PD RAW

Flawless talks about her relationship with her ASPD partner and some of his difficulties. She highlights some of the patterns she has, where she holds back in her interactions with others, hiding parts of herself to stay psychologically safe.

Flawless shares some harrowing details of growing up in an environment plagued by intergenerational trauma and emotional abuse. She recounts experiences of being betrayed or mistreated by family members, leading to a deep-seated distrust of others. Through these anecdotes, Flawless reveals how early childhood interactions shaped her personality, resulting in feelings of mistrust and isolation.

TRIGGER WARNING: CHILDHOOD SEXUAL ABUSE In this episode, we meet Flawless, a young woman grappling with the effects of an intense lack of safety in childhood. Flawless outlines the events leading to her formal diagnoses and shares a few reflections on how she is affected by the guardedness of others, revealing some of challenges of maintaining identity integrity when we haven't had the upbringing...

Simone shares her struggles with a dysfunctional family dynamic. Diagnosed with recurring depression and BPD, she wonders if ADHD and autism might better explain her experiences. Raised by a distant, sometimes violent father and an emotionally unstable mother, Simone was thrust into a caretaker role, trying to stabilise her mother's moods. She describes a family environment fraught with emotional...

TRIGGER WARNING: ABUSE, VIOLENCE AND MANIPULATION Loksat, diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder in his late teens, discusses his why he now thinks that he is more likely to fit the criteria for narcissistic personality disorder, and what it was that held him back from expressing himself. He describes his attraction to individuals who have borderline personality disorder (BPD) and how thes...

TRIGGER WARNING: DISCUSSIONS OF ABUSE Loksat was diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder (ASPD) at a young age but now, having started to reconnect with his feelings, believes he's more likely to be NPD. He talks about his deliberate manipulations of his BPD girlfriend, what her intense reactions mean to him, and how he finds safety in her acting out. As we dig down into the details of his...

Ilkin was diagnosed with NPD in his early twenties, as well as ADHD and mild OCD. His NPD drove him to achieve in his career, but also to self-destruct. In this second part of his interview, he talks about the negatives of NPD, both in himself and what he has seen in others. He also reveals a program which helped him learn to be honest and vulnerable - one which has the potential to be adapted to...

Ilkan comes from a country that was once part of the USSR. He shares his journey of self-discovery and recovery and reflects on the perceptions he held about his own intelligence and how distorted beliefs contributed to his narcissistic traits. Through therapy and introspection, Ilkan learns to embrace his ordinariness, allowing himself to connect more authentically with others and experience genu...

In a candid discussion, support-forum moderator and creator of npd-recovery.com, "Invis", opens up about her journey through addiction and mental health issues, finding growth through communication, respect and the Smart Recovery program. This secular alternative to 12-step programs helped initiate a process of rebuilding, despite setbacks like a dramatic shame spiral triggered by a fragile moment...

To celebrate the launch of the new npd-recovery.com website, Its creator, Invisible, joins us to share parts of her journey. In between putting together the free resources available on the website, Invis is also a moderator on a major support forum for people with narcissism - a forum which has over 50K members, many of whom have experience of Cluster B disorders/traits. In her early years, Invis...

In this podcast episode, Haifa discusses her diagnoses of borderline personality disorder and narcissistic personality disorder, giving insight into the challenges and interactions between these conditions. She candidly shares her past struggles with impulsivity, abandonment issues, and the protective role of anger. Haifa touches on her upbringing and her struggles with her demanding mother. Cultu...

Enmeshed families are said to be created by adults who do not have clear psychological boundaries. These boundaries are part of what helps a child to develop their own sense of self. What is it like to experience a parent who does not have a clear sense of self, or proper internal boundaries? And what is it like from either side of the adult relationships that these children grow up to have? Lucy...

Derek is an English teacher who has spent decades running a classroom with strength and confidence. Behind the scenes, he battled the trauma of very painful childhood experiences, but at work, his bravado gave his students a feeling of safety. However, recently, something happened and everything unravelled. The darkness of the past has finally caught up with him. Derek's thoughtfulness and express...

Have you ever had one of those nightmares where you are in a group of people and something really humiliating has happened? Shame is such a deep, powerful emotion. It makes us hide parts of ourselves in order to fit in. Some of the theories about the development of personality disorders are that the young child buries many parts of themselves which their caregivers cannot deal with. These parts be...

To mark the inaugural NPD Awareness Month, 4 guests joined the creator of this campaign, Reddit moderator Invisible Monster, for a moving discussion about how they experience the disorder, as well as the things they have found which have helped them heal.

Ryan faced addiction, rehab and the breakdown of his relationship as he wrestled with accepting his diagnosis. With the support of a therapist, he was finally able to face his inner turmoil, and now speaks openly about his NPD in an effort to help others and to live with honesty and vulnerability.

Ryan's family dragged themselves up out of poverty, but despite outward appearances, real happiness was elusive. With a second failed marriage, Ryan was forced to look inside for answers.

Guide is a young person affected by a complex diagnosis, but who is facing it with determination and clarity.

In this episode, Tulip sits down for a chat with Who about ASPD and her perspective on the stigma surrounding it.

Therapist Lisa Charlebois talks about treating people grappling with narcissism, what to look for in a therapist and her experiences with a borderline mother. Lisa has been brave enough to be open about recognising that she was a narcissist in college as she was studying counselling, which has allowed many of her clients to drop their barriers and be open with her. She says that narcissistic and b...

Lisa Charlebois is a therapist who specialises in treating narcissism. Why? Well, she is open about having suffered from it herself. Her openness and non-judging attitude mean that she has been able to help every single person with narcissism who has come to her. That's right – not only is it a possibly treatable condition, it is a very treatable condition, if you know what you are doing and y...

Finn talks about her recent realisation of the possiblity of qualifying for an NPD diagnosis, and looks back at her relationships with a new perspective.

Carl tells us about searching for a diagnosis, how he experiences narcissism, and about his own approach to tackling it. 

Relationships between people with Borderline Personality Disorder or traits  and people with grandiose narcissism are extremely common. What is going on in these dynamics?  Grandiose narcissists and vulnerable narcissists are also a very common pairing. These relationships can be best viewed as occurring between someone with a dominant personality style and someone with a submissive pers...

Casting with yet another participant from the land of british people, Few welcomes on to the cast Early Morning Barking/Richard! The two borderline (and one additionally NPD) males break the ice and delve into some common topics they both hold close to their disordered hearts. They start with the topic of therapy: how does sitting in a room and talking with someone once a week lead to you getting...