Sunshine peering through the fog

I absolutely love, need and want people to text or message saying their thinking of myself (and girls) - I hope those messages never stop regardless of the time of year.

This week marks pivotal guilt for me.....the recording may not make sense as I am literally all over the place with raw emotion and scattered thoughts.

My attempt to decipher if I'm actually feeling grief or the effects of menopause.....yes, I feel like I'm going crazy.

Making a decision that haunts me and makes me see what others have seen, not my best side.

Statistically families compare notes between members....who did what to whom, choices others made, etc. I make the choice everyday to attempt to be open and honest with my daughters, especially once John's diagnosis came to fruition. Everyone's journey is unique and different, just sharing mine.

Talking about the difference between the man I married vs the man he became. I have replaced the idea of writing a book with the above title with this podcast....enjoy my little bit of humour at the end.

Never thought I'd share what subtle but obvious changes happened last year but if sharing it helps anyone else in their journey it's worth it. Doesn't change the outcome for us, perhaps sharing it will change others.

Blessed to be able to "love" grandchildren as their innocence melts your heart and makes it easier to talk/reminisce about your loved one that's passed.

Today, December 3rd (2024) marks the beginning of the end, in my opinion. It's gonna get messy from here as I verbalize as best as I can our daily lives from here on in to April 8, 2025

Needing to get this story off my chest and yes, the title appears negative but it is the reality of life and how you need to advocate for yourself and loved ones ALWAYS!

A bit of a mish mash of words - more sharing my thoughts on how I feel John prepared me for moving forward without him.

Give yourself and any others grieving a break. Don't try to compare your grief to theirs.....just sit back and listen and just be in the moments.

Attempting to lighten things up and talking about the required number of hugs a person needs a day to release endorphins and just feel good.

It's hard not to feel like the elephant in the room when you're a widow - let's talk about the fact that we're all going to pass away someday.

Although I'm aware of my grief....it can still sneak up on you when you least expect it even when you think you're prepared.

Struggling to figure out how to move forward with this podcast and decided I am going to attempt t30o share the memories from 2024 to hopefully release them so I can move past last year and find memories with John that make me smile. I mean we have over 30 years of memories together, I should be able to work my way through the shitshow 2024 was to remember John as others do.

Allow me to introduce myself, Tali McGovern - John's wife. John is no longer with us as of April 8, 2025 due to an inoperable butterfly glioblastoma discovered December 30, 2024. I hope you'll welcome me to take over his podcast and put into words the life journey myself and John shared up until his passing. Feel free to let me know you're listening by sending an email to sunshinepeeri...

Harassment should never happen, but it does. It happened to me. It haunts me everyday.

Life is a gift, but sometimes the gift with shaken you to the core. But it is knowing your broken, how to fix and moving forward

Going over healing after 3.5 yrs of being away from the frontline

Reflection about this past year for myself, my journey and what I am doing, may be good for you? Also, reflections from others that email me at sunshinepeeringthroughthefog@gmail.com. Make your mental weight a little lighter for 2023... Happy Holidays John

this episode is a part of my journey with C-PTSD Anxiety and Depression. But, your emails are on the rise about yearly mental health assessments. Keeping on top of the silent passenger. Sit back and listen and if you want to come on or email me your thoughts, my email is        sunshinepeeringthroughthefog@gmail.com

I would like your help when it comes to resources to help family through your unsettling time. I believe we need to share our knowledge. Because power is in resources... And resources is a way for family to understand what your going through. email me at sunshinepeeringthroughthefog@gmail.com

With C-PTSD and the effects of everything and trying to keep your mind at the balance point of a teeter tatter is tough, but what happens if you can't hold back and censor your self... listen to my experience. Reach out tell me your stories at sunshinepeeringthroughthefog@gmail.com 

Return back to work is scary... but the real scary part is your co workers. Are they going to embrace or be upset because you may have a accommodation.  There is a few strong words... fyi... let me know your thought and would you embrace your co worker or not???