The Deposition with Objeckshun

I caught myself asking 'why me?' the other night in the shower, and not to spoil the podcast but I really don't have an answer, but it's something I am willing to explore with you guys. Hear me out. Find me here: https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

I have really been digging into Attachment Style theory lately because of how I want to connect with friends and how I want to become a better creator and safe space, and in so doing, I have run into some things that I kinda wanted to word vomit about for a while. Hopefully one day my legs stop hurting lol. Find me here: https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

I saw a meme this week and it invaded my brain. I couldn't get passed it, especially after having sent so many long messages recently, and the discussions not necessarily going the way I thought they would. You never plan well for things like that. And while I will continue to do my best to elaborate and explain in great detail my thoughts to those who want to hear them, I think this one will...

I have lately been obsessing over understanding admittedly, and I think that a choice that I have consciously made over the past several weeks is that I have to make more of a personal effort to understand versus seeking to be understood. I cannot control being understood, but I can control understanding the validation that I give out. I am trying to validate even if I am not being validated, beca...

Let them mentality - it is a hard thing to do, but sometimes it's all you can do, and I promise it is healthy. Sometimes there's no amount of context or explanation that you can do preemptively to prevent yourself from being misunderstood. No matter what it is or what you do, dialogue will always be the most important thing, but sometimes people just are not going to understand you, and fo...

My heart was in a weird place this week. At one end I am deperately trying to understand others while feeling somewhat misunderstood. All while trying not to be the stereotypical angry black dude that ver rarely gets their voice heard. It's weird, so I thought I would spend some time breaking it down. Find me here: https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

There is a bit of a weird mindset lately of "who cares?" or "why bother?" springing up lately, and I've found myself falling into it. But rather than get trapped there, I am using all the energy I can to get out of the mindset, and here is why I think we should all try. Find me here: https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

Exactly what the title says, recently during some meditation and journaling I envisioned a discussion between my mind and my heart, and I wanted to share it with you. Find me here: https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

So this one is a little charged up in that I have had some things weighing on me for a while, and I wanted (again) to get the ideas out of my mind and into the ether, while attempting to give y'all an ideal as to how we interact with each other. I think self awareness is starting to dwindle a bit, and I'd like to bring that back. Find me here: https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

The title is a bit misleading, this is more about telling people things they don't want to hear. I recorded it tired and in an emotional space, but I wanted to get these feelings out of my mind. Hopefully it's enjoyable. https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

Confession: I'm angry, a lot. And while I do not make a conscious effort to bottle it, I definitely do not express it much, because I feel like I don't have many outlets or opportunities to. So I figured after a weekend with some weird stuff perceptionally, it was time to unpack it. Find me here: https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

I feel responsible that my basketball team has lost our last 2 games, mostly because I have not been able to build any chemistry with my teammates. This got me thinking about other instances where a lack of chemistry can often lead to a lack of success. Here's my thoughts. Find me here: https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

I admitted this week that a lot of what I do or have done in the past was done with the intention of being something to someone...not something in particular...just something. And in so doing I became someone who tried to be everything to everyone so as to hopefully catch the success of finally being something to someone. I'm positive in hindsight this was incorrect, so let's talk about wh...

Sometimes we put so much emphasis on training the body, that the mind is neglected. I figured I would take some time today and discuss some literal mental shortcomings and how I am dealing with them. We train our bodies so hard, our minds need training just as much. Find me here: https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

I have been trying this perspective shift for a long time now, mainly because I have a very hard time believing that I am constantly lying to myself, and in so doing, have actually had some experiences when I realized that my "inner monologue" was not anxiety, it was my intuition trying to keep me safe. Here are my thoughts, what are yours? Find me here: https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

As far as recent communications go, both on the global stage and even in private dialog, a phrase that seems to occur is "context is important"...but where is it? Are we providing context? Are we not? I feel as though context is important...but the presence or absence of context? That's context in itself. Find me here: https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

The truth is, it's very difficult to feel like a lesson that someone else has had to learn, but I have found some interesting ways to to mitigate the feelings that can arise from feeling like one has been treated differently, especially when compared to newer interactions or things changing rapidly. Adjustments are hard, but doable. Find me here: https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

This week I wanted to explore something that has been kind of an interesting topic for me - noise...or just sound in general. Not even from an ASMR standpoint, sound does stuff to our brains and our bodies that is just super interesting and unique to me. So let's chat about it a little bit. Find me here: https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

I was thinking about how Ursula stole Ariel's voice. When she went to Eric, she had bewitched herself to mask her appearance, but for some reason it was important for her to have Ariel's voice. I think that often we forget that we all have a voice and that what we feel and what we say are valid and should be heard. In this episode, I discuss what I feel is the difference between my "p...

Welcome to season 2! I wanted to start the year off with a high energy ideal that I am very passionate about, while also allowing for the realization that sometimes things take time, it's just very important not to give up. Enjoy the listen and let me know your thoughts! Find me here: https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

Last week I did something I was not proud of, and released what I considered to be an underwhelming and largely unfinished podcast...today I aim to fix that. Season 2 starts next week. Thank you for this year! Find me here: https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

I wanted to do another series about some lessons I learned in 2023, but it just felt like it was forced and rushed, so I figured I would try to record about it...and even the recording didn't feel super well. We're gonna bounce back for episode 52. Sorry about the dog barking at the end. Find me here: https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun

Like the title says, in today's ep, I go through largely what has happened to me...not just over the past few weeks, but at a high level over the past several years. I am as specific as I can be, and to be honest on relistening to this one (something I never do) I actually left something out, though I worry if it's something that really affects me as much as I thought it did...who knows. A...

I'm harder on myself than anyone else is, but it seems as though there are instances in which I FEEL as though some things are harder on me than others. Today, I wanted to talk through a bit of this and kind of explain my side...to you guys...and myself. https://linktr.ee/Objeckshun - Find me here.

The other day, I was thinking about a conversation that I had with someone in which whether or not they like interactions with me, and while whether or not they care didn't come up specifically, based on the 'aftermath' of the discussion, it was definitely on the forefront of the mind. Recently however, I had a thought, and if I could tell them, I would tell them "I don't thin...