SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast

Send us Fan Mail Finally, I can write this story. I will be reliving multiple conversations and as that bubble up, I'm going to write it verbatim & record what happens with the memory that I was a teacher. My identity because I want to move away from identifying ourselves in solely sexual or romantic ways. There's enough titilating & people trying to sexualize each other (at leas...

Send us Fan Mail Stopped at grief. This isn't hitting me anymore since death was all around me. Every day, I thought, I'm going to die (suicide) since I did report this to healthcare (NWMH & again with Advocate Aurora--and "advocate doctor" does not mean is an advocate by the way--whoops) and that everyone else would die, too. I see self as the rainbow or HOPE after the sto...

Send us Fan Mail Why we ask students to "use your own life experience/personal knowledge with evidence from the text," & this is a very hard skill. Why when you ask, "why do you think that way?" or state, "explain your thinking," some [neurologists] really get tripped up. Support the show

Send us Fan Mail WORLD ONE and predatory behavior I hadn't heard since middle school! Luckily, I could ask someone about it.  Support the show

Send us Fan Mail Give people new things to talk about, but also, realize, some people are just really sick. #anxiety #sobriety & this dynamic that I didn't get, but in this voice memo, it's clearly something that will never go away until I MAKE THE CONSCIOUS DECISION to "care more about myself than fear of what they're going to do" because it ends #suicides. When it hi...

Send us Fan Mail "Beets is a beat down."  This was a video, but I want to start connecting to that trust thing. Individuals who care for dogs, support shelters & assist in the adoption process (socializing & behavior modification) are TRUSTED. This puppy is not 100% housebroken, but after a short time started to indicate "potty" by sitting by the day 2/5x. She also goes...

Send us Fan Mail Dave/David M.'s eyes popping up & 2x from one person who used same excuse, just used it while I was in survival mode so I CAUGHT IT and within rapid succession (not sure if it was weeks, but these memories toggled off each other) with two different couples being unbelievable when it's kind of obvious. The audio being, "You had to keep talking?!" angrily and...

Send us Fan Mail True collaboration & comments that "ruin it." How noise helped and will explain how I transitioned between rooms in the house with a speaker (keep talking). I step on something & you can hear the slight distress in the voice and lastly, I said it again, "The Mystery of the Leopard Print Bag," and I think it's ready to write those scenes.  We'l...

Send us Fan Mail The goal was to listen to more than the day before & hold the day, take notes and indicate which ones to listen to since in the deSCRIPTion because I cannot determine "the worst," those having to go first to put way "first time" (that excuse for life until you say, 'no thanks') so I'll let the universe decide. Why these voice memos? I don&apo...

Send us Fan Mail This podcast is inspired by putting away ptsd created by monthly zoom meetings with BOD at HOA in Chicago, IL, USA. They blame the residents. They blame the homeless people (there's only one in the park). They used intel on me when I joined trying to start committees in a familiar place (where I live) since safety was my #1 thing and a board member took a giant intake of brea...

Send us Fan Mail The word was "rape-y" and I didn't say. It let me know this person was aware & now I understand, how it worked out so well for so long. It's unusual to be with someone whose mental health is an every day check in, but apparently that's women, according to "some" women and when I was told, "I was just trying to change him," I rejecte...

Send us Fan Mail PART I "Life Before Ivan [the terrible]" PART II "Life After Ivan" (I didn't hear "the terrible" so am ahead of audio triggers) HOMEWORK : look for number 17 & explain how this became a tt (trauma/trigger) and why doing this podcast became a way to dampen its origin. CLUE : BOD at HOA. Negative experiences with school & homeless advocacy...

Send us Fan Mail I've been charging all tech devices thoroughly including plugging in at night. It started ~10 days ago, and is nightly starting Monday June 16, 2025. Support the show

Send us Fan Mail Updates with Mr. Baker. Support the show

Send us Fan Mail The First Step is to (a) describe the triggers & (b) quantify them. We're not quite as Wisemind yet so while (a) is from NWMH, (b) originates from behavioralism & objective data collection to than create an individualized education plan (IEP). I want the duration:  from Awareness (this is familiar or I know this) to Awake (100% certain, this happened before & it&a...

Send us Fan Mail I have no idea who I'm speaking about, but the important part is the word "follow" or "following you," you will go back to that memory of being stalked.  Why I put birdseed on the balcony to watch the cats stalk the birds to help dampen the stress & trauma. Support the show

Send us Fan Mail KNOPE to get to NOPE (someone used to say this word a lot & was around one of my students with special needs...) Then ptsd & the "t" is "thanks" and then became "no, thanks." Support the show

Send us Fan Mail Recorded Jan 17, 2025 & it is did not "conclude TV," but today June 18, 2025, I did secure numbers. Last bit. I said it since I was asking Siri something different than "what's the weather today?" then "...tomorrow?" & "...Sunday?" and how tall & how heavy are animals. Usually just giraffes & pachyderms (elephants, hippo...

Send us Fan Mail this conversation about a photo did happen--couldn't find the digital copy (ok) & the answer to when you listened to the voice memo was not.  The only difference is ASKING THE QUESTION to understand tech better, but also providing the environment (like a classroom) to do ONE ACT THAT RESTORES RELIABILITY (formally, "one act of kindness" towards difference/disabi...

Send us Fan Mail Not what I expected, but I was just responding to "school choice" in the title. This was a decision to confront the principal, his name being on the announcement, to kind of say, "you don't scare me," & ask the question re: the parent room on the first floor that year when it wasn't covered to a classroom, but the year after I was assaulted again,...

Send us Fan Mail When in the moment, containing PTSD, I said just whatever. None of it matters & it's more a tool to understand the people around me since trusting the wrong person is the greatest fear since I know, I 'm super gullible, super trusting & I hold my tongue, until this experience with violence only because I learned survival for some is FREEZE, not fight, not flight,...

Send us Fan Mail The question was, "do you want to verbally explain since I had to share, emerging reader & I did not get your texts, to explain your thinking since I don't get it? Yes or no?" The best one can do & this is under ADA (American with Disability Act) which isn't a law, more like a guideline because you have to write a letter asking for a reasonable accommod...

Send us Fan Mail DESCRIPTION : stating the first voices to dampen audio ptsd created individually was to go back to familiar (Broadway) to be in an unfamiliar (TV) space. NOTES :  firsTime.  nEXtime. last time. tt = audio trigger for BT (what' the one time you had adversity?) & why tt (that sound created reverberations) & encompasses the words "trauma, trigger, triggered, traumat...

Send us Fan Mail the lower case one is who to 100% reject saying "doesn't represent me," & MM is who deserves to hear me without their ptsd before making final decision on how to tell this story. Support the show

Send us Fan Mail ...just heard that word* in what I was listening to (weird!) ---will share that in the only space that matters when it comes to that topic.  There's a bit about my eX in here, but hey, I've had several & I will never say who or when or where, just remind people that trauma isn't easy to get through & that without Neptune who taught me more about ptsd than th...