Those Left Behind - Reality After Someone You Love Takes Their Own Life

Most people who think about ending their life don’t actually want to die — they just want the pain to stop. In this powerful conversation, therapist, author, speaker, podcaster, and intuitive medium, Susan Grau, shares the truth about grief, trauma, and the pain that gets left behind. Susan Grau has lost five people to suicide, and she has personally battled thoughts of ending her life for many ye...

Julia lost her little brother Dillon to suicide when he was just 24 years old. In this honest conversation with Gayle Miller, she shares what the aftermath of suicide loss really looks like. While the topic is deeply painful, Julia brings a lighter energy to this episode than we may have felt, compared to others, as she reflects on who Dillon was, the joy he brought to their family, and the peace...

In this episode of Those Left Behind, Gayle sits down with one of her own family members, Rose, who lost her daughter Maya to suicide. It's unimaginable that this has happened twice in her family, but it's not as uncommon as you might think.  This is not a neat conversation. It’s the real version. Maya had a big personality: sharp, funny, gorgeous, smart, complicated, hypersensitive, and wired for...

Laura and Khan lost their daughter, Indiana, just two weeks before her 16th birthday. She's a forever fifteen. In this intimate conversation, they sit down with Gayle to talk about who Indiana was—brilliant, funny, complex, and deeply loved—and what it has been like to live in the world after her death. They share the shock of that night, the letters Indiana left behind, and how those words contin...

And it begins—a healing journey for those left behind. In our first episode, host Gayle Miller speaks about the death of her 31-year-old niece, Laura, a woman she loved like a daughter. This is a space for those navigating the aftermath of losing someone who took their own life. If you're waking up in disbelief, replaying memories, searching for meaning, wondering where you belong in this grief—Ga...

If you've lost someone you love to suicide, you are not alone. Not in your grief, not in your questions, not in the tangle of emotions you're feeling right now or ever. Hi, I'm Gayle Miller, the creator of this show, and in January 2025, my niece Laura died by suicide. And in the months since, I've learned that this particular kind of grief is like its own country. It has its own language, its own...