Alive & Fragile

My personal theme for October is ‘let it be fun.’ October invites play, mischief, and embracing what is beyond comprehension. This isn’t the time to be stuffy and strict. Shake off the debris of Virgo season, the careful acrobatics of Libra season. When Scorpio descends and brings us into the underworld, you will not know left from right or up from down. You will become Alice in Wonderland. When e...

Within the last two weeks, I have seen post after post of [insert celeb] consulting or carrying around a tarot deck , a flurry of tarot creators I hadn’t heard of before, and tarot readers at the corporate party. As a long-time tarot reader, lover, and advocate, the sudden shift excites and disturbs me. I remember the tides around astrology shifting from a b******t hobby your esoteric friend would...

Strands of hair on a mantle. Tied into a bow on my finger. Savoring the taste of someone once here. Obsolete nature. Ephemerality. We are dust and to dust returned. I am dust already. This thing in me that whirs all day like a computer filled with color and light and flowers. I am such a beautiful soul. We all have light in us. The greatest sin is to snuff it out. Seeing it dead in the eyes. And w...

Video version (out Sep 2nd) ;) And we’ve arrived at the endpoint. I can(‘t) believe it. I had hoped this project would unearth some change in me. To some degree, it did, and in other ways, it witnessed the changes that were scheduled to happen. I’m very happy and buzzing with possibility. I have new ideas to bring you, more gentle discussions to have. More people to reach! I’m leaving you with ano...

Whenever I record these, I feel very rambly and scattered like I’m throwing spaghetti at a wall. Listening back is like stepping away to find that the spaghetti is in the shape of a windy, Van Gogh -esque painting. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit catharaxia.substack.com/subscribe

Video version ;) I didn’t realize how rarely I give this lore until I started explaining it. So much has changed since that summer I learned how to use a tarot deck — the way I read, who I read for, what I ask, who I am as a reader and person. I’m welcoming a new era in my tarot journey that I’ve dubbed “spiritual chiropracy.” This means that I want to use tarot to connect to and stabilize the cor...

Video version ;) You may notice that this audio is timely with current events because I am mixing up the order in which I’m releasing these entries into the world. There are three in the queue that can wait because this one is too time-dependent. Consider this an eclipse season whack on the head. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus...

This has a video version ;) I revisited the Neighbourhood’s Wiped Out album last week, around when this was recorded. I used to loop it in my car until I knew all the words by heart, looped it in my room and on my new Spotify account, daydreaming to it, of course. I still know all the words and feel what I felt hearing it back then. There aren’t a lot of things from that time I’m able to revisit w...

[Video version] I remembered while listening back to this that Jacob Anderson recently talked about his experience doing this as a kid , and my brain lit up like a light display. One of my favorite kindred spirit moments. This has been such a weird process. Up-and-down energy. Curious to see the result as we get closer to the end. If you’re curious about IFS, I’d recommend this resource in the Mas...

Today’s audio has a video version , because I felt like it. I lie about not editing. No chopping up the voice, but I wanted some visual zest. Just realized my light literally turns on when I hit the grand conclusion. The universe is a comedian. Channel 1 , Channel 2 , & Channel 3 mentioned. People Watching mentioned (everyone on earth should watch it once). This is a public episode. If you'd like...

August’s playlist! Listen & check in later for updates 𓂃 ོ☼𓂃 If you’ve been keeping up with my semi-daily voice notes the last month, then you know July was intense. Predictive tarot always shocks me with how it manages to find accuracy. It’s never how you think it will be. It demands surrender through assertion. Like a weather report, I know it will rain, but I won’t know until the moment how I’l...

* I finished no books. None of what I’ve been reading felt worth finishing. I did start reading fanfiction again, and, of course, newsletters on here. * The only movie I watched worth sharing is Sheep Detectives. I also saw The Odyssey like everyone else, but you don’t need my suggestion for that one. * I watched The Vampire Lestat. It’s unfair to compare it to Interview with the Vampire. It’s fun...

Oh hello , for those unfamiliar. Recording this one felt nice for me. (Alexandra) Apple mentioned! This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit catharaxia.substack.com/subscribe

Sometimes I get lucky and catch myself right as an idea is forming. I’m very curious to see how I can weave all of these ideas together into something bigger. There are layers to this mental split. Not a very black-and-white-friendly realization, but thankfully I enjoy nuance now and then. Media: This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus...

Took you along on my walk today. I tend to walk fast when I do, which is the only reasonable explanation for sounding like I’m running a marathon. I like this one. It feels alive. I also like this little ritual that’s forming. I’m in the excited-to-create phase. We’ll see how it feels at 15-30, hm? Listen closely towards the end for some spontaneous beauty. I love that I can go outside without pan...

There’s another shift happening, but I’m starting to think that’s the way it goes. There’s always change and evolution, and some changes hit harder than others. Simple as. The quiz in question, if you’re curious. And of course today’s moodboard: This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit catharaxia.substack.com/subscribe

This is from yesterday, but I moved so slowly I didn’t get a post together early enough before I needed to sleep. I’ve learned from my mistakes, and now my mistakes offer a window of opportunity. Later in the day I took Twitchy Witch’s alchemy quiz and got nigredo which explains a lot of the seemingly contradicting feelings I’ve been having (progressing into something new but still feeling stuck/o...

I’m back from San Diego, sleepy and contemplative. Excuse my brevity as I need to get ready for bed. Here’s the song I mentioned. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit catharaxia.substack.com/subscribe

July’s playlist! Listen & check in later for updates 𓆉°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ Welcome to July! This month’s energy is going to be a bit of a firecracker (no pun intended), but make no mistake: we are the architects of the world we want to see. This is not the month to be passive and sink into the background. Action will need to be taken, and we are fully capable of handling it. You’re not here for my pep talk,...

Putting this together after last-minute packing for San Diego. We’re taking the train early to get a full day in before riding back the day after. It still hasn’t clicked. I wished for this trip a month ago. I’m thinking about everything but still turning my heart over in my hands. What does she feel? What does she want? I don’t really get her today. I need to sleep right now to not be cranky, so...

In this entry, twitchy witch and Savannah Brown are both cited as inspiration for this format and project. It’s only right to give them their flowers. There’s something compelling to me about watching people figure things out in real time, and this unedited format allows that. I write from this space often, but my voice doesn’t get the same treatment. It takes months for me to release an audio ent...

If you’ve been keeping up with the newsletter this year, this audio vlog entry will likely not surprise you. It’s been an intense six months. The change has been welcome but hard to move through nonetheless. That’s why I like to take voice memos to listen back to and remember how I was thinking and feeling in each moment. I put together my favorite entries to share in an “audio vlog” with you. You...

I’m starting with a story, which will soon reveal irony. The last time I felt like an epistemological imposter was when I abandoned Cathar’s Corner . This podcast, which had been my light and love for two years, quickly evaded me. Attempting to give life insights week after week as if I held any essential truth made me feel like a fraud. It was easier when I had the hubris of a 19-year-old. This s...

June playlist! Listen & check in later for updates ₊‧.°.⋆🫧•˚₊‧⋆. Welcome to June! The start of something new! Summertime! Butterflies! My birth month! This month’s cornucopia is full of promise. Of course, with promise comes the unknown, which can also lead to a lot of apprehension. If you feel more fear than excitement, that’s perfectly okay. It may help to reflect on other moments in your life...

In March of 2026, I decided to participate in a beta test of an app for tracking synchronicities. The idea of synchronicity is credited to Carl Jung. As I am not a Jungian Scholar and have little interest in becoming one for this report, take this knowledge as an invitation for your own deeper investigation into analytical psychology. While participating in this beta test, I entered a significant...