This Is It, I’m Just Me

In this deeply personal episode, I talk about where I’ve been, why the podcast has been quieter, and the unexpected shift happening in my life. After years of being visible, performing, creating, and sharing so much of myself publicly, I’m learning what it means to live a slower, softer, more peaceful life. This isn’t a goodbye. It’s a reflection. It’s about burnout, depression, grief, healing, le...

In this chapter, I talk about what happens when you step away from the noise—like leaving Instagram and barely using Facebook—and start hearing yourself again. When the constant input of social media quiets down, it changes how you see everything: identity, attraction, and even yourself. Being in my own company lately has brought a sense of clarity and peace I didn’t expect. Without all that outsi...

In this chapter, I talk about something that often gets misunderstood—living alone. Not as loneliness… but as peace. As intention. As a life that’s been carefully shaped to feel calm, soft, and truly your own. I share what it’s like to create a home that reflects your inner world, where quiet isn’t empty—it’s grounding. Where your space begins to hold you, instead of drain you. And I also open up...

Continuing through the 1953 archives of Chatelaine, this chapter dives into two very different stories—The Story of Two Fat Men and From Merrie England to Massy by Judith Robinson. What starts as a simple reading quickly turns into something deeper, touching on health, identity, culture, and the way people thought and wrote back then. It’s fascinating to see how some things—like conversations arou...

In this first episode of Chatelaine: The 1953 Archives, I open the March 1953 issue of Chatelaine and begin at the very beginning — including a section where readers take over and share their opinions, reactions, and perspectives. These letters give a fascinating glimpse into what people were thinking, discussing, and debating at the time. Some thoughts feel surprisingly familiar, while others cle...

I didn’t post a farewell story. I didn’t announce a break. I just deleted Instagram. In this episode, I share why I made the clean cut, what it’s like stepping away from a platform that drains more than it gives, and how simplifying my digital life has helped me reclaim energy, focus, and real connection. If you’ve ever felt overwhelmed by scrolling, fake connections, or the constant highlight ree...

Lana dives into the Fire Horse energy—a bold, transformative force that shakes up life, clears old connections, and opens space for new beginnings. She shares her journey of letting go: ending draining relationships, shedding past selves, and even redesigning her space with a new dining table that reflects her evolving style. Blending Life Path 4 grounding with natural 8-year clearing cycles, this...

I love writing poems and creating stories with words and sound. In this chapter, I talk about how I bring my poetry to life, why I started sharing it in new ways, and how I use tools like AI to shape the sound, effects, and atmosphere that make my work feel alive. I also introduce my alter ego, Velvet L, and the YouTube space where my poems meet sound. https://youtube.com/@velvetlmusic

We’re living in a time where attention is currency and everything seems to come with a price tag. In this chapter, I reflect on fame, monetization, social media metrics, privacy, and why I’ve chosen to keep my creative work free. Not because I can’t monetize it — but because I don’t want to lose the joy of it. When the world measures your worth in engagement, how do you protect your soul?

🌍 Listeners Around the World In this special chapter of my documentary, I celebrate all 32 countries where this podcast is being heard. Together, we reflect on the state of the world, honor resilience and beauty in every culture, and remind ourselves that love, equality, and human rights matter for everyone. Sit back with your favorite drink or snack, no passport needed, and travel the world with...

Lately, it feels like aging is treated as a personal failure and perfection is something we’re all expected to chase. Wrinkles aren’t just lines anymore — they’re seen as flaws. Bodies aren’t allowed to change. Faces aren’t allowed to move. In this chapter, I talk honestly about how beauty standards have gotten out of control — from fillers and plastic surgery to filters, Instagram, TikTok, and th...

In this chapter, I talk honestly about why I’ve stepped away from online dating—not from love, not from connection, but from the apps themselves. As a trans woman who later came into herself as a lesbian, online dating taught me a lot… and also showed me exactly what no longer aligns. I reflect on two real experiences that shifted my perspective, why ENM and open dynamics—while valid for some—don’...

In “Aligned by Design,” explore astrology, numerology, and the inner guidance of energy and clarity. Discover how your Sun, Moon, Rising, Life Path, Soul, and Name numbers reveal patterns in love, work, and self. Learn why energy alignment matters more than surface attraction, how honoring your vibration strengthens your life, and why choosing yourself first is a powerful act of intentional living...

Siblings—the people we don’t choose, but who shape us in ways big and small. In this episode, Lana explores the ups and downs of sibling relationships, sharing personal stories, from celebrating her 19th birthday with her older brother to navigating transitions, support, and life’s challenges. She also dives into the psychology of sibling dynamics, including boundaries, partner relationships, and...

Chapstick Lesbian is about choosing clarity over performance. I didn’t change my style, my personality, or my femininity — I just stopped centering men. This chapter is about listening to your body, setting real boundaries, and allowing desire to tell the truth without shame. It’s honest, grounded, and about finally letting go of what no longer fits.

Therapy, diagnosis, and responsibility in modern trans healthcare. In this chapter, Lana explores why medical transition must be treated as serious healthcare — not a social trend. Drawing from her lived experience as a medically transitioned trans woman, Canadian healthcare data, and real statistics, she discusses the importance of therapy, diagnosis, and responsible access to care. She also expl...

Authenticity & Being Original explores the difference between showing up as your true self and standing out as your own unique energy. Lana dives into why not everyone will understand your growth, why some people become background characters in your story, and how being real can be both empowering and lonely. This episode breaks down the pros, the cons, and the clarity that comes from seeing throu...

Disclaimer: This episode discusses surgical procedures and personal medical decisions. It is for informational and storytelling purposes only and should not be considered medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare professional for your personal situation. In this episode, I share a deeply personal chapter of my life — the challenges, discoveries, and milestones that have shaped my journ...

In this chapter, Lana explores the way music reaches the soul — from Malte Marten’s calming hand pan to SYML’s haunting emotion and Billie Eilish’s shadow-soft power. It’s an intimate look at why certain sounds give us chills, unlock memories, and stay with us long after the song ends. Before closing, Lana invites you to play your favourite track and share one word for how music makes you feel. Dr...

In this chapter of This Is It, I’m Just Me, Lana opens up about how style is so much more than the outfits we put on. From her girl-next-door beginnings to her hot-goth era, from funky experimentation to the confidence her chest and neck tattoo awakened, she explores how fashion grows with you — and sometimes even outgrows who you used to be. This episode dives into identity, evolution, and the po...

We live in a world where our homes, phones, and daily routines are quietly connected to AI. In this chapter, I explore how tools like ChatGPT, Google Home, Siri, and even Alexa (for many people) can support us in ways we might not always notice — from organizing our day and tracking reminders to helping caregivers navigate medical care and offering guidance in tough moments. I reflect on how AI ca...

In this episode, Lana dives deep into the complicated layers of modern friendship — the real ones, the close ones, the fading ones, and the ones that exist mostly on a screen. From taking accountability in your relationships to understanding how social media blurs the line between friend and acquaintance, Lana reflects on how connection used to be, how it feels now, and what it means to show up au...

In this deeply personal episode of This Is It, I’m Just Me, I share the emotional weight of my dad’s latest PET scan — news that shows his lymphoma has become active again. I talk through what it feels like to hear those results, to watch someone you love fight through exhaustion, and to live in that quiet space between fear and hope. This episode isn’t just about cancer; it’s about the human side...

In this episode, I’m sharing the shift that happened in me when I turned 46 — a quiet, powerful realignment that completely changed how I look at dating, relationships, intimacy, and the energy I allow into my life. I talk about the standards I’ve raised, the red flags I no longer entertain, and why I’m choosing slow, intentional love over rushed chaos. I also dive into why friendship first matter...

In this chapter of This Is It, I open up about my mental health — the shadows I’ve been walking through, and the light I’m slowly finding again. I also share a new piece I’ve written, a hauntingly imaginative poem-story perfect for Halloween. It’s raw, creative, and a little eerie… with a few extra thoughts and surprises along the way.