Midnight Wisdom

I'm keeping up with the workouts and I'm glad for that. Exercise, and eating well, and balancing everything brings out a different thing in me.  Let's see.

I am.

07.02.2021 a new place a new job and new housemates I deal with everyday. Back on the progress wagon, and away from the place I used to live in, I found that place to be very dirty. Working out, eating well, reading and writing. Good time. Let’s see. One thing though, I’ve been feeling like my dreams have been packed with meaning but that also makes them more obscure and harder to remember. For su...

31st of Jan 2021 I talked about the last few days, finding a job, moving into the apartment, realizing differences in vibration, love, life and Tzha Truzth.

27th January 2021 I almost uploaded my cv instead of the episode. The equinox of Zenith. Never forgets.

24th of January 2021 Covid +, quarantining till the 28th of Jan and then moving out into the new place then.  Glad I came back to Germany from Dubai, was a tough flight actually. Because I was actually sick. Took my measures not to infect anybody but who knows. As much as learning from mistakes is nice it's a lot better not to make them.  What secret key am I looking for to hit a truth o...

27th of January 2021 The day I travel back to Berlin. Let’s hope we keep our health and everyone else’s too.

Keeping track of my life by week is interesting. Makes for perspective. Week 115 is when my brother is getting married. Good stuff. It's the 5th of January, recording into the 6th. 2021.  Putting things together and packing my bag. Looking forward to a new scene and family and loved ones. My time at Iserlohn was good. Looking forward to the future. From one hope to the next.

I had the pleasure of recording with Marvin on the 3rd of January 2021, again after almost exactly 2 years since the first one.  It was nice to catch up, a short but intense conversation.  You can really see how he's developed internally in a beautiful way.  I'm looking forward to see more growth and self love from the both of us.

I wrote a lot this week.  1 hour in my personal pattern recognizing notebook.  And hours of transcribing, and writing.  Vernon. And I got a podcast episode out of it. Nice. It's coming together. Nicely.  This was nice, this last hour and a half.  Reading a little out loud, recording, and writing.  Writing a lot and quickly.  I even did a few 5 minute writings and...

27th Dec 2020 8:30 pm low low on Tare2s bed playing bloodborne. Food, love, Vernon, reading, and playing. Not too fucked. Wearing fur hoodie. Waiting for liiife. Finding our patteeerns, growing more Zeeen. Stuff like that.

20.12.2020 I'm glad I sat and did this one, it's easy to say you don't have to and to find something else to do. Been in a fasted state today and got a lot of things done. It's nice to let the body digest and be with itself as it is.  Books and content have been a very big thing for me really, ordering books with style I like is nice. Absorbing from them and getting a new sense for words and...

16.12.2020 This recording started in Koerner park, blue jacket, black t-shirt, and fur hoodie beneath.. It was after I went to Marwan's place, took the package from him, talked, saw two lines, walked back, stood on the edge of water in the park, thought of sacrifice, got an espresso for 1.2 euros and then walked more before going to that park closer to my house with the train, observing everything...

13.12.2020 1:33 am 2 days to the new moon. No one sees anyone anymore. It's insane. I called Amer today to see how he's doing. To be compassionate. Just to tell him that what he went through wasn't easy, and it wasn't. At least I have an older brother, he doesn't. He has himself and his abusive family, and friends that are only friends and not family. It doesn't mean I'm a friend of his or anythin...

06.12.2020 Had a Russian Bone Doctor called Ruslan* over yesterday. Interesting experience. I'd recommend it to anyone. *I said Rusman in the episode.

01.12.2020 Back then I had been feeling like things were going to fall apart. I got fired that morning, and recorded this when I got at home. Funny phase in my life. I'm not bothered though. Dealt with it really quickly and got what I needed out of it.  Had a job for two months, really close to home, met some nice people, a girl, improved my languages, my words, did some good reading, ate wel...

I feel like it can all crash any second. But it will pass. I’m young and healthy, and I’m good. My heart is good. I’ll keep moving, for now, as long as I get to keep moving.

I woke and had a German class. I immediately recorded my dream. I'm glad I did.

18.11.2020 I went through the situation in my mind a million times. How this thing could have affected that, how when I did this that happened. How he might have been joking, how he was, how he was also crazy. There's more structure now, for sure. I craved it, have been craving it and am very glad for it. I'm glad for it. Take care.

I took a bong hit, pulled out my phone and began recording while I was still in the house. In the middle of it all, everything still chaotic and on top of each other. I get interrupted twice. What a day. I'll be excited to listen to this one day.

My housemate's gone mad.

Recorded on the 5th of November 2020. Felt like a good day. Regaining flow. I just got off the phone with my grandfather now. And was just present with him. Sunday 8th of November 4:37 pm. It's good to have him in my life, who knows how long I'll have him for. Things speak to me at night. And I speak to myself. Formulating sentences, putting them together. Thinking it all through.  I wish I c...

Can't be too bothered.

24th of October 2020  2 years now, on the dot. I had nice dreams last night. A priestess on an oval boat.

I recorded this week on my phone, at different times and segments after doing things and throughout all of it. I find it a much more interesting way to do it if I want to keep a real time journal I can look back to and reflect on. This week: Reflected on why pure reflection is considered the highest form of intelligence, even if someone isn't 'smart'. (11 minutes) Didn't come to any real answer. S...