The Deconstruction Of C-PTSD

In this episode we will talk about the phases of the healing waves and when it doesn’t really apply. The healing wave is the up and down that mark our healing path. It is about explaining why we feel the way we do during the healing process. And it helps us access where we are at and how we can improve our healing - by learning to 'ride the wave'. So we first go step by step of the heali...

In this Episode we talk about being overwhelmed, when everything is just too much and you can't really do anything. Not just limited on PTSD, but this is the focus on this episode. We first get into why does it happen, then in what we can do and lastly why that sometimes means we might have to take a step back Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-41-60  Contact : contactme@johannadra...

In this episode we talk about the question many don't dare to ask out loud: Will this nightmare ever end? And the hopelessness associated with it. We first get into why we feel this way, then we answert the title question and lastly what we can do about it. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-41-60  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com        Send us Fan Mail Contact: contactme@j...

In this episode we will talk about living with your decision and a bit about the guilt that is sometimes associated with it. We talk about the impact of the decision, shortly about forgiving yourself and accepting the decision. Many topics we surely will revisit. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-41-60  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com        Send us Fan Mail Contact: contactme@...

Just a very short explanation of why there is no real episode this week. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-41-60  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com       Send us Fan Mail Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Website: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collection support me: https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconis https://paypal.me/Johannadraconis Discord/support...

In this episode we talk about why you feel sometimes worse, when you are getting better. It is counter intuitive that you feel worse, when you are getting better, which is why many think this is them getting worse and this causes depression and the like. We first talk about why you feel first worse, when you start your healing journey or a new chapter. Then we talk about why the lack of emotions i...

In this episode we talk about change, why it is necessary and why it is so hard. Not just something we face when healing from PTSD, but also in life in general. So it is important that we talk about it and maybe (and hopefully) better accept change. Clip mentioned: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7VbYokM9dY4 Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-41-60  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.c...

In this episode we revisit the topic trauma again to update it. This time we go intot he shapes of the Ring and Ball Trauma. Unlike the Sleeper Trauma these two aren't really hiding and more obvious. Nonetheless it is really helpful to know what their shapes look like. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-41-60  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com           Send us Fan Mail Conta...

In this episode we revisit the topic trauma to update it. We talk about what kind of shapes the trauma can take. This time we talk about the most sneaky and sabotaging one, the sleeper trauma. Named after sleeper agents and their similar behavior. So first we get into the name and behavior of the trauma and then how we can try to find it. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-41-60  Contac...

In this episode we talk about the up and downs of healing. What they are, why sometimes going down means you are healing. As this is one of the more confusing and frustrating parts of the healing process. After that we ask what we can for our healing progress. And in the end a little thank you for 50 episodes. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-41-60  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis...

In this Episode we talk about therapeutic abuse, about 5 No-go practices to be precise. The 5 practices I will go into in a bit go from being wrong to being harmful for the patients. That means we start with peddling, then we question if the past is irrelevant, that men don’t have feelings, the meaning of a person being a family member and how you have to be "y" if you are "x"....

In this episode we will talk about Injustice and dealing with the emotions - which we talked about last week. Not just with the sadness and the anger and everything in between. Dealing with the emotions is crucial in removing it from your system or at least lessen the symptoms. We first talk about how to address it and then a few examples how to do it. So, let us talk about it. Transcript :  www.j...

In this episode we talk about Injustice. More specifically about the feelings that are caused by Injustice. Especially for people suffering from a Trauma often end up with the short end of the stick. First we talk about what is unjust and the cause of the emotions we get. Let us talk about it. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-41-60  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com        Send...

In this episode we talk about a rather somber topic: The sudden need to kill yourself that a Person suffering from severe (C)PTSD might encounter. This is not the normal suicide thoughts that build up nor the random wild thoughts you might encounter. This comes out of nowhere and disappear in a similar fashion - it is something unique to this illness (as far as I know). I think it is something imp...

In this weeks episode we talk about the cause of Depression: Helplessness. We talk about the cause of Depression and how it can help us with Depression. This is a baseline that is supposed to help and reveal what to aim for. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-41-60  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com         Send us Fan Mail Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Website: www.johan...

In this episode we get into the mechanism of triggers. Fight or Flight or Freeze. We talk about how tiggers work and how they are caused. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-41-60  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com        Send us Fan Mail Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Website: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collection support me: https://ko-fi.com/...

Hello my dears, sadly the Corona Virus returned. I had no control over the factors causing it I should be fine next week, but I was in no position to record a full episode. So I hope to see you next week. Watch yourselves and take care!  Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-41-60  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com       Send us Fan Mail Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Website...

In this episode we talk about how I experience my Corona.  Since there a lot of questions going around and people are scared and confused, I thought it might be helpful if I share my insights. Sadly I am still in a strong grip by this illness, but I hope I be back to the regular topic next week. I am pretty optimistic about it. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-41-60  Contact : contact...

Hello my dears, sadly I am sick and have the Corona Virus. I should be fine soon, but to be sure, I skipped recording this weeks episode. I hope I am back soon. Follow the safety instructions! Watch yourselves and take care! Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-41-60  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com     Send us Fan Mail Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Website: www.johannadr...

Am I still me? A question many ask who are hit with great challenges in their lives. During that time a lot of change happens and sometimes people wonder if they are still themselves. This applies to people who suffer from tragic losses, mental illnesses, being handicapped, suddenly loosing everything and so on and so forth. But I noticed a lot of people seem to think that a mental illness is like...

Are you sometimes feeling there is something dark inside of you? Somethings that makes you uncomfortable? Or sometimes you react in a situation that is really unlike you? There is something inside of you and we talk about how to deal with it in this episode. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-21-40  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com    Send us Fan Mail Contact: contactme@johannadr...

Do you feel sometimes empty inside? Or do you have regularly pain in your chest? Which kind of feels like a constant heart break? Is the emptiness inside you make oyu feel hollow? Empty? Your life empty? This might help you against that. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-21-40  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com    Send us Fan Mail Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Website: w...

Do you ever wonder if it really happened? Like... you know it happened, but was it really that bad? Like, really? There is often denial and a form of uncertainty regarding the trauma received or what happened to us. It is usually accompanied by doubt and insecurity. So let us talk about it and break the silence a bit about it. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-21-40  Contact : contactm...

In this episode we talk about silence, this time the one that is forced upon the victim from the abuser. We go over how the silence is used and how it gets established by the abuser. Ensuring that the victim remains silent is one of the central methods of abusers - so it is important to know about it and how it is done. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-21-40  Contact : contactme@johan...

In this episode we will talk about silence. THE silence. The silence that you need to break usually, when you try to talk abotu your trauma/PTSD/etc. Where does the Silence come from? Why is it harming the victims and aiding abusers? We talk about why it is so hard to break the Silence and if we even have to break the silence. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-21-40  Contact : contactm...