The Deposition with Objeckshun

I believe that something that is difficult for me to grasp is how important gratitude really is. If you think about it, a thank you can really make anything better, but personally I feel like I struggle with displaying legitimate gratitude...but is that even up to me? Let's chat about it. Find me here: https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

This one has been a long time coming, and admittedly I almost didn't share it, but I think that the time has come to let some of my ideas and things that I have been holding close to my heart out around certain things. This will seem like a complaint about not feeling heard or validated...and maybe it is, but I feel like I can't sit idly by without letting people know my thoughts on the ju...

I struggle to say this, but often times I experience a sense of unease during a lot of day to day things...whether I am at work, on stream, or just existing in my day-to-day life. The unfortunate side effect of it, is that despite trying my hardest to be outgoing or to be understanding, a lot of the time my intuition is correct. Which can be awesome in some cases, and awful in others. Still, I fee...

Lately I have been observing a lot of hyperfixation, and even more so, some of the dangerous fallout from it. Imagine hyperfixating on a desert so much that you neglect to eat a normal meal...sounds off right? Now apply that logic to people, places, things, etc. Scared yet? I figured that today I would share my perspective as well as some somewhat interesting personal experiences around it. Find m...

I've returned from TwitchCon, and while my body is ravaged by jet lag, I was able to record some thoughts making more of an effort to appreciate time. This one is a bit shorter, but I think it'll make sense when you hear it. https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

I saw a few things on Twitter/X, whatever we are calling it now, that for some reason jumped out to me when I happened to be looking at something, and they really got me thinking. They were unrelated, and I don't even think the two people know each other, but the thoughts were somehow related to me. It's definitely something I have some passionate thoughts about, and those thoughts may sur...

You will often hear sports commentators and atheletes refer to the ability to close out games as being able to finish down the stretch. A lot of times however, atheletes find themselves in a poor position to be able to do so due to a lack of energy managing techniques. It takes a lot of energy and practice to execute a game plan successfully, and to be transparent, some health stuff has really cau...

Hey everyone. Well, we passed the birthday, but not without some of the most wonderful celebrations I've ever had. I spent a lot of time last week at a loss for words and even as I come back down from that 'high', I feel like a lot of the challenges this year, especially with communication and reaching out, have been kind of answered. I'm honored to have been shown so much love, no...

It's wild that my last episode at age 39 is episdode 39, isn't it? It's almost like I planned it. I feel like a lot of growth happens at almost any stage in our lives, but I thought that this week I would take a bit of a deep dive into some real lessons that I learned by decade. So let's high level reminisce a bit. Find me here: https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

I have been going extra hard lately, and as a result I have been extra tired. Something that was happening as a result of the fatigue was a sense of guilt. Like I didn't deserve to be tired. Why is that??? When our bodies tell us we are tired and need to recover, why do we hold it against ourselves? Especially when if a loved one told us they were tired we would tell them to rest. Recovery is...

I have really been diving into my recent silence lately, and the reality behind how it is that I leave so much unsaid, and to be honest, I think it comes from a fear of being mean. I dont think anyone ever intends to be mean per se, it's just that lately, I feel as though so much negativity and 'mean-ness' if you will, is volunteered. Maybe I'm wrong about that, but I definitely wa...

I try very hard to understand that most people are "making an effort", it's a phrase you hear all the time. If that is the case, then why is it that sometimes it feels like our best effort isn't good enough? I spent a good bit of time attempting to analyze this and I personally feel it has a lot to do with the inability in most cases to see effort. This doesn't necessarily me...

I have said for a while now, that one thing our society is sorely lacking is respect, however like most things, respect starts with oneself. So while I am very conscious about doing the best I can by my body and mind for the most part, today's episode idea was spawned by the thought "why is it that I do 'x' or exist in 'y' when I know that it is detrimental to me?" I...

I'm not sure if it's my birthday coming up, or just the fact that this year has been...well this year, but I started to notice (read: had pointed out to me) that sometimes I have let the current storm cloud wash away the positivity from instances gone past. So rather than explore feeling/expressing interpersonal appreciation, I thought it might be a bit more uplifting to explore personal a...

I don't think it's any secret to my friends that I have been having a hard time with certain aspects of competition lately. If I'm being honest, where it feels as though the mass majority of human beings can improve in skills, at least vividly, for a large portion of my life, I have often felt that I don't "get better" at things. Could be video games, other skills, or eve...

I think that I have come to a head in terms of things that are legitimately stressing me out, and lately I have made the concerted effort to try and minimize that. Especially since I'm learning that it is a lot more visible than I had thought it was. So, I thought I would take today and share with you some of the things that I do that help me to mitigate my stress, and some of those things mig...

Thank you for spending so much time with me, whether here, Twitch, Discord or elsewhere. Today I wanted to talk about how I value time as I approach what may be my 'midlife crisis'...not to worried about it, but we'll see where it goes. Enjoy the listen and have a great one! https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

The headspace has been of for a few weeks. It was suggested to me by a friend that it may help to describe on the podcast essentially what friendship looks like from my point of view. So without massively dissecting it, I knocked it down to three fundamental foundations that most of my friendships thrive on. I really hope that this is more of an uplifting listen for y'all. Getting ready for fa...

I really REALLY never want to run out of patience...but admittedly, I'm not sure how. I'm really going to try however, and try hard. I think the audio here might be a bit strange because of a bluetooth speaker that was attached to the phone mistakenly, but hopefully it's still a worthy listen.

This one has been a long time coming. I don't know how to introduce this other than to say that there are times that I have felt like the side effect of a lot of people's collective brain fog, or like I don't matter. And it feels like my fault, so I wanted to get some things off of my chest, and out into the open so that I can process them. NOTE: This podcast references things that hav...

I apologize for the audio on this one, but the A/C where I re-recorded this was humming and buzzing while I tried to record, however I am so passionate about what I wanted to talk about, I didn't want it to come across as rambly, which my first recording admittedly did. So Canon Events...how do they shape us? How do they make us who we are? And how can we, while retaining our identity, make it...

Admittedly, today's recording was a little messy, however I feel like the message was important so I went with it. I recently uploaded a Tik Tok that by my standards did pretty well, and this morning I had a comment on it that was easier left just unsaid, and even then it had me wondering why? So I thought, for probably the 7th or 8th time that I can remember, we should chat a bit about valida...

I have a tendency to immediately default to struggling with something once I "job-ify" it. It's not that I have a poor work ethic, it just becomes difficult to measure success against failure, when failure feels so permanent and success feels so temporary. So I decided I was going to perspective shift on how I look at what I am doing in the creative world. Have a listen and let me kn...

Lately I'm finding that I feel challenged in a lot of aspects...and targeted in some others. What's the difference? Well, lets talk about it. I wanted to discuss some things I have been experiencing lately and that I have noticed others experiencing at a high level. Let me know your thoughts: find me @objeckshun everywhere. https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

This was going to be a different type of episode, but admittedly I was emotionally charged after watching Across the Spiderverse that I re-recorded a bunch of the reasons why I felt a break was necessary. My hope is that you guys take some self awareness away from this and hopefully can realize when you are approaching a breaking point, and can get some perspective on when and why you should be ta...