SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast

Send us Fan Mail I decided not to patch in the in-the-moment catching of IT (describe IT/suicide) I FROZE, but a friend was present & recorded it & then we caught it---the suicide. Then I got it out. In a moment of ptsd uprising... you'll body will feel different & it's acute so FAST, no SLOW TRANSITION (now this is important) I wrote. A review. It got a response. Now, the ne...

Send us Fan Mail I do believe I'm ready to find that YouTube with "no no no no" & write that scene of when I pulled over during a temper tantrum over insurance & the first words of their ANXIETY. Support the show

Send us Fan Mail WHO ARE THE ONES WHO WANT TO TALK?  WHO AVOIDS THE QUESTION? All you need to know now is DO THEY GET IT? Someone who doesn't & wants to know. How do they behave? Someone who doesn't & doesn't want to know. How do they behave? Someone who does & pretends they don't.  How do they behave? Someone who does & has no questions. How do they behave? Sup...

Send us Fan Mail Anyone can be one! How cool is that idea. Support the show

Send us Fan Mail When you "get it out" (suicide) you're giving yourself TIME to regroup. This is a war. No wonder the themes of ptsd and head trauma is the same in politics (use of fear, manipulation, nepotism & being duh--pretending to not get it when you 100% do! How to trigger people politicians) Self-awareness & death Support the show

Send us Fan Mail 3 notes with suicide. Staying with "it" until you realize, "ok, this is what my body wants so for now, let's play that game." TRUSTING you will not because there's only one way I would do it---that's why, when one person knows. It's a bit mental when you start to think, omg, they're trying to ____ __. Support the show

Send us Fan Mail Talk slower. Talk like there's a period (stabby point) at the end of each word. Support the show

Send us Fan Mail The adrenaline is going away... I didn't have numbers secured so "two" as to, too & part of the infinitive like "to run. To hide," but also because in YEAR TWO, we discussed validation & this person never brought it up again, but realization they were using every word/phrase/mantra/intellectual way to understand self in these emotional ways to then...

Send us Fan Mail We're going to plan for it.  It's validating it knowing I could never follow through since FAITH stops me. There's a purpose for everything---even this. I'll be writing "Dating, Mating & Relating," "Conversations with The Father," "Lessons, Lessons & Confessions," & the first lesson plans will be (a) hydrotherapy (b) fi...

Send us Fan Mail This is definitely one of those worst first moments so next time I hear it, just write it. The worst that can happen is that you can read it & immediately realize just how awful violence is that makes something so simple as "writing what you hear" (note-taking) impossible because the sensory would be too much? I wrote out what I am concerned about. Since that isn&apo...

Send us Fan Mail A signature of consent to share the experience that happened... To end ptsd when the right people are finally listening, say it all. It'll be on YouTube. UNLISTED until I can list it. Support the show

Send us Fan Mail UNTITLED EPISODE/TITLE : even the good stuff hurts. Just shared a business card to say, "even if something happens at this time, I know I consented by sharing IDEAS!" I hear it. SO WAIT. THIS IS THAT PASSION EVERYONE SAID, "I LIKE." No. it's outRAGE so get it OUT! Support the show

Send us Fan Mail this is dONe Because I couldn't say "ow" without someone talking about triggers--what are those?--over and over. WHY triggers is tiger (a person), a grrr with three being royally P.O.ed and now tt for trigger, trauma, triggered, traumatized, triggering, traumatizing. Just remove those words---we need to in every day convo.  SAY : "give me an update when you&apo...

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Send us Fan Mail WEDDING OF THE CENTURY! FINALLY, how they think. It's fine, but it was, according to darkest day, "disgusting!" That "d" sound really stuck--reverberations that increased chronic pain--so flip it. Support the show

Send us Fan Mail The explanation for special ed & a change in behavior from the TEACHERS.  They had to input grades weekly & a weekly reminder by the principal in the principal meetings. One admin had those. One started out with those & then stopped. Similar to... Support the show

Send us Fan Mail same time tomorrow?  same place/same time in homeless advocacy. Support the show

Send us Fan Mail Almost lost D due to a [disgusting] wedding of the century! their words. Support the show

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Send us Fan Mail I hear it. I read FAST. Support the show

Send us Fan Mail No idea what this photo was, but just be direct. Pay attention or if you have ptsd, you'll be in survival mode & what you see/hear will be on replay until it's addressed/figured out/dealt with because you get ONE CHANCE to find out the truth. Trust what people say/do & how much they "get it." Support the show

Send us Fan Mail Just say words with numbers in it. I said a lot with the word "dead"line validating suicide. OK. Got it. I don't really talk so I made myself talk as a way to "fight back" & stay grounded so let's use a template. THE OFFICE/CLASSROOM. Support the show

Send us Fan Mail listening to voice memos > 1 minute Will build up to longer ones. Let's start here. Support the show

Send us Fan Mail If it says UNTITLED EPISODE, if I were to write something in there, there's no ability to play this file.  Crying every day after... Under duress & getting yelled at for crying daily?  This is getting super mental, so let's stop that behavior, since one day, you never know---the s/v might just start talking. After trauma, learned in advocacy (specific to being the go...

Send us Fan Mail To think, this was soooo private since related to "adoption stories," & people I've met along the way with food dynamics that I addressed with simply 3 rules of eating. a) eat when hungry b) stop when full c) change the palate to eat healthier since biological cravings to salt, sugar, fat make sense. After injury, I would crave these. Salt, sugar & fat becau...