible for the world. You have nothing to be sorry for. You are loved.

23:19 02.04.2023 new housemate from Tunis, life moves on. Holding on to things from the past? I spent today reading the prophet from Khalil Gibran, and Senecas essays and letters on the shortness of life. His friend Serenes seems to have verbalised something I feel about myself too.

23:09 26.03.2023 writing about control. Now at 3,339 words. Read a bit of Brothers Karamazov today, and listened to the podcast make art not content.

23:55 19.03.2023 The last weeks I’ve been messaging Slavian differently and I’ve been feeling much healthier because of it. Sometimes the person who caused the pain needs to know it. Or you should be able to see that you’re willing to communicate the hurt. There is a fine line though and we should be empathetic and loving. All in all, this person doesn’t know me. I’m healthy and loving and continu...

Can there be any action outside of time?

23:06 12.03.2023 Es ist super wichtig positiv mit dir selbst zu sein. Ich werde eine der besten Toastmasters diese Welt sein. Wurde offiziell am Dienstag akzeptiert und habe groß unterschrieben. Knee Übungen, Welt Frauen Tag und Yoga mit Zen am Mittwoch. Eine neue Whatsapp Gruppe für USC Leute.

22:23 05.03.2023 i was coming back home from Alex’s after spending time with Ashraf. Spoke to a cab. The dreams I had.

01:37 26.02.2023