The Older Sister You Wish You Had

Maybe I was supposed to hate myself? It seems like people would be more comfortable if I was sitting here telling you I don't feel good about myself. I don't feel beautiful. I don't feel enough. F$ck that. Apparently, for some reason, it seems to trigger people if you feel good about yourself. And honestly, I struggled with sharing this one. It feels a little too personal. Do i really want people...

Love is beautiful and Love can be painful. I've been thinking a lot about love lately because, honestly, right now it feels a little painful to me. I was listening to a song the other day, and he said when you are 95 or 100 years old , you're not going to look back and wish you had a bigger house, a nicer car , or made more money. You're going to wish you spent more time with the people you love....

From getting caught in the middle of a demonstration in Barcelona to all the random, unexpected moments in between. I'm sharing some of the travel stories that have stayed with me over the years. The truth is, it's never really about the destination. It's the detours, the things that go wrong, and the completely unplanned moments that make us feel so alive. Those are the stories we end...

One thing tha t we all have in common is that we are going to die.. That's a fact. Death doesn't scare me. What scares me more is losing the people I love. In this episode, I share the stories of the many people I've lost throughout my life and why those experiences have made me who I am today. Death taught me how to live. It's why I live fully. Why I love fully. Why I travel. Why...

I spent the last couple of weeks in Istanbul traveling on my own, wandering the city with no real plan, riding the metro, meeting people, getting lost, and saying yes to unexpected experiences. In this episode I share about what surprised me most about solo travel in Istanbul, the kindness i experienced, the connections I made, and why some of my favorite moments came fromsimply being open to what...

I didn't think I was in a jealous relationship. At least, not at first. Looking back, there were a lot of things explained away because I thought they meant he cared. In this episode, I talk about jealousy, the things I missed and was I part of the problem...

I used to think the hardest part would be leaving. But the truth is, I didn't want to leave. No matter how chaotic it became, no matter how impossible it felt, there was still a part of me trying to figure out how to make it work. I would have done anything and gone through anything to make it work, even losing myself completely. This episode is about the side of a painful relationship people...

For years, I live inside that kind of emotional intensity, your body adapts. Your nervous system learns to survive. You normalize things that, in hindsight, feel impossible to explain. In this episode, I share what it was like to live with that fear, how trauma rewires your body, and what happens when survival becomes your everyday reality. This is one of the most personal and honest episodes I&#3...

Do you forgive your parents? I thought I did. But forgiveness hit different the day I watched my dad reive our entire childhood...and realize he remembered none of the good parts. Not one. This episode is about us before we were old enough to prove them wrong, and why some of them never bothered to rewrite it.

I met a woman who spoke about her father with so much love. The way she described being cherished, protected and deeply cared for stopped me in my tracks. It opened the door to memories of my own father, my childhood and parts of my story I hadn't visited in years. In this episode, I share personal stories, honest reflections, and the emotions that surfaced as I looked back on the years. If yo...

I used to think people that stayed in relationships like this were weak. I didn't understand it at all. Then I lived it. In this episode, I talk honestly about how, painful, chaotic relationships can happen little by little, without fully realizing it . How love, confusion, hope and loyalty can blur the truth. I also share what I lived through in this relationship and how I'm one question...

You never knew which version of him you were going to get. One minute everything was perfect...greay trips, good times and the out of nowhere, he'd explode. No warning. No logic. Just Chaos. In this episode, I'm sharing the real, unfiltered stories of what it was like to love someone who could snap at any moment.. turning everyday life into unpredictability and fear. This is abo0ut the con...

I went from being in one of the worst floods Hawaii has seen in years, my town complete devastation.... To getting on aplane and flying straight into a dream trip for a wedding and adventure. Two completely different worlds. Conflicting emotions I can't fully explain how and what this feels like. Crazy emotions.....

In this episode , I sit down with Ashley Nguyen, a Human Design and Astrology consultant, to talk about why some people seem to flow through life one way, while others feel like they're constantly pushing against it. We explore the idea that maybe you're not broken, you're just wired differently. We talk about Human Design, how your natural energy works, why some people are built to in...

In this episode, I share a chapter of my life that changed everything. After my divorce, my nervous system was completely shot. I chose to leave him and and the life behind. What followed was a period of traveling, trusting my intuition, finding myself and eventually living in places like Thailand and Bali while exploring the world. I talk about what that time was really like, the emotional afterm...

What happens when pain pushes you to become someone new? In this episode, Alexandra and I talk about heartbreak, trying to figur life out, and the decision to use pain as fuel instead of letting it break you. Some people stay stuck. Others build something from it. This conversation is about choosing to turn pain into power.

This is a short follow up on the last episode on insecurities. I share some of the ones I experienced early on......

In this episode I'm reflecting on insecurity and how often it isn't actually the truth. I talk about body image, aging, perfection, social media, and the pressure we put on ourselves to measure up. I share moments that broke my heart, watching beautiful people not see themselves clearly. And I admit I feel it too. It's about the story we tell ourselves , and about learning to question...

In this episode, I'm sharing how I travel and live between countries , from choosing locations and working remotely to logistics, costs and the mindset that makes it sustainable. These are the real tips i have learned along the way.

I started this podcast to express and share. I did not expect what would happen next. In this episode, I'm sharing what's changed since finding my voice, and how speaking out loud publicly every week has shifted me in ways I didn't see coming.

When we are young we often get labeled by our families, by our environment, by what people think we're "supposed" to do with our lives. In this episode, I share my real career path, all the jobs, choices and the changes. Each chapter leading me to somewhere meaningful, even when it did not make sense at the time. This is for anyone who ever felt unsure, stuck, behind or restless. If you are young...

For a long time I lived in my head, thinking ahead, worrying about the future, trying to predict outcomes and make the right choices. In this episode, I talk about what you learn over time when you stop doing that. What changes when you stop trying to figure it all out and stop living in the future.

Is healing really about regulating the nervous system, or does it actually begin with your thoughts? In this episode, I sit down with Cindy Gould, International speaker, International best selling author, Brain Health Trainer, Life Mastery Coach, and host of Create Your Victorious Life, to explore why true healing starts in the mind and how our thoughts shape everything from our nervous system res...

I've loved deeply, mostly when it felt safe. In this episode, I talk about past relationships, the good inside them, and what I have learned as i experiment with loving without guarantees. An honest reflection on vulnerability, connection, and choosing to love without control.

No big Lesson. No perfect plan. Just how I'm choosing to live, fully, honestly, and present. My mindset, my routines, and the beliefs that help me enjoy life and love deeply, no matter whats happening around me.