Midnight Wisdom

Sunday 23:47 11.09.2022 got back from London. Friend to my left helped me with internet. Full moon two nights ago. Glucose Revolution. Laith, Sara and Mousa are awesome.

04.09.2022 18:84 Sunday in London leaning on a wall with some graffiti. Pink, white, stripes of blue, black and some grey, and then yellow at the bottom. “It’s not what you think.” “So you’re not talking to a pretty lady?”

Aufgenommen 27.08.2022 21:00 Hochgeladen 28.08.2022 22:22 Ich habe entschieden, auf Deutsch auf zu nehmen, weil es wichtig ist dass ich mich höre. Ich habe die Aufnehmung heute auf dem Weg zum Beat81 strength and Cardio gehört. Schon ein paar Sachen gelernt. Ich habe im Fitnessstudio eine übergewichtige “unsolicited advice” gegeben. Davon schon was gelernt. Dann habe ich mit meiner Mutter gesproch...

Recorded 24.08.2022 20:39 Uploaded 28.08.2022 22:06 It was negative energy I felt after I spoke with my uncle (ammo in Arabic) Ziad. We spoke for an hour and a half, and it became clear to me the man loves himself his thoughts first and foremost. He insults people, creates problems, makes bad decisions, and complains about how unhappy he and his wife are although it was there decision to move into...

Recorded 23.08.2022 Tuesday 8-9 PM Uploaded 28.08.2022 22:02 I decided to take a walk and enjoy the night, that doesn’t happen so often. I spoke of the Tau Te Ching. And the conversation evolved into my anger. And such it is with people you recommend Vivobarefoot shoes to. I listened to this this week. Most of it.

22:21 Sunday 21.08.2022 I came back home, showered, talked to my housemates about being shirtless or not being shirtless in the house. I seemed to have been overestimating all the situations that happen at home. I did laundry, checked amazon for things I want to get, downloaded books, dead breathwork for 25 minutes (amazing) and recorded this. I ate chips yesterday night and it was surprisingly cl...

22:38 14.08.2022 I was happy about the 12th of August. I thought I like days that show a clear progression since my birthday (12th of June). I’m focusing on keeping perspective. On not losing myself to the constant and fast movement around me. Taking a step back from it all in my own way and reassessing, healing and moving on from things I have been holding on to for so long, thinking that I can f...

Recorded 08.07.2022 at around 6 pm in front of Netto. This episode is about me after Vipassana, seeing Deena, seeing Waad. And I’m here now thinking: “it’s interesting what I said and the place I was in then. I’m somewhere else now. That sex can put us in childish places, and that thinking someone else could ever be a solution to you is wrong.

23:31 Sunday 07.08.2022 how quickly the state of the brain can change. What we’re always used to doing or checking or otherwise, when we go somewhere else that’s much calmer. Thank you Than for inviting me, I met her at the fiction workshop I did two years ago. We did it online. They had a pear tree that tastes amazing. I took 3 pears with me here, ate one after leaving it outside of sisyphos befo...

Thursday 22:38 28.07.2022 I listened to a song 2 days ago, on Tuesday, for about 4 times in a row, and my attention has been going to shit all this time. What a pleasure it is to lose self in a multitude of coherent being. But the cost is losing the coherence of now.

24.07.2022 11:40 am, typing this at 17:07 pm Kinano, Laitho, Salmalo, Qaiso, you’ll all be beautiful people. Remember, you are loved, and empathy. Empathy comes first. But don’t forget to have compassion for yourselves. You’ll have to learn it all over again yourselves.

17.07.2022 23:01 Sunday Midnight Wisdom I talk about my experience with vipassana, dieting, and how I currently workout and what I read. Good night.

I have a Jordanian passport.

10.07.2022 Sunday 21:12 One day vipassana, and all that came in during the last hours was rage and exhaustion.

03.07.2022 Sunday 21:43 The questions we ask ourselves are what lead us. How do we learn the truth about our own attention.

Sunday 22:09 I am a vipassana meditator

15.06.2022 reflection is beauty. Space. Decisions. Inner voice. Best, take care

14.06.2022 00:37 AM Tuesday I am grateful. How would I answer the same question? “Should I be afraid to miss the phase where I could write this?” “Yes.” She said, “It could happen.” What I would say: “you’ll write what you need to write. If you have to write a story it doesn’t matter what happens in the world, you will get it done. Phase or no phase. Words are eternal. Just like your name, Khalid....

Week 190 6:01 PM Sunday Feeling relieved I recorded. I read 8 of 10 Letters to a young poet. Read of George Orwell's 'Why I Write', learning is great.  I ordered a new bike, arrives while I am in Vipassana, and I am thinking a lot about getting the Supernote A5x. It seems like an incredible machine but it is expensive.. Stay healthy. Find balance without blockage. Appreciate your ups and down...

Week 189 05.06.2022 Sunday 11:46 PM All the things we think all the time. How we keep thinking them. The instances. Go through them. That was a power nap. I ordered a bike online. Best, Khalid

Week 188 19:56 29.05.2022 you think you’re grown up until you see yourself be a kid again. And you forget all the wisdom you think you know, and you need Marvin Pauli to remind you about it all over again. I felt so unaligned last night. Accept the gifts. Hold on to nothing. Be. I saw Theo and did cupping today.

Week 188 24.05.2022 11:38 Kim, Thomas, Tom, Katharina. Die Sachen die du darauf achtest. Die Methode die du darin schreibst. Die kleine Bewegungen, das Papier dass sie zittert mit ihre gekleidete Daumen. Handschuhe mit Nageln. Die Schulter shrug und die Satz. Das bewegt sich alles. Und du tanzt mit. Du tanzt mit der Energie. Das ist alles was du tun kannst.

Week 187 22.05.2022 Sunday 22:58 pm I woke up knowing it would be a beautiful day. The reality of self within itself. I did crossfit and felt so open to everything in life. I cooked beans, threw the trash, cleaned the dishwasher. I want to figure out how to do my training routine and subscription soon. I’m laying in bed and my tailbone is just gone. Invisible shoes. The stories one can write and t...

Week 186 15.05.2022 10:45 PM Sunday I also started doing free life coaching online for strangers, I think I'm good at it and I'm following my format. I want to build my expertise and skills and apply things and be more in touch with life. I also am going to soon start as a child companion for impaired children (beeinträchtigte Kinder).  I woke up at 6 for three days in a row, the dreams I had...

Week 185 08.05.2022 10:37 PM I'm grateful. Little and little I learn more and more about myself, and more and more I see what kind of person I am and can be.  I'm finding better ways to organize myself and the things I do. The things that matter to me and how I prioritize. I have a lot of energy now that I don't speak to my roommates. As crazy as they want to see that, I was just done. And no...