Alive & Fragile

Took you along on my walk today. I tend to walk fast when I do, which is the only reasonable explanation for sounding like I’m running a marathon. I like this one. It feels alive. I also like this little ritual that’s forming. I’m in the excited-to-create phase. We’ll see how it feels at 15-30, hm? Listen closely towards the end for some spontaneous beauty. I love that I can go outside without pan...

There’s another shift happening, but I’m starting to think that’s the way it goes. There’s always change and evolution, and some changes hit harder than others. Simple as. The quiz in question, if you’re curious. And of course today’s moodboard: This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit catharaxia.substack.com/subscribe

This is from yesterday, but I moved so slowly I didn’t get a post together early enough before I needed to sleep. I’ve learned from my mistakes, and now my mistakes offer a window of opportunity. Later in the day I took Twitchy Witch’s alchemy quiz and got nigredo which explains a lot of the seemingly contradicting feelings I’ve been having (progressing into something new but still feeling stuck/o...

I’m back from San Diego, sleepy and contemplative. Excuse my brevity as I need to get ready for bed. Here’s the song I mentioned. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit catharaxia.substack.com/subscribe

Putting this together after last-minute packing for San Diego. We’re taking the train early to get a full day in before riding back the day after. It still hasn’t clicked. I wished for this trip a month ago. I’m thinking about everything but still turning my heart over in my hands. What does she feel? What does she want? I don’t really get her today. I need to sleep right now to not be cranky, so...

In this entry, twitchy witch and Savannah Brown are both cited as inspiration for this format and project. It’s only right to give them their flowers. There’s something compelling to me about watching people figure things out in real time, and this unedited format allows that. I write from this space often, but my voice doesn’t get the same treatment. It takes months for me to release an audio ent...

If you’ve been keeping up with the newsletter this year, this audio vlog entry will likely not surprise you. It’s been an intense six months. The change has been welcome but hard to move through nonetheless. That’s why I like to take voice memos to listen back to and remember how I was thinking and feeling in each moment. I put together my favorite entries to share in an “audio vlog” with you. You...

I’m starting with a story, which will soon reveal irony. The last time I felt like an epistemological imposter was when I abandoned Cathar’s Corner . This podcast, which had been my light and love for two years, quickly evaded me. Attempting to give life insights week after week as if I held any essential truth made me feel like a fraud. It was easier when I had the hubris of a 19-year-old. This s...

June playlist! Listen & check in later for updates ₊‧.°.⋆🫧•˚₊‧⋆. Welcome to June! The start of something new! Summertime! Butterflies! My birth month! This month’s cornucopia is full of promise. Of course, with promise comes the unknown, which can also lead to a lot of apprehension. If you feel more fear than excitement, that’s perfectly okay. It may help to reflect on other moments in your life...

In March of 2026, I decided to participate in a beta test of an app for tracking synchronicities. The idea of synchronicity is credited to Carl Jung. As I am not a Jungian Scholar and have little interest in becoming one for this report, take this knowledge as an invitation for your own deeper investigation into analytical psychology. While participating in this beta test, I entered a significant...

May playlist is here! Go listen now .𖥔 ݁ ˖ᯓ ✈︎ Starting this month, paid subscribers can request a personal single card reading once a month. Learn more here. The past few months have been filled with closing doors. If you are astrologically inclined, you’ve probably heard once a month that a once-in-a-lifetime transit is occurring, shifting us into a new era. If you’re pattern recognition incline...

This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit catharaxia.substack.com This year has been the hall of mirrors. It’s a welcome change from the cycle archetypes of the year prior, filled with spirals and butterflies, but very trippy in comparison. I don’t think past me could’ve handled this year’s synchronicities. They feel less like signs and more like motifs, adding to the story unf...

April playlist is here and growing ♫₊˚.🎧 ✩₊˚ Congrats! You survived the upheaval that was March 2026. One may wonder things like “what now?” and “where do we go from here?” This month is unlikely to provide many answers, but it will provide a renewed sense of faith. The forecast for the month won’t feel ideal, but it will be necessary to realize our futures further. It’s best to move with the mot...

This is a spoiler free zone. There’s a themed playlist to enjoy if you’d like 𓇢𓆸 ˙•˚☘︎ If I could explain myself in easy colors, I would. Instead, my interior is made of butterfly hues that my human eyes fail to see, and my spirit eyes can hold between fingertips. Whatever darkness lives in me has no name, intention, or direction. All I can do is sit with the shadow and know that the shadow is dar...

Let’s get real for a moment. This energy we’re starting March with is a lot. It’s a post-eclipse aftershock alongside the muck of Mercury retrograde, which concludes March 20th. Nevertheless, we persist through this elongated start — not just the year but a new era of life. No pressure, am I right? BOTD: Two of Cups You may remember last month, Ace of Cups was present to signal a shift into openin...

This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit catharaxia.substack.com There’s a February playlist btw. Enjoy ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹ ᥫ᭡ One thing I love about reading for others is creating personalized spreads. It makes the process more collaborative, and each reading feels very special. Plus, I get to leave with a new spread to experiment with later. My lovely friend, Aliyah , recently came to me...

I listen to mixes like this a LOT when creating. Felt real to add it to this message. I sit in this moment of apathy and shame for not fitting my own self-inflicted mold. It shows up all the time. When I “fail” to be open and friendly despite knowing I’m a rather calm and reserved person. I get irritated that I never write about what’s popular, or write in the classical ways people are taught to....

It’s Phantogram Phebruary for me ˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞. Hello loves! Welcome to this month’s tarot forecast. The energy predicted for the month is different from what I anticipated, which means we’re in for an interesting time. Remember to check in halfway through the month and at the end of the month to see how it’s manifested for you. Let’s dive in. BOTD: King of Swords This month’s overall energy asks us to...

Found this song during quarantine and it came to mind today. I’m finding myself at a weird impasse. I haven’t been doing the song and dance of digital protest. I’m not tapped into the leftist collectives because I don’t want to be. I’ve become part of the disillusioned public. Sometimes I visualize myself swallowing the energetic slop we’re being served, eyes glazed over. I ask myself if that is a...

Earlier this month, I announced that I would be giving daily tarot prompts and sharing my readings. These prompts were meant to be straightforward and light. The process was a way for readers new and old, to strengthen their interpretation skills while bonding with the deck. As I progressed through the month, many things were revealed to me. I realized how well the questions worked as out-of-the-b...

I’ve been recording audio entries for the last year that I’ve been meaning to share with you, but I move slowly. I’ve decided I’ll share them when it feels right. December was such a portal month. January has been carrying the dream forward. Messages are coming in many fun, lighthearted forms. Shoutout to Heated Rivalry for the collective shoulder shake. I’ve been enjoying this relaxed approach to...

I’m still processing how much of last year was about grief and transition. As this new year begins and this old season of life closes, I find myself confronting it again and again. There’s still so much more to say. This current musing felt important to share with you. Whenever I feel a little embarrassed to share something, I know I must let go. There’s something new incoming, and I’m excited to...

Music for your reading ☆*️ᥫ᭡ I’m writing to you from the other side of things. Hello. How are you? Have you been feeling well? Refreshed. It’s a new year, and the portal is opening just wide enough for me to slip through. I forgot who I was, or at least what I could be. I am a girl. A young girl. I always have been. Was that? I remember feeling small—steps patting the ground, socks on all the time...

Happy New Year! Welcome to the first tarot forecast for 2026. This year is going to be one for the books, and we’re off to a running start! As usual, this will be a three-card energy reading. Make sure to return halfway through the month to see how the themes have emerged and then again towards the end of the month. BOTD: Eight of Swords It’s not the best energy to find ourselves in — a head bustl...

I’d recommend letting me read this one to you. May more change continue to come :) - Things that have changed I do not like pomegranates during winter. It is a pain to prepare and hurts my stomach. My clothes do not fit me in size, shape, or presence. I am changing I am changing I am changing. Look how many new clothes came after the great purge, now that I am unattached to my life’s comfort. In e...