The Older Sister You Wish You Had

People think I’m crazy. I make life-changing decisions fast, usually without any logical sense. I just do it. I get why that confuses them, but I’m just as confused watching people talk themselves out of things they want to do just because they can’t figure out every detail. Why do they make decisions so hard? Life is short. You don’t want to wake up one day when you’re older and think about all t...

I changed one word in the title of the podcast, and I tell you why...... What is all this fear about age? It seems to be something so many people are afraid of. There are so many labels and so much talk about how you're supposed to feel at a certain age, what you're supposed to do by a certain age, and honestly, I'm just really confused. Who makes all these rules? And Why are we following them? Wa...

In this clip I share about an old boyfriend. He said it was love but it was really jealousy in disguise. Looking back, the signs were all there.

After 4 1/2 years in my relationship, it was like a light just went on. All of a sudden, I realized something, and everything changed in that relationship. All of a sudden it was so easy. I've made many mistakes in relationships, and along the way I have really come to understand the importance and value of feminine and masculine energy. I wouldn't live any other way. I share it all in this episod...

There was a time in my life I stressed about EVERYTHING. I stressed about getting simple things done. I stressed about where I was in life, I stressed about what I was going to do for a career. If I like this, if I don't like this. I f I was going to get married.... relationships.... If I planned a party, I would stress about cleaning for the party, then I would stress about cleaning after the...

Most People wait until they're miserable before they make a change. I used to think that way too.... until one sentence at a leadership meeeting completely changed how I looked at my future. I share the story of how I took a promotion, moved to Nashville for a Diroctor's position, walked int a room to lead the five men that wanted the job I got, and learned what it feels like to lead when nobody w...

I thought I knew what love was. Turns out, I didn't know shit. 😂 I've been in love more than once, and let me tell you...they were not all the same. Some of it was amazing. Some of it was completely fucked up. Some of it I probably should've walked away from a lot sooner. And somehow, I wouldn't take any of it back. Because love is fucking wild. Loving is living. What makes us fall in love? Why d...

People ask me all the time how I stay so calm. The truth? I don't always. In this episode, I'm talking about what I actually do when life starts coming at me iin every direction. A fight with a man, family drama, stress, disappointment, bad news, things not going my way... I still get triggered. I just handle it different than I used to. It's about getting through life without letting...

Maybe I was supposed to hate myself? It seems like people would be more comfortable if I was sitting here telling you I don't feel good about myself. I don't feel beautiful. I don't feel enough. F$ck that. Apparently, for some reason, it seems to trigger people if you feel good about yourself. And honestly, I struggled with sharing this one. It feels a little too personal. Do i really want people...

Love is beautiful and Love can be painful. I've been thinking a lot about love lately because, honestly, right now it feels a little painful to me. I was listening to a song the other day, and he said when you are 95 or 100 years old , you're not going to look back and wish you had a bigger house, a nicer car , or made more money. You're going to wish you spent more time with the people you love....

From getting caught in the middle of a demonstration in Barcelona to all the random, unexpected moments in between. I'm sharing some of the travel stories that have stayed with me over the years. The truth is, it's never really about the destination. It's the detours, the things that go wrong, and the completely unplanned moments that make us feel so alive. Those are the stories we end...

One thing tha t we all have in common is that we are going to die.. That's a fact. Death doesn't scare me. What scares me more is losing the people I love. In this episode, I share the stories of the many people I've lost throughout my life and why those experiences have made me who I am today. Death taught me how to live. It's why I live fully. Why I love fully. Why I travel. Why...

I spent the last couple of weeks in Istanbul traveling on my own, wandering the city with no real plan, riding the metro, meeting people, getting lost, and saying yes to unexpected experiences. In this episode I share about what surprised me most about solo travel in Istanbul, the kindness i experienced, the connections I made, and why some of my favorite moments came fromsimply being open to what...

I didn't think I was in a jealous relationship. At least, not at first. Looking back, there were a lot of things explained away because I thought they meant he cared. In this episode, I talk about jealousy, the things I missed and was I part of the problem...

I used to think the hardest part would be leaving. But the truth is, I didn't want to leave. No matter how chaotic it became, no matter how impossible it felt, there was still a part of me trying to figure out how to make it work. I would have done anything and gone through anything to make it work, even losing myself completely. This episode is about the side of a painful relationship people...

For years, I live inside that kind of emotional intensity, your body adapts. Your nervous system learns to survive. You normalize things that, in hindsight, feel impossible to explain. In this episode, I share what it was like to live with that fear, how trauma rewires your body, and what happens when survival becomes your everyday reality. This is one of the most personal and honest episodes I&#3...

Do you forgive your parents? I thought I did. But forgiveness hit different the day I watched my dad reive our entire childhood...and realize he remembered none of the good parts. Not one. This episode is about us before we were old enough to prove them wrong, and why some of them never bothered to rewrite it.

I met a woman who spoke about her father with so much love. The way she described being cherished, protected and deeply cared for stopped me in my tracks. It opened the door to memories of my own father, my childhood and parts of my story I hadn't visited in years. In this episode, I share personal stories, honest reflections, and the emotions that surfaced as I looked back on the years. If yo...

I used to think people that stayed in relationships like this were weak. I didn't understand it at all. Then I lived it. In this episode, I talk honestly about how, painful, chaotic relationships can happen little by little, without fully realizing it . How love, confusion, hope and loyalty can blur the truth. I also share what I lived through in this relationship and how I'm one question...

You never knew which version of him you were going to get. One minute everything was perfect...greay trips, good times and the out of nowhere, he'd explode. No warning. No logic. Just Chaos. In this episode, I'm sharing the real, unfiltered stories of what it was like to love someone who could snap at any moment.. turning everyday life into unpredictability and fear. This is abo0ut the con...

I went from being in one of the worst floods Hawaii has seen in years, my town complete devastation.... To getting on aplane and flying straight into a dream trip for a wedding and adventure. Two completely different worlds. Conflicting emotions I can't fully explain how and what this feels like. Crazy emotions.....

In this episode , I sit down with Ashley Nguyen, a Human Design and Astrology consultant, to talk about why some people seem to flow through life one way, while others feel like they're constantly pushing against it. We explore the idea that maybe you're not broken, you're just wired differently. We talk about Human Design, how your natural energy works, why some people are built to in...

In this episode, I share a chapter of my life that changed everything. After my divorce, my nervous system was completely shot. I chose to leave him and and the life behind. What followed was a period of traveling, trusting my intuition, finding myself and eventually living in places like Thailand and Bali while exploring the world. I talk about what that time was really like, the emotional afterm...

What happens when pain pushes you to become someone new? In this episode, Alexandra and I talk about heartbreak, trying to figur life out, and the decision to use pain as fuel instead of letting it break you. Some people stay stuck. Others build something from it. This conversation is about choosing to turn pain into power.

This is a short follow up on the last episode on insecurities. I share some of the ones I experienced early on......