Searching for Christopher Robin

In this episode, we do a free roll and discuss how past trauma can affect you as an adult. We talk about the challenges this presents and how we deal with those challenges.

For years, I never questioned why I didn’t have a father figure in my life… until I was forced to live with someone who constantly reminded me what a bad one looked like. This episode dives into: A family narrative built around me, the truth about my biological father. Asking myself: If he wasn’t my father… then who was he? A Vietnam veteran who peaked in high school. The stories, reputation, and...

In this powerful episode of Searching for Christopher Robin, I’m joined by Dr. Christian Frazier, mental health specialist, speaker, and author of Happiness Triggers, to explore how childhood trauma shapes us long after childhood ends. This conversation goes beyond storytelling and into understanding. Together, we break down:How childhood trauma impacts adult behavior and relationshipsThe hidden w...

In this special crossover episode, Searching for Christopher Robbin meets The Black Feather Intuitive for a powerful and deeply personal exploration of childhood trauma from two perspectives: lived experience and intuitive insight. This episode bridges the gap between real-life events and energetic interpretation, offering a different lens on the early chapters of my story. Together, we explore:Th...

Episode 8: In this episode, we discuss the home that would become the "Childhood Home" of the fable. We briefly talk about how I got there, what is to come, and a recap of some of the stories from past episodes. We took a little break before we dived in. This is the house where my abuse gets dialed up and locked in for the long haul.

Episode 7 steps back to reflect on the journey so far. After six deeply personal episodes, this recap revisits the key moments, environments, and experiences that shaped the early chapters of my story. From the earliest memories and childhood moves, to the houses that defined different stages of my life, these first episodes explored how trauma, confusion, and survival instincts began forming long...

Episode 6 takes place in The Green House, where two very different emotional worlds existed side by side. On one side were Miss V and Henry — gentle, warm, and nurturing. Their piano, her singing, and the smell of cookies became my first true sanctuary. It was one of the few places where I felt safe, even if only for moments. But this same period also held confusion and manipulation that I didn’t...

Episode 5 takes us into The Yellow House, also known as the Phillips House — a home that left a lifelong mark. This is where I first became aware of my own mortality, and where fear took on a shape it still holds today. This episode centers around the Hallway Event, a moment so powerful that, to this day, I still do not know what triggered it. All I know is that it changed me. The immobilizing nig...

In Episode 4, I revisit a period I refer to as “The White House,” a chapter of my childhood marked by the earliest signs of grooming, manipulation, and emotional confusion. This is where affection became a weapon, boundaries disappeared, and the foundations of fear and instability were built. During this time, I experienced: The beginning of sexual abuse, Grooming through affection, forced closene...

In Episode 3 of Searching for Christopher Robbin, I revisit the earliest memories that stayed with me—the moments where childhood shifted, and life no longer felt stable or safe. This episode focuses on my first reliable memory and a series of life-changing events that occurred around the age of five, beginning with a move from a farm to an apartment. It wasn’t just a change of location—it meant l...

This episode explores my childhood living with my grandparents and three aunts, a time that should have felt safe but was layered with confusion, instability, and emotional displacement. I also discuss a traumatic brain injury sustained during kindergarten, and how early physical trauma intersected with emotional and psychological vulnerability at a very young age. The episode centers around the s...

This first episode of Searching for Christopher Robbin introduces who I am, why this podcast exists, and the story I’ve carried for most of my life. I am a survivor of childhood abuse—mental, physical, and sexual. The abuse began when I was a child and shaped my identity, relationships, and mental health well into adulthood. Although the abuse eventually ended, its impact did not. This episode is...