Midnight Wisdom

٢٠:٠٥ ١٩.٠٢.٢٠٢٣ الاحد قمر جديد و حساسية اخذتني الا الافكار الصحيحة

07.02.2023 Tuesday 00:35 I started a beautiful kind of daily journaling. With specific points in the morning and in the evening (with the right amount of flexibility). I hope to string the meaning of things together so the picture becomes clearer. May I know my wisdom. And may I be like water, as I know I am air, in a world of fire and rock.

23:51 05.02.2023 Let’s see how the full moon fades. I see more clearly that the quality of my life is really based on the quality of my attention. When my attention feels meaningful, full of love. It’s a feeling worth learning, looking at and allow oneself to cultivate. I spent some time on discord this week on the German server. It was also nice.

21:02 29.01.2023 I’m sitting in the living room with my dad. Football game to the right, him watching weird youtube videos on his phone. Grateful to be able to love. My mom is great and full of life. Reality versus all I build in my head. Salma and Nour are lovely, we visited them today. She hurt her knee and nour offered her a colorful plaster. We played plane to pick up her dad from the Emirates...

23:03 22.01.2023 Ashraf has a crazy teeth brushing routine. I’m trusting the waves of creation and honest voice. I haven’t been relistening to my podcasts for a while now.

15.01.2023 big contrast to how I felt 2 weeks ago. I am a couchpotato but the couch is my bed. I am learning Japanese for 9 days now, I masked my hair, priority is gut health, intermittent fasting most days (I forgot to mention this one in the episode). I’ve been watching hajime no Ippo (The Fighting!) watched ginny and georga, Vikings Valhala, read some Shopenhauer.

23:50 08.01.2022 recording and editing QUESTIONS: FEAR it’s beautiful. I’ve been sick since last Monday. Started learning Japanese on Duolingo. Hopefully I get well soon and can work on my conditioning. I shaved my head on my own on Friday, did a homemade hair mask today. Washed my big red blanket.

21:04 31.12.2022 and we pass through

25.12.2022 Ted Chiang, sick the last week, feeling better now, juiced, read a lot and watched a lot of things. It’s really incredible I can do this.

23:39 18.12.2022 in meinem Zimmer, mit curved Monitor und Arbeitslaptop vor mir, Fuße auf dem Boden. schon 217 Wochen.. ist fast wie gar nix und schon viel. Am Freitag, der 16.12.2022 war das so, das so viele Menschen mir gesagt haben dass sie komisch geträumt haben. Ich auch, Ashraf ist hier geschlafen.

Recorded 08.12.2022 11:10 pm - Uploaded 10.12.2022 3:48 pm I got a new mic stand. Trying to understand my patterns and let go of images. I am not sure what it means to be productive anymore. Or to do what's good for me. I got the new Evergoods Bag and I think it's great. For life and otherwise. I met Felix yesterday (Friday) at Zaks art gallery. I got offered a chance at an apartment that is reall...

Recorded 07.12.2022 00:08 Writing this 08.12.2022 15:33 I went bouldering with Viktor and his girlfriend and their dog Oleg. We did a circuit workout with Lara.

04.12.2022 23:39 And things are coming together. The focus. One tree hill. Dreams dreams dreams. Casanova. Abolitionist. Healing Resistance. I add a dream I had on the 3rd.

22:55 27.11.2022

14:26 24.11.2022 black bulldog in front of the supermarket.

20.11.2022 23:51 Sunday Basics. I went to Einhorn and had a really lovely day that felt homey. My kid was Fiete. He smacked me in the face after helping him pee and he was so cool with it. Hard to be mad at a blonde handsome man like that. I met a lovely girl there too. Was a lovely connection. Hopefully the cysts and infections heal. I bought some games on the ps4. I committed to staying at the j...

21:33 Monday 07.11.2022 I feel a heaviness in my chest. I can’t keep saying that things will work out without being one with them. The distance I can create to things. The closeness. The things I feel are wrong with me. The things I feel are great. What is it to connect. To see. The states that we can be in. The states that we are. Right, Annica?

11:32 31.10.2022 Monday Talked about the vipassana experience, some small details, large details. Moon and sun. I had some nice moments with the moon, and the falling petals. It waxed and then waned throughout the period. Really feeling it at night, after leaving the final meditation. Watching it. Considering if I should just meditate for the rest of that night in front of it in that open field. I...

30.10.2022 18:34 Sunday Clozee concert, Dustin, I got new keyboards and a 34 inch curved monitor. Reading Alan Watts and Arthur Shopenhauer. Sojourner Truth, ain’t I a woman. And everything moves.

22:52 Sunday 23.10.2022 ich habe einen Text geschrieben. Dann entschieden ihn sofort vorzulesen und hochzuladen. Wenn du eine Frage an Gott hattest, was würdest du fragen? Gute Nacht.

16.10.2022 22:13 Sunday I’m feeling very raw and emotional and about to sleep. Thinking about mom. Thinking about how sometimes selfishness is very important, and how being kind and loving and not holding on to things is a way to go. The teacher, as I cried, asked me how many vipassanas I did. “Three in one year? You’re very fortunate.” “Oh you’re like a little Buddha, he almost starved himself to...

05.10.2022 10:14 am Hayni tale3 kaman shwy

02.10.2022 Sunday 8:39 PM

25.09.2022 23:48 I’m feeling good as a person. The internal world and outer are matching better. The math of things is a bit clearer. From art, people and money. I want to train skills more often. Frisbee, balancing and juggling. The ADD is better managed. Brain.fm is helping. I haven’t been eating things in a way that spike my glucose. Consistent in Calisthenics. Now to find peace in a writing ha...

23:25 18.09.2022 Sunday. I write to myself with spoken words. I wake. I share my dream with you. I share my dream, oh what a wonderful dream it was. I share it with you. What do you dream next?