This Is It, I’m Just Me

It's now January 2023, and I've grown some, learning more about letting go and actually getting myself love back. In this chapter, I share a poem I wrote about finally choosing myself. Also letting go of my first dog's urn and just keeping a few of her things. I'll also talk about releasing my second podcast series, all about self-love, since many of us queer kids usually don't have much of it. If...

Well this chapter closes off a terrible year of 2022 and I’m so glad it’s over. The rest of this horrible year, I found out my dad had gotten cancer yet again. He was to have like 12 rounds of radiation therapy to shrink it to a speck. I had zero dating life and wasn’t even thinking about it. And my mental health I’m surprised, I made it through this year at all. Listen to this finally chapter of...

Have you ever been robbed before? Well I have and if you work retail then this may have happened to you. But if not then this next chapter will be an eye opener for you. July of 2022 would be something that I’d never forget. At the time there were multiple businesses getting hit abs I knew it would only be a matter of time before we did as well. Listen to this chapter from my own personal experien...

It was a long time coming to get to a place with my mental health, June of 2022 was the start of a new chapter. I had finally gotten to a place where I didn’t need the services of ODSP after ten years of using the platform. I had a hold on my anxiety and depression for once in my life that I was no longer suffering from either of the two. Listen to this chapter that was a decade or more in the sta...

It was March of 2022 and I had been looking to get another dog, but not just any dog. A chihuahua my dream breed. Ever since I saw Paris Hilton with Tinkerbell. I was in love with the breed and always wanted one for a few decades. Well low and behold I was able to finally get one. Listen to this chapter of getting my pooch and the love a dog can have on you.

Once an ex they should stay as such in my opinion. We first started dating in 2005 when he was childless. It was my first long term relationship as I was also his first trans girlfriend. We split a couple years later to then become friends later on. Then in 2020 we tried to date again which was a huge mistake. Listen to this bonus chapter.

It’s now Jan of 2022 and I’m down for the count with Covid-19. I caught it sometime in December of last year. I was sick for three weeks. From losing my sense of smell to my bones hurting. Cold chills like you wouldn’t believe. I’ve never been that sick in my life. Listen to this chapter and what I went through.

Well do you remember having friendship bubbles in the beginning of the pandemic? Because I do and this chapter is what it’s all about. Some of us had medium sized ones and till they had to become much smaller. This chapter is about a small group I had that became just three. And the ups and downs of three friends that would eventually end up splitting apart. And to this day aren’t friends at all.

Well back in the 90s this was something you could easily buy at any local Gay Shop. It was sold as boot cleaner but boy was it not. Mainly used for bottoms to take a big D up the you know where. Listen to my little story and views on this very popular drug. Even used to this day and not just by the LGBTQ community but also heterosexuals.

It was Montreal Pride in August of 2019. My best friend at the time was working for RBC and I would usually go with him to walk in the parade. This year they did a draw like last year. But this time it was two box seat tickets to see Celine Dion food and beverages included. Well what do you know but guess who won?. Listen to this fun story.

I was very young when I first saw her on tv. In reruns of The Sonny & Cher Comedy Hour. And from there my love of Cher grew. I’ve seen every movie she’s ever been in. Buying her albums and then in 2018 my parents gifted me a ticket for my birthday to see her in her upcoming tour Here We Go Again where she covered some of her songs as well as ABBA songs which I also grew up listening to as well.

He was tall, with broad shoulders, a square chiseled jaw. With dark short hair, built body and tattoos, he fixed computers and enjoyed motorcycles. My computer was broken and needed fixing and boy did I want him to fix me too. Listen to this interesting story that has a second story coming up.

Mid summer of 2019, I was asked if I knew anyone who was part of the LGBTQ+ community who might have tried to hurt themselves. I told them that I had personal experience with this. And asked if I could help them out. They agreed and little did I know I’d be part of a much bigger project. Listen to this very important chapter. Also if you need help there is help out there text 988 in Canada: Today...

Summer of 2019 in June 8th and 9th Queer Sphere Expo was born it’s the first, best, and only LGBTQ+ consumer show, designed for community members, allies, friends, family and fans! I was lucky enough to perform both days as the first and only trans burlesque artist. And boy was this an experience like no other. More information about it can be found here https://queersphere.ca/how-the-expo-came-to...

In 2001 I had met someone who wanted to sell cosmetics in the night club scene. The packaging was so interesting and It wasn’t your regular makeup. An easy 3-in-1 do it all, Lips, Cheeks and Eyes. The top selling colour was a beautiful shade but sadly it was super hard to sell. Listen to this short story of a short lived side job.

I had my first drink when I was 14-15 years of age. Than I drank every night when I was 16 when I had run away from home. As I got older it got worse and worse and till I couldn’t take it anymore. The blackouts, and the worst hangover’s imaginable. Also to hear my other story about the night I was drunk and was sexually assaulted you can listen to that story here https://podcast.app/todays-dating-...

In 2016 of the 30th of March. I was feeling extremely low and alone and wrote this poem. I’m sharing the whole thing here as you only hear parts of it from my first documentary. I also share my thoughts on how far I’ve come from that poem and where I am today in life. I hope you know that just because you feel low and down. These things can and do change with time. I no longer feel the way I felt...

In my early transition, while I was still living in Pickering Ontario. I used to use MSN chat rooms. One which was very very popular called Gay, Bi Toronto was a trans girls dream to meet trans attracted men. And boy did I meet a ton of them. Listen in on this funny dating story. One of many that I’ll be sharing about through out my life.

A taste for real work, it wasn’t sex work. It was finally a real job with a pay-check. For once I wasn’t having to have some man’s hands touch me. From selling clothing and working in a warehouse to then working at an upscale furniture store. I’m a handy lady too, I can put together furniture like nobodies business. If you need someone to put a table together I’m your gal. My second documentary ht...

The magical part about being a creative person is being able to share your flowing thoughts. At the time this is what was flowing through mine. Again this was in the same year of 2018 in May. Ive been told that people are proud of me. I’ve come a long way but do you know how hard it is to hear this when you still feel like a loser. Social media is destroying everyone. Everyone’s posts the perfect...

Disclaimer: Tissues might be needed. It was now January 22nd of 2018. My beautiful dog Diva was now ten years old, I had adopted her from a couple when she was just 8months old. I was her fourth owner. She was with me when I got my first surgery to becoming more myself. She was with me through breaks ups. My depression and my anxiety she was my best friend and animal soulmate. Little did I know, s...

Warning: Some details are graphic listen with discretion. It was early December of 2017, after a night of burlesque, I got home and had gone to bed, but was woken up by the fire alarm going off. This is a regular occurrence when you live in a high rise apartment building. It gets pulled all the time and you tend to get used to it. For a lot of people who live in my building we don’t care much and...

I Was A Burlesque Artist So back in October of 2016, I went to a Halloween party and while I was there they had a burlesque performance. The woman who did it I was able to chat to and we talked and I thought it would be so cool to get into it. Then I went and saw the same girl dance with her troupe as she had invited me to go and when I was at that show they wanted volunteers to do the shimmy. I w...

There was a post on Facebook a friend told me about in early September of 2016. Some collage Students at Carlton University who were in journalism looking to film a documentary about someone who was trans in the LGBTQ+ community. I decided that I’d like to be apart of something like that. And decided to reach out. I was picked out of a few others and this was going to be the beginning of getting o...

It was my first year living by myself with my dog Diva. I stayed home that Halloween night and went to bed pretty early. But was woken up not by a scary dream but a scary situation. Have you ever had someone try and break into your apartment before, if you have then you know the feeling you felt. If you haven’t it’s the scariest thing to experience.