What The Hell Do I Do Now?

Dillon Schoen Toohill is a former Stanford lacrosse player and team captain whose transition out of athletics unfolded alongside one of the most challenging seasons of her life. After losing her father just before her senior year, Dillon found herself navigating both the emotional weight of grief and the identity shift that comes with stepping away from a sport that shaped her for years. In this e...

Brandyn Curry is a former Harvard basketball player whose athletic journey took him from the Ivy League to professional basketball overseas. After graduating, Brandyn spent several seasons playing professionally in Europe before a devastating knee injury in Romania ended his playing career and forced him to confront life beyond the game sooner than expected. Now serving as Program Director for The...

Aubrey Peterson is a former Division I softball player at the University of Utah and a longtime member of the Great Britain national softball team. Competing internationally for seven years, Aubrey traveled the world while balancing the transition from collegiate athletics to the reality of becoming an independent athlete — navigating sponsorships, training, and life beyond the structure of colleg...

Ed Lubowicki is a former Division 1 lacrosse athlete at Notre Dame who now works at the intersection of athlete transition, identity, and professional development. In this episode, Ed joins Genevieve to unpack the often overlooked reality of life after sports — from the identity shifts that follow retirement to the challenge of building structure and purpose in a completely different environment....

Haley Paez is a Denver-based food content creator and former Division I soccer player at the University of Denver. In this episode, Haley shares her journey through college athletics — from navigating multiple coaching changes and transferring schools, to facing the intense internal and external pressures that came with competing at a high level. She opens up about her experience with disordered e...

Chris Duvall is a former professional soccer player who spent eight seasons competing in Major League Soccer, playing for multiple clubs including the New York Red Bulls, Montreal Impact, Houston Dynamo, Portland Timbers, and FC Cincinnati. After retiring from professional soccer, Chris faced the transition many athletes experience — figuring out how to redirect the intensity, discipline, and iden...

Sophia Woodland is a former Division I soccer player from Boston University, where she competed for four years while studying business and minoring in psychology, graduating in 2023. In this episode, Sophia reflects on the reality behind her collegiate career — from feeling voiceless in a difficult team environment her first two years to beginning therapy and learning to separate her self-worth fr...

Maya Lorimer grew up in the dance studio, training competitively from the time she could walk and eventually earning a spot on the Arizona State University dance team — one of the top programs in the nation. During her time at Arizona, she balanced game days, appearances, and the pressure of re-auditioning annually just to keep her place. When her senior season was cut short by COVID, her dance ca...

Mika Mierzwa is a former collegiate volleyball player from Coastal Carolina, where she competed in both indoor and beach volleyball while pursuing a biology degree. Graduating early, Mika stepped away from sport sooner than expected — a transition that pushed her to confront how deeply her identity was tied to being an athlete. After college, she spent time living abroad in Thailand and later in C...

Dr. Maddy Brill-Edwards is a former collegiate soccer player at the College of Charleston and a current general surgery resident navigating one of the most demanding training paths in medicine. In this episode, Maddy shares how a childhood plan to become a doctor, shaped by a family of physicians, evolved alongside a deep love for soccer that followed her from youth competition, to playing at a Di...

Sarah is a former Division III basketball player whose college experience looked and felt much bigger than the label — intense time commitments, deep preparation, and three conference championships that shaped her identity and routine. After graduating, Sarah faced the familiar but often unspoken challenge of leaving sport, structure, and community all at once, while also navigating personal and f...

Vivian Mroz is a former dual-sport athlete at Canisius College, where she competed in both diving and track. After graduating, Viv faced the challenge many college athletes experience — redefining her identity beyond sport while navigating multiple career moves and relocations. In this episode, she shares how her athletic journey evolved after college, eventually leading her to the world of swimru...

Kyle Murphy grew up in upstate New York and played soccer at Clemson University before pursuing a professional career, with stops in Houston, Orlando, DC, Miami, and Memphis. In this episode, Kyle reflects on his decision to retire at age 31, the highs and challenges of competing at a professional level, and the lessons he’s carried into his next chapter in commercial real estate with CBRE in Jack...

Khallil Stewart played soccer at George Washington, College of Charleston, and for the Jamaican National Team. Khallil has always had a fierce passion for creating, whether it was making poems, creativity with a ball at his feet, or writing and recording music, Khallil has made art in many forms, since he was young. This episode explores the unexpected end of his career, how he managed injuries th...

Dr. Casey Martinez is a former Duke and Arizona State soccer player, who competed for 5 years before deciding to go to medical school. During this episode, Casey shares her experience deciding to step away from sport, how she manages injuries, and her experience taking the leap to apply for med school. Life after soccer was filled with uncertainty for Casey. She shares the valuable insight of goin...

Gaby Vincent is a former professional soccer player who competed in the NWSL for four years after a successful collegiate career at the University of Louisville. In this episode, Gaby opens up about the emotional and mental challenges of stepping away from the game: from the loss of structure and identity to navigating injury, burnout, and imposter syndrome. She shares what it was like to “retire”...

Danielle Johnson (formerly Mellem) is a former student-athlete where she played soccer for the College of Charleston. Her playing career was unexpectedly cut short due to injury, leading to a medical retirement. In this episode, Dani opens up about the emotional and psychological impact of stepping away from the game and how she found her footing beyond the sport. Now wearing many hats, Dani draws...

Pete Anderson is a former University of Georgia football standout and consensus All-American, team captain and SEC powerhouse. After a stint in the NFL, Pete transitioned into a successful career in real estate development. In this episode, we dive into his journey from the gridiron to the business world, how he navigated major life transitions, and what legacy means to him now as a father, leader...

Tori Karsten is a former University of Delaware Blue Hen who joins the podcast to share her experience after leaving Field Hockey. Tori is the head coach of the Cherry Creek High School Field Hockey team, and in her first season she guided them to a state title. She is also a fitness coach and personal trainer, working with athletes of all ages. After recently suffering an unexpected injury, Tori...

Julia Rubinstein is our guest this week!!! After swimming for a year at Colorado College, Julia decided to transfer to the University of Colorado. Julia shares the experience that she had that led up to this decision, her feelings of imposter syndrome, and her ability to pivot and lean into new experiences. Julia is an all around athlete who continued to pursue mountain sports following her colleg...

Corinn Childs joins the podcast this week to share her experience leaving collegiate cheerleading. After knowing from a young age that she would be an Oregon cheerleader, Corinn walks us through her experience leaving the sport, experiencing rejection, and navigating life without the sport she knew for so long. Corinn also discusses how she started to find different hobbies and seek out new opport...

Nicole Koretsky hops on the podcast this week! A New Jersey native, Nicole walks us through her decision to leave the cold and move to Charleston, SC to play soccer (and be much warmer). Nicole shares her journey managing burn out, meeting new people, developing and pursuing her passions, and how travel has helped shape the person that she is today. Nicole is a woman of many talents which all come...

Danny Robison is our guest this week. Danny is a former Montana State Bobcat men’s basketball player and he joins the podcast to share his experience leaving competition. Danny speaks about his journey dealing with injury, utilizing his support system, and how he has identified the structures he needs in his life. Danny currently lives in Denver, CO and works as an engineer.

Dr. Hope walker joins us this week to share her experience leaving soccer and the impact this transition had on her mental, physical, and emotional health. Hope played soccer at College of Charleston and during this time managed injuries, burnout, and the drive to find new hobbies. During this episode we discuss the importance of surrounding yourself with people that know you well, taking time awa...

Dr. Matt Frakes joins the podcast this week to share his experience leaving sports as a player and re-entering the world of sports post competition. Matt is a leader in the world of sports nutrition, working with both collegiate and professional athletes by providing crucial research around the importance of nutrition for high level athletes. We chat about how his experiences growing up shaped him...