This Too Shall Cast Podcast

Getting clean is one thing. Learning how to feel again is a whole other journey. In this episode, we dig into the part of recovery nobody really prepares you for — the flood of emotions that shows up once the substances are gone. The grief, the anger, the anxiety, the joy that feels almost too big to hold. For a lot of us, using was the way we managed feelings for years, sometimes decades. So what...

Fear doesn't always look the way you expect it to. In recovery, it's not just the obvious stuff — it's the quiet fear of who you are without the substance, the fear of sobriety itself, and the fear of failing all over again. In this episode, Lenny and I get into it. We define what fear really looks like in recovery, what faith actually means (and no, it doesn't have to be religious), and we share...

In this episode of **TTSC**, we break down one of the biggest reasons addicts relapse and why it catches so many people off guard. Relapse usually does not start with the drug. It starts way earlier in the mind, in the habits, in the disconnect, and in the small decisions that slowly pull someone away from recovery. This conversation gets into the real mechanics behind relapse, what warning signs...

What happens when addicts stop lying and start telling the truth? This podcast dives into why honesty is one of the core pillars of recovery. We talk about the lies addiction thrives on, the denial that keeps people stuck, and the brutal truth that starts setting people free. Real recovery is not built on image. It’s built on honesty. In this episode, addicts in recovery share real talk about self...

What is the one gift that can actually make an addict want to get clean? In Episode 5 of This Too Shall Cast Podcast, we dig into a truth that people outside of addiction often miss: you cannot force recovery, but there is something powerful that can crack open the door to change. We talk about the inner shift, the pain, the clarity, and the moments that make someone finally say, “I can’t keep liv...

In this episode, we break down what we call the **Four Horsemen of Addiction**: **Denial, Ego, Guilt, and Shame**. This is a raw, topic-driven conversation focused on the internal forces that keep people stuck. We unpack how denial blinds us, how ego blocks growth, how guilt distorts accountability, and how shame quietly fuels relapse and self-sabotage. Whether you’re in recovery, supporting someo...

I didn’t almost die because of drugs. I almost died because I **lied to myself**. This episode is about the masks I wore to stay comfortable—and how those same masks kept me sick. I called it coping. I called it functioning. I told myself I was fine. The truth is, every lie bought me a little more comfort and took a little more life. I share how self-deception became my most dangerous addiction, h...

In Episode 2 of **This Too Shall Cast**, we talk about what *hitting bottom* in addiction actually looked like for us — not the dramatic version you see in movies, but the quiet moment when there was nothing left to negotiate. No overdoses. No flashing lights. Just the realization that control was gone and something had to change. We’re not professionals. We’re two recovering addicts sharing lived...

In addiction, it’s rarely one big decision that destroys everything. It’s the slow, quiet choice to stop caring about the consequences. In this episode, we talk honestly about what happens when an addict reaches the point where tomorrow doesn’t matter anymore. When health, family, freedom, and even life itself become abstract concepts instead of real outcomes. This mindset is more dangerous than r...