The Deconstruction Of C-PTSD

In this episode we will talk about quite a personal topic - survivor’s guilt. We will focus this episode on validation and first band aid measure. Which means we first talk about how survivor's guilt affected me and perceived it and then the first band aid I applied with success. We might get into counter measure in another episode - in case there is interest. Transcript :  www.johannadraconi...

In this episode we will talk about something most of us go through when they start uncovering the trauma - and what it is connected with. The truth we once believe crumbles and in worst case - we are only left with rubble. This is one of the most bitter and harshest truth, but how do we go from there? Even if it just an aspect of your life that needs to change, it is good to know in what direction...

In this episode we will talk about why people believe liesespite evidence clearly in front of them. Be it conspiracies, groups, people that defy reality with every breath or yourself. As it is part of the denial process of your healing journey.  So let us talk about it Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com      Send us Fan Mail Contact: conta...

In this episode we will talk about the big problem that is having made PTSD a spectrum - which it became as more and more illnesses were put under that umbrella term. I want to emphasize the problem and - how it sadly affects you. We first get into the different traumas and how it affects their needs and then the big problem of the limited resources this causes. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.c...

Hello my dears!  First I just wanted to say I hope you had a wonderful holiday season - independent from the form or shape you choose to celebrate it.  Though sadly it is that especially in this season we get a lot of dark thoughts - be it because of the darkness or for the chance to reflect what we have, had and could have. Or remind us of “things”.  Often we are forced to put on a face - I hope...

In this episode we talk about being empathic is oneself. This is harder than many people believe and most don't even know where to start. We talk about where it comes, about what might help, choices from the past, learned behaviors, perfectionism and being grounded in reality. This is improtant for your healing journey therefor it is important we talk about it. Transcript :  www.johannadracon...

In this episode we will talk about a feeling many have - the feeling of faking the whole ordeal and where It comes from. (Not the imposter syndrome) Ever felt you turning a mouse into an elephant? Felt like "this can't be right - it wasn't THAT bad"? Struggling with coming to terms with your situation? This is a rather common problem and it is important we talk about it Transcr...

In this short episode we get into why the beginning is so hard - be it taking the first step or the uphill battle - and how we go from here. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-61-80  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com     Send us Fan Mail Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Website: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collection support me: https://ko-fi.com/...

In this episode we will talk about torture - which doesn't just affects people in prison of unjust regimes.  In this instance we talk about what defines torture and if what happened to you does so too. Which is not unlikely. It is a topic with many myths and taboos - so it is important we talk about it. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-61-80  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.c...

In this episode we will talk about a question “Are you healed yet?” - or the many variations of it. This of course leads often to us asking “Why am I not healed yet?” - which is destructive and harmful. I know how frustrating this topic is - so let us talk about it and put things a bit into perspective. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-61-80  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com   ...

In this episode we tak about being raised to be a victim - it doesn’t really matter if it is intentional or not. (Not grooming) Many people wonder why they are prone to fall for predators or why they have such a hard time to stand up for themselves or why they are just such a doormat or the like. This leads often to feeling of strong insecurity, vulnerability and so on. Many don’t really know why...

Hello my dears, I REALLY tried to avoid this, but there is no way around this sadly. I am sorry, I should have recorded it earlier - but as mentioned I am VERY stubborn and refused. I am very sick, the seasonal flu, kept me basically in bed the last weeks - I was actually surprised I could record last weeks episode. It is caused by the situation I am in and I hate every minute of it, but I rather...

In this episode we talk about a topic I keep running into - especially with men: Why can’t I change my emotions with logic? Despite logic being a useful tool to keep emotions in check and use them responsible as an adult - it isn't helpful in dealing with the source of our emotions. We talk about the difference between logic and emotions - and how we change the latter. Transcript :  www.johan...

In this episode we talk about 2 big problems with support groups: Reaffirming victim hood and hidden agendas. They can lead to your support group being depremental to your health and hinder your healing journey. That is why it is important we talk about it. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-61-80  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com       Send us Fan Mail Contact: contactme@johanna...

In this episode we talk about the backlash we receive from our Surrounding / Social circle and society while we are on our healing path. This has a lot to do with change and we get into why. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-61-80  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com      Send us Fan Mail Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Website: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.co...

In this episode we talk about what kind of life is worth living, as this question usually comes up during the PTSD period. We are comparing the argument "Surviving - Life is precious on its own" and "Living - Life needs to be worth living" and at the end have some final words about it. I think it is an important topic to talk about, despite being quite ab it of taboo. It is a q...

Hello my dears, I really, really had hoped I could avoid it this time. I even postponed the episode by a day in hope of this - but it is just too much. The situation with my dog is coming now truly to an end. I spare you the details, but it is a horrendous situation that will end horribly either way.  The only good news is, that it will be over in the next days - one way or another. After that I s...

In this episode we will talk about something very crucial: The subconsciousness. Why is it so important? Why is communication with it so hard? We will dive shortly in why I use subconsciousness and not unconsciousness. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-61-80  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com    Send us Fan Mail Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Website: www.johannadraconis....

In this episode we will talk about something quite overdue: What do I do after I got my diagnosis? What am I supposed to do now? There isn’t really an instruction manual for that. The only thing most people know is that they need therapy - which is usually pretty hard to get. So here are the first steps that can help you tremendously you should do after you have gotten the diagnosis. Transcript : ...

In this episode we will talk about just wanting a break from life - you know a pause button. This doesn't just applies for PTSD. Sometimes in life it would just be wonderful to have a button to pause it. We will talk about why we feel this way and what we can do. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-61-80  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com    Send us Fan Mail Contact: contactme...

Hello my dears. This year has truly proven to be a challenge on multiple levels. I received recently the news of the loss of the last outer family member of mine I still on good terms with. My grandfather almost 96 years old.  I am sure you understand and I am sorry for the inconvenience. Watch yourselves and take very good care of you. Johanna Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-61-80 ...

In this episode we talk about Forgiveness and why it isn't necessary. Often we hear "you need to forgive to heal" which is not accurate. Let us talk about why and what we can do instead. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-61-80  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com   Send us Fan Mail Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Website: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadra...

In this episode we clarify what it means to have PTSD, what happens at the breakout, when it happens and why it happens usually. After that we get into to what kind of false assumptions and actions this leads. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-61-80  Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com  Send us Fan Mail Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Website: www.johannadraconis.com www.joh...

In this episode we will talk about something most likely all too familiar for most of you. The feeling of not being able to talk with anyone truly. Be it about what happened or what you feel. This feeling can make you feel very isolated and can lead to depression. That is why I think it is very important we talk about it. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-61-80  Contact : contactme@joh...

In this episode we talk about opposite of the healing wave - the recovery wave. This happens if you get triggered, hurt, traumatized or anything the like. Unlike the healing wave the recovery wave just reestablishes the status quo - if not worse. We talk about the phases of the wave and where it differentiates to the healing one. It might help you understand what is happening to you. Transcript : ...