The Leaves of a Victim never more with Steven Wilson

This episode is just basic celebration stuff.  I talk about being a suicide and keeping time..  I talk about my best friend in grade school. I read from “Something wicked this way comes” by Ray Bradbury. Happy Birthday to all of You!!

Form follows Function.  Or so it goes. This episode again ventures into political philosophy here in America while at the same time dealing with some opinions of mine about my group therapy format. The reading for this episode is taken from the Federalist Papers: specifically, no. 10. James Madison admits something about the human that have always found a bit shocking; especially for someone suppo...

this episode is a tangent of the standard as summer has made group therapy light in attendance and topics thinner than usual.  This episode deals with the timeless assumption that america is an asylum. Asylum is defined as a place or people that needs care.  I think that fits perfectly. I maintain the format by reading prior to podcast, and this time I go with “Democracy in America” written by Ale...

Time is a concept that requires one to have a mental illness to keep it. The Greek believed past, present , and future meant time existed.  Einstein said time didn’t exist in the way people speak of it. For me, the DC comic film “The Flash” is based on a main story line in Barry Allen’s comic; going back in time to save his mother’s life which would save his father from being wrongly prosecuted fo...

I am grateful for my life in America.  I am well aware of the cancer within this country, but that doesn’t keep me from acknowledging the benefits. This episode is based off the happenings in another group therapy session between two members: one, he was speaking of the trauma of his dog losing a toy while, two, the second member was speaking of the loss of two members of his family in American wa...

This episode is based a group therapy game where everyone in the group picks one superpower they would love to have.  this is a form of linguistical Rorschach in that it tells a great deal about the person. The reading is from HP Lovecraft “Dunwich Horror”. I chose the power to bring back the dead.  Biblical in all.

Time.  the most precious thing in the universe ; and it is the heart of this podcast-unevenly. In this episode I again speak of our group therapy discussions and deal with the war in Ukraine, and how the “victims” of a war touch the victims of sexual abuse. I read from “Are prisons obsolete?” By Angela Davis. I was always impressed with her critical thinking and how clear her writing style was in...

this episode deals with myself revisiting NA.  I read from th blue book and find its opening salvo hitting the human self bulls eye. I see each person as a recipe of sorts; needing just the right amount of certain things to exist and function.  obviously this doesn’t work for all of us as I am proof of dysfunction. I embrace the recipe for myself and find it easier to exist in real form.

Tonight I speak about how one member of the group session and their testimonial about one of. The circumstances in which they were raped.  The group member gave a testimonial about what happened while watching How the Grinch stole Christmas TV special. I watched it this morning and it became a slight trigger for myself and afterwards I felt sick to my stomach.  It is rare that this happens to me....

Today’s podcast episode is a simple list of things I am grateful for in my life. The list is not in any special order.  It is just a exercise we did in group therapy.  Everyone went around after having ten minute s to write out what the things in their life they were grateful for. In this episode I go through my list and share other observations as we head into the holiday season. Happy thanksgivi...

Art is my life now and has been for a long time.  this episode is about the types of art I do . Visual art Piano composition Pyrography Leather craft Poetry Fiction writing I enjoy opera (Don Giovanni) and some ballet.  I attend many art exhibition openings.   Art expression and creativity is crucial to my existence. Www. Steven Wilson relations.com is my current website.  My online offerings are...

Today’s episode is based on Halloween and a few guys in group take on safety in modern America. One of the guys in group got abused on Halloween by a man passing out candy.  this started the discussion about the changes society put in place to protect kids today from danger.  These things were not happening when I was young. I also speak about the concept of life as a masquerade party. this is not...

Today’s episode is again taken from group therapy and how two members are dealing with medication changes as well as dealing with the reality of being called patient even out of hospital. America doesn’t treat mental illness with the same vigor or acceptance of physical or biological illness.  this reality is a harsh one indeed. Coping with this business model is beyond confusing for most as you u...

Today’s episode is about my birthday and how I celebrate things. The reading is from 1948 “Lost Son” by Theodore Roethke .  I read parts 4 and 5 this time. I speak about how death and funerals have changed my view of myself and society in America.  I speak on virtue and other valuations taken into consideration for a life lived as well as funerals being more for the attendee rather than the deceas...

This episode involve the running dialogue within my group about our Judicial in America regarding pedophilia. I take my reading from Marquis De Sade’s Dialogue “The Priest and the dying man”. The running dialogue involves the difference between revenge and justice for those prosecuted for the crimes of sexually abusing a minor.  This is a topic which we discuss every time there is a news story abo...

Today’s episode is based on my assessment of group members in regards to Aristotle’s work on friendships. I also use Thomas Merton’s “No man is an Island”. I find that there is a different life for those of us who were sexually abused as children when people discover that we were raped; and then discover that we attend group therapy or individual therapy.  The members of the group sounded off this...

In this episode I deal with the metaphors and analogies pertaining to life, addiction, and abuse. War. The term gets used , perhaps too much, which makes it devalued language game.  Often we say, “war on drugs”, “war on poverty”, “war on depression’. I call for a war on safety…I call for a war on prevention as I believe one should embrace the chaos known as life.  I am in the hurricane.  I am in t...

This episode I explore the educational paradigm of being known as a victim and how that translates to those around us; especially our family and how they treat us socially. My group discussed how they are treated when they return to family gatherings and how they conduct themselves and how they are treated by family and friends that know they were victims of sex abuse as children. This is somethin...

this episode is about Timing. A time to heal, a time to live, a time to die.  I have always believed that now is the best time to do something because now is all you have.  Making plans to do something later on may make you seem civilized or adult, but it is completely illogical.   No one is guaranteed tomorrow. I begin this episode with a letter from the Marquis De Sade to his wife.  In it he use...

This episode is based on the coping skill called repression. I do not rebirth Freud , but rather I delve into how I used it to survive the traumatic events of my past and the sex abuse I suffered in the 7th grade. My coping skills revolve around hedonism; sex drugs and debauchery.  All are considered to be unhealthy life choices.  All are considered to be dangerous to the self.  But these things h...

This episode I talk about the Halo effect and the way judgment takes place upon us all the time.  We also judge people; based on physical traits. The Halo effect is defined in psychology as projecting attributes upon someone based on unrelated physical appearance; for example, one might say, “she looks crazy” or “he looks smart”. This show is in response to some feedback and comments I have gotten...

I had to upload this one again as the new upload removed this episode.  Buzz sprout doesn’t know what happened.

This episode isn’t a regular episode. It is based on a statement from one of the guys in my adult survivor group saying that the shooting was “just another shooting”.  It was uncharacteristic of him to be indifferent about such suffering and atrocity. Again, I did not analyze him or any other in the group but I do so now within the construct of the podcast. Live in your heart so you don’t become n...

This episode is more of the clinical form of group dynamics as I do mention those things we have studied within psychology called group dynamics.  Here, I equate family to group dynamics. if you listened to part 1 you will have a clearer comprehension for this episode. Plus, you miss me reading from lovecraft’s “the thing at the door step”.

I begin this episode with a Lovecraft story in which the main characters become “brothers” due to circumstance and commonality. This episode is about the group dynamics of family and the roles we play within the family unit.  I use many things from my education; the one class I taught in college, my own group therapy, and the stories of group members. I do not go into the roles until part 2.  I am...