Alive & Fragile

May playlist is here! Go listen now .𖥔 ݁ ˖ᯓ ✈︎ Starting this month, paid subscribers can request a personal single card reading once a month. Learn more here. The past few months have been filled with closing doors. If you are astrologically inclined, you’ve probably heard once a month that a once-in-a-lifetime transit is occurring, shifting us into a new era. If you’re pattern recognition incline...

This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit catharaxia.substack.com This year has been the hall of mirrors. It’s a welcome change from the cycle archetypes of the year prior, filled with spirals and butterflies, but very trippy in comparison. I don’t think past me could’ve handled this year’s synchronicities. They feel less like signs and more like motifs, adding to the story unf...

April playlist is here and growing ♫₊˚.🎧 ✩₊˚ Congrats! You survived the upheaval that was March 2026. One may wonder things like “what now?” and “where do we go from here?” This month is unlikely to provide many answers, but it will provide a renewed sense of faith. The forecast for the month won’t feel ideal, but it will be necessary to realize our futures further. It’s best to move with the mot...

This is a spoiler free zone. There’s a themed playlist to enjoy if you’d like 𓇢𓆸 ˙•˚☘︎ If I could explain myself in easy colors, I would. Instead, my interior is made of butterfly hues that my human eyes fail to see, and my spirit eyes can hold between fingertips. Whatever darkness lives in me has no name, intention, or direction. All I can do is sit with the shadow and know that the shadow is dar...

Let’s get real for a moment. This energy we’re starting March with is a lot. It’s a post-eclipse aftershock alongside the muck of Mercury retrograde, which concludes March 20th. Nevertheless, we persist through this elongated start — not just the year but a new era of life. No pressure, am I right? BOTD: Two of Cups You may remember last month, Ace of Cups was present to signal a shift into openin...

This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit catharaxia.substack.com There’s a February playlist btw. Enjoy ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹ ᥫ᭡ One thing I love about reading for others is creating personalized spreads. It makes the process more collaborative, and each reading feels very special. Plus, I get to leave with a new spread to experiment with later. My lovely friend, Aliyah , recently came to me...

I listen to mixes like this a LOT when creating. Felt real to add it to this message. I sit in this moment of apathy and shame for not fitting my own self-inflicted mold. It shows up all the time. When I “fail” to be open and friendly despite knowing I’m a rather calm and reserved person. I get irritated that I never write about what’s popular, or write in the classical ways people are taught to....

It’s Phantogram Phebruary for me ˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞. Hello loves! Welcome to this month’s tarot forecast. The energy predicted for the month is different from what I anticipated, which means we’re in for an interesting time. Remember to check in halfway through the month and at the end of the month to see how it’s manifested for you. Let’s dive in. BOTD: King of Swords This month’s overall energy asks us to...

Found this song during quarantine and it came to mind today. I’m finding myself at a weird impasse. I haven’t been doing the song and dance of digital protest. I’m not tapped into the leftist collectives because I don’t want to be. I’ve become part of the disillusioned public. Sometimes I visualize myself swallowing the energetic slop we’re being served, eyes glazed over. I ask myself if that is a...

Earlier this month, I announced that I would be giving daily tarot prompts and sharing my readings. These prompts were meant to be straightforward and light. The process was a way for readers new and old, to strengthen their interpretation skills while bonding with the deck. As I progressed through the month, many things were revealed to me. I realized how well the questions worked as out-of-the-b...

I’ve been recording audio entries for the last year that I’ve been meaning to share with you, but I move slowly. I’ve decided I’ll share them when it feels right. December was such a portal month. January has been carrying the dream forward. Messages are coming in many fun, lighthearted forms. Shoutout to Heated Rivalry for the collective shoulder shake. I’ve been enjoying this relaxed approach to...

I’m still processing how much of last year was about grief and transition. As this new year begins and this old season of life closes, I find myself confronting it again and again. There’s still so much more to say. This current musing felt important to share with you. Whenever I feel a little embarrassed to share something, I know I must let go. There’s something new incoming, and I’m excited to...

Music for your reading ☆*️ᥫ᭡ I’m writing to you from the other side of things. Hello. How are you? Have you been feeling well? Refreshed. It’s a new year, and the portal is opening just wide enough for me to slip through. I forgot who I was, or at least what I could be. I am a girl. A young girl. I always have been. Was that? I remember feeling small—steps patting the ground, socks on all the time...

Happy New Year! Welcome to the first tarot forecast for 2026. This year is going to be one for the books, and we’re off to a running start! As usual, this will be a three-card energy reading. Make sure to return halfway through the month to see how the themes have emerged and then again towards the end of the month. BOTD: Eight of Swords It’s not the best energy to find ourselves in — a head bustl...

I’d recommend letting me read this one to you. May more change continue to come :) - Things that have changed I do not like pomegranates during winter. It is a pain to prepare and hurts my stomach. My clothes do not fit me in size, shape, or presence. I am changing I am changing I am changing. Look how many new clothes came after the great purge, now that I am unattached to my life’s comfort. In e...

Author’s Note: This a long piece so if you usually read via email, it might get shortened. You can read the full post on my substack page. Song used can be found here , here , and here . Summary/Blurb: This is about what it feels like to become the butterfly, soft and shimmering under the sun. Strange looking and gorgeous. I’ve felt all of my life that I was wrong, and I’m only starting to see now...

♫⋆｡♪ ₊˚♬ december’s playlist so far ♫⋆｡♪ ₊˚♬ Welcome to December’s tarot forecast. This came together much slower and more analytically than last month’s, which feels like part of the message as well. We are slowing down to prepare for something new. This will be a three-card energy reading. I suggest returning halfway through the month to see how the themes have emerged and then again towards the...

‧₊˚♪ 𝄞₊˚⊹music for this reading‧₊˚♪ 𝄞₊˚⊹ Inspired by the lovely astrologers of the internet, I decided to pull some cards to add to the picture the stars may be creating this month. If you notice parallels between the mini reading and themes that emerge as the month progresses, please report back. It seems my underworld declaration will be ringing very true this month. This is a three-card reading...

I’ve been sitting with time recently. Watching her slowness to start much of anything, the languidness she chooses. The way the future arrives after years of adding one piece at a time, because that is the fastest pace time will allow. Being on the edge of my mid-twenties, it’s the first time I can see how time moves very clearly. I think about aging and technology, generational rifts, investing....

This Aries full moon has been the first lunar cycle in a while that I lost grasp of. It felt more like remembering I’m 24 not 22. Remembering I live in Los Angeles and not some generic metropolitan city where young people congregate for a TV drama. It feels like a Monday but fresher, maybe a bit bloody, a proper hunter’s moon. Aries in all her fiery ram glory, ready to lunge with little persuasion...

I’ve been crying at work nearly every day for the last month. It’s been an inconsequential moment of my life, mirroring the depression switch that went off in my brain when I was thirteen. It was the last month or so of eighth grade. I remember sitting in the audience of our empty middle school theater on the opening day of our “senior” show. I cried like someone I loved had been shot in front of...

The following is a transcription of some of my new moon clarity. The song is how it felt to have the fog of my own nonsense finally clear stage to allow something new to take root. God bless the sick day haze. We're doing Virgo new moon manifestations. But the specific aspect of it, I wanted to record for, put down somewhere, but I'm not— I'm like, “I need to write this down.” I'm someone who gets...

Sometimes I sense how trapped my bones feel inside my body — pressed against muscle and veins, organs thumping, squeezing against the edge. Sometimes I have the urge to cough up bits of myself to give them a little room. Living fossils lodged inside of me, giving me form. I’m not comfortable these days. I didn’t realize it was getting to me until an enlightening therapy session. I sensed the rods...

In the last two months, I have been swept off my feet in the worst ways imaginable. Random losses, crises out of my control, stressful family dynamics, all with work’s daily grind in the background. I have been writing, thankfully, just nothing notable enough to share at the moment — a partial lie. I’ve written a few pieces I’m giddy to share in due time once I’ve given them due diligence. Despite...

It's more about […] surrendering and being […] open to receiving this next thing now that you've given up all these things that you may have wanted or you wished could have worked out. […] Things that, you know, just weren't good, that just weren't working that had to be let go, and maybe you let them go or they were forced out of your hands, doesn't really matter. […] And now we just kind of wait...