Midnight Wisdom

10.12.2023 23:27 sorry this one’s short

٠٣.١٢.٢٠٢٣ الاحد I was inspired by Arabic news casters to record my day and thoughts in that style.

27.11.2023 I want to make you a salad. With spinach, tomatoes… walnuts and a little vinegar. And then I want to hold you.

23:14 26.11.2023 Sunday Second time I wake up with loss of coordination. Started headspace anxiety meditation again and it’s helped a lot. Spending time with friends is really valuable.

19.11.2023 23:34 I sent Mousa an 8 and 2 minute voice note. I went dancing twice this week. Love the teachers. Met Felix on Friday and had a good bro down. Went to a demonstration yesterday but it wasn’t for me. I went home and started writing a new book. I was supposed to go training with my new housemate today but woke up with a sore throat. On Thursday there was this guy who was wearing a white...

22:38 Sunday 12.11.2023

21:34 Tuesday 07.11.2023 The palestinian flag fell on me at 2:59 in the morning last night. I’ve been standing much taller these days.

23:30 05.11.2023 a few poems I recorded just now.

22:28 28.10.2023 I spoke to Dan at Golden gate and told him his set online was better than in person “what happened man :)” but I didn’t even listen to it. Wrong dj. We spoke about the pyramids and he recommended 2001: A space oddessey

23:54 22.10.2023 I say a lot of what was on my mind since two days ago. I’d rather not try.

18:54 22.10.2023 I did my 8th jump. Solo jumping out. Ran into Anni on the way back home, she invited me to a “Liebestanz” so let’s see how that’ll go. On my way now. I’ve lived for 9,993 days today. Let’s see how we heal.

23:27 15.10.2023 Sunday Watching Lupin after hanging with Ashraf and drawing Vernons house and thinking.

19:20 08.10.2023 I decided to record myself writing with my webcam and Rode Mic. At some point I acknowledged how really angry I was at my dad, being in the hospital, starting smoking again, not calling any of us when he was alone and only sending us angry shit. I didn't tell any of my friends or colleagues about this and was carrying it with myself for two weeks almost without venting at all....

01.10.2023 23:47 I went to a horrible full moon circle. The facilitation was horrible. Tea ceremony facilitator had a panic attack. The other facilitator made everything about herself and some stupid singing. Makes me think how things might go if I make my own circle. I wish to utilise my rage more, it’s a powerful tool. Shaved my beard about 40 minutes ago and left it as a goatee with a lighter m...

24.09.2023 Sunday 23:17 I am happy about myself and my progress. I wonder about my psychological health.

21.29.2023 Sonntag ich habe mehrere Aufnahmen auf Deutsch aufgenommen. Die fragen die ich mich zurzeit stelle: wie wird die Welt in 30 Jahren aussehen. Scheint für mich als ob das eine die wichtigste Fragen ist. Ich versuche noch die richtige Sachen zu schreiben und sauber zu denken. Was sonst? Mutter ist gut und in Palestina. Geschwister sind auch gut.

23:20 10.09.2023 second jump. Deiter. Pegy. Estella. Patrick. Jürgen.

21:58 06.09.2023 and ground lessons start tomorrow. Read 25 pages of the booklet. Oppenheimer was ok.

23:41 03.09.2023 I saw Mohammad Assi and his wife, and Ammo Waleed’s daughter of his cousin right before my train left. Changed the shirt on the platform from black to white. Homeless vibe red head charged her phone in my chair. Is there such a thing as too much Knafeh?

22:15 27.08.2023 Qais o Ubeidah. Meen Qais o meen Ubeidah.

18.08.2023 16:18 Just to note, I tried to call her when we were first messaging to clarify the thing through the phone. For some reason, she preferred to keep it through messaging and stay on the same note. Next time: I either do it on the phone, question and keep the person on the spot, or don’t engage at all. So many more wonderful woman out there than people who are like rock and don’t know how...

23:50 16.08.2023 New Moons. Here I am. Casanova - New list - aggression doesn’t make man.

Sunday 13.08.2023 10:30 pm Mom sent me a 3 minute voicenote at 1 in the morning, on my way home from a day and night out. Got it as soon as I arrived. On this day, I made out with three different woman and talked to maybe 11 or 15. “I don’t like the path you’re on. Baba was crying in the kitchen because his children don’t call him.” This was my response the day after, feeling abandoned by the girl...

22:24 06.08.2023 I love you. You’re so great. There’s so much good about you. How you are and approach things.

23:53 30.07.2023 And you might wake up with more direction. Go through your conditioning, your demons, and see what happens. ~11,500 words. I’m just trying to see clearly. I hope I do. Khalid does not chase. Khalid does not try to connect.