Wonderland Unlocked

Series 7: Unlocked Letters – A Journey Through Hurt and Hope Episode 130 – The Mad Hatter’s Tea Party: When Chaos Meets Creativity In this episode, we pull up a mismatched chair at the Mad Hatter’s table and pour a cup of truth. The Mad Hatter’s Tea Party: When Chaos Meets Creativity explores what it means to grow up feeling “too much”—too emotional, too unpredictable, too chaotic—and how that sam...

Series 7: Unlocked Letters – A Journey Through Hurt and Hope Episode 129 – To the Dormouse Who Slept Through My Pain In this episode, we open a letter sealed in silence—written to the one who napped through the noise of our heartbreak. To the Dormouse Who Slept Through My Pain is a raw, reflective message to the people who looked the other way when they should’ve looked closer. When pain filled th...

Series 7: Unlocked Letters: A Journey Through Hurt and Hope Episode 128: To Alice: I Wish I Was You In this deeply personal episode, I write a letter to Alice—a figure of curiosity, adventure, and endless possibility. Alice's journey through Wonderland is one of self-discovery, embracing the unknown, and navigating the chaos with courage and wonder. For years, I envied her freedom to explore,...

Series 7: Unlocked Letters: A Journey Through Hurt and Hope Episode 127: To the Mirror I Feared: A Letter to My Own Reflection In this heartfelt episode, I write a letter to the reflection I spent years avoiding—the person staring back at me in the mirror. For so long, my own image was a source of discomfort, a reminder of all my flaws, insecurities, and the parts of myself I couldn’t accept. Thro...

Series 7: Unlocked Letters: A Journey Through Hurt and Hope Episode 126: Dear Red Queen: I Learned Rage from You In this raw and powerful episode, I pen a letter to the "Red Queen" within—my inner embodiment of anger, fear, and frustration. Through the lens of Alice in Wonderland, I reflect on how this fierce, unpredictable force became ingrained in my emotional landscape. From childhood tantrums...

Series 6: Not Quite Alice — The Wonderland of Being Given Away E125: The Hatter’s Diagnosis “Mad, aren’t you?” In this episode of Wonderland Unlocked, we sit down with the Hatter — or rather, the long line of therapists, teachers, doctors, and well-meaning adults who tried to explain what was “wrong” with us. Being adopted often means being pathologized. Big emotions? Must be a disorder. Questions...

Series 6: Not Quite Alice — The Wonderland of Being Given Away E124: The Queen’s Checklist — Good Adoptee Behavior In this episode, we step into the throne room of expectations — where adoptees are handed invisible scrolls of how to behave, how to feel, and who to be. “Be grateful,” “Don’t ask questions,” “Smile and stay small.” Sound familiar? Today on Wonderland Unlocked, we open up the Queen’s...

Series 6: Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away E123: Paper Flowers, Paper Parents Sometimes the people meant to care for us feel fragile — like paper flowers that look beautiful but can’t stand the test of time or hardship. In this episode of Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away, we explore the ache of having caregivers who seem loving on the surface but lack the dept...

Series 6: Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away E122: The Painted Roses of Perfection What happens when you’re expected to be flawless — to fit perfectly into a story that isn’t your own? In this episode of Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away, we unravel the pressure of painting over your true self to meet impossible standards. Like the Painted Roses in Wonderland, yo...

Series 6: Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away E121: The Queen’s “Gift” “You were chosen,” they say. But chosen by whom? And for what purpose? In this episode of Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away, we dive deep into the weight of being labeled a “gift” — whether by birth family, foster system, or adoptive parents — and the expectations that come with it. We explore:...

Series 6: Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away E120: The Caterpillar’s Smoke: Reunion and Reality Collide Reunions can feel like stepping through a fog—hope, confusion, joy, and uncertainty swirling all at once. In this episode of Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away, we explore the complex emotions when past and present meet face-to-face. What happens when the dream...

Series 6: Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away E119: Cheshire Smiles and Missing Files Sometimes the biggest mysteries come with the brightest smiles—and the most frustrating gaps. In this episode of Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away, we unravel the tangled emotions behind missing pieces of your story: incomplete records, lost memories, and the elusive truths hidde...

Series 6: Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away E118: The Dormouse’s Silence: The Secrets They Fed You Some truths arrive wrapped in whispers—or don’t arrive at all. In this episode of Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away, we dive into the quiet spaces filled with unspoken stories, half-truths, and the secrets that shaped your understanding of yourself and your past. W...

Series 6: Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away E117: The Rabbit Didn’t Wait: A Birth I Wasn’t Meant to Remember Before you had words for what happened—before you even knew what you lost—you were already running to catch up. In this opening episode of Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away, we begin at the moment that’s never quite clear: birth, separation, and the silen...

Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world.  E116: Curious Careerland: When You Can’t Tell What You’re “Meant” to Do One moment you’re chasing a dream. The next, you’re questioning if it was ever yours to begin with. In this episode of Borderline in Wonderland, we tumble through the twists and turns of career identit...

Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world.  E115: Wonderland’s Exile: Regretting What You Were Never Allowed to Experience What do you call grief for something you never had? In this episode of Borderline in Wonderland, we explore the quiet, aching regret that follows you when you were never allowed to fully live—wh...

Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world.   E113: Off With Her Head: The Punishment of Being ‘Too Emotional’ Cry too loudly. Speak too honestly. React too visibly. And suddenly—you’re the villain. In this raw episode of Borderline in Wonderland, we step into the emotional courtroom where sensitivity is treated like...

Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world.   E112: Painting the Roses Red: The Family Image You’re Not Allowed to Ruin Smile for the photo. Don’t bring that up here. We don’t talk about that. What will people think? In this episode of Borderline in Wonderland, we explore what it’s like to grow up in a family where a...

Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world.   E111: The Stigma Stamp: When Mental Health Becomes the Excuse “She’s just being dramatic.” “He’s having one of his episodes again.” “Don’t take it personally—it’s her mental health.” In this episode of Borderline in Wonderland, we’re unpacking the painful reality of havin...

Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world.   E110: Through the Window: Watching Life Go On Without You You see them laughing. Moving forward. Posting pictures. Making plans. And somehow, you're still on the other side of the glass—uninvited, unspoken to, unseen. In this episode of Borderline in Wonderland, we ex...

Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world.   E109: The Invitation That Never Came Have you ever sat by the window of your own life, waiting for an invitation that never arrived? In this episode of Wonderland Unlocked, we explore the ache of being left out, forgotten, or deliberately uninvited—whether it was a birthd...

Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world.  E98: Not Just Sensitive – Being Dismissed Hurts Deeper In this episode of Wonderland Unlocked, we explore the pain of being written off as “too sensitive” when you’re actually feeling everything all at once. For those of us with Borderline Personality Disorder, dismissal d...

Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world.  E97: The Talking Flowers Mock Me – Social Anxiety and BPD In today’s episode of Wonderland Unlocked, we tiptoe through the flowerbeds—only to find that the blooms are whispering behind our backs. Social anxiety with Borderline Personality Disorder can feel like that: every...

Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world.  E96: Judgment Day in Wonderland – Hyper-Awareness and Guilt In this episode of Wonderland Unlocked, we explore the heavy fog of guilt and the sharp edges of hyper-awareness that often trail those living with Borderline Personality Disorder. What happens when every glance,...

Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world.  E95: Wonderland Math — How BPD Warps Cause and Effect In this episode, we tumble into the distorted logic of Wonderland, where emotions rewrite reality and cause and effect don’t always add up. “Wonderland Math” unpacks how borderline personality disorder can twist the way...