Midnight Wisdom

14th May 2020 And stay with it.  No matter what you feel, when you know where you are is right, you learn and you find a way. Sometimes you feel you can’t breathe, other times all you find is air. What’s the difference between the two really. In and out. In and out. I was holding a leaf when I recorded this, I usually do when I'm taking walks. Makes me feel centered and calm again somehow. Li...

I saw an old guy in front of my appartment carrying bags and barely being able to walk. I help. I leave. He falls.  Breathe. And let him breathe.

And if it happens, if I happen to leave this life before I finish what I feel I need to, it's alright.  It wouldn't bother me if the reality of the life I believe in applied to me.  I'll try to keep my mind free of unnecessary attachment. From the idea of knowing. I will try to keep my beginners mind. One free of judgement, and always open to the potential of a hopeful future. 

"To be a king is but a curse you have all mistaken to be the only blessing." "Here we are, reinforcing our own realities." Here I am, keeping up and strengthening my foundations. I'll talk more in detail about how I'm working towards my goals and habits in another one.  Take care.

It felt like a reflection. I loved doing this one.  I missed a point, I'm going to live like I'm living till I'm a hundred. I'll always try to be a good person. And I'm very glad that I'm doing this.  I'm just trying to experience all of this as fully as I can.

The mic in front of me. A fan to my right. Two notebooks to my right. Elephant and deer.  The mop arrived from amazon today. I get to clean my floor properly for once. Maybe not tomorrow, maybe yeah.  Smoke to Mo Owais today about my communication idea, I thought it was a really funny interaction coming from him.  life doesn't need to be difficult. We don't need to suffer before the...

I got to catch up with Ahmed "Meso-Paq".  A teacher, an athlete and a badass. A very nice badass.

I sit on my bed, cross legged with a slightly tilted back, with the microphone in my hands as I breathe. "What is my deepest wisdom?"  "What is my deepest truth?" "Am I listening enough?" . "What is your deepest wisdom?" "What is your deepest truth?" "Are you listening enough?" . To be the divine masculine essence. To obtain the divine feminine essence. To reach balance with both. To know my...

We talk about ourselves, our lives, a business idea. Nothing in Particular.

I’ve been remembering my time in Madrid lately. Exactly two years ago, broke and in internal pain I couldn’t understand. It was sunny, and I was trying to connect but I really couldn’t. I got out of it with the ability to approach anyone, Spanish, and Johannes. I talk about the opportunities rising as things shift and people realise we can do things differently. A lot of potential, but how am I go...

A reflection of what I am, and what this podcast is. Promises I make to myself and anyone listening. Absolute integrity. Detachment from images. Being truthful to my being.  Reading the whole, seeing it all, with a glance, with feeling. The experience. The only truth is the one we experience. Until it isn't anymore.  Understanding Intelligence: A Framework to Being will be finished by my...

Sifted through a lot.. Changed a lot of things. 22nd of March.  It's a good time.

My brother was always a big part of the ideal I strived towards. He was unnecessarily rude to me the other day over texts. Who knows why. I reflected on it, after writing out my feelings for him in a 3 thousand words letter, that was often rude and inappropriate, there was no use in sending that to him, when all he deserves is love. And a little straight talk. I only sent it when it felt right to....

Elite. Dreams. Writing. Lifestyle. Brother.  Reflection.

When a word travels faster than a disease.  When a global effort comes into effect to halt a common enemy. When Isolation becomes the norm.  Toilet paper is the answer.

Hassan Al Wer. Beer. Pushups. Contanze Jordan.

My uncle died two weeks ago. The job is going well.  I'm on a good path.  I just need to own myself more. Take myself more seriously.  My perspective has value. 

Johannes and I catch up exactly two weeks after our last episode. We talk about our progress in fighting, children, writing, karma, drinking alcohol, coding and eventually I go on a monologue explaining my meta goal in life with the books I'm writing.  Johannes has been writing 2000 word essays once every two weeks about different topics for the next six months, and I've been writing 3000 wor...

It's close to miiiidnight and I reflect on the past few days. I'm grateful for the job I got and the people I get to spend most of the day with. Amd I went to a weird party that was pretty weird.

Johannes joined a Jiu Jitsu (JJ) grappling class two weeks after I joined mine. We both had weird grappling dreams and we're facing off in 4 to 6 months :D We talk a lot about fighting. We talk about Jordan Peterson and what he's going through right now.  That leads us to talking about self-esteem and what we base our characters on. That carries into me talking about my financial planning int...

I'm in my room. The cool monkey is in a corner in my house after I brought my things back from Hamburg. I'm sick. My first day of work is tomorrow. This is where I am.

This one's about self-esteem.

I talk about fighting. I love it. I'm getting the instinct for it.  Kampfst du?

This one is about us and loneliness.  How we'll take care more of someone who's a part of us, like our own child, but neglect to take care of our own self.  How we wait to be seen through the eyes of someone who we also see eventually only to see ourselves. But then we'll lose that anyway. The universe feels like it's desperately trying to find itself only to instantly lose it.  Is...

We pay attention to the problem, the mistake, and forget all else.  Are we listening enough? Are we slaves to our own idea of our mistakes?