Rye Off The Bat

"If Only".  A phase of convenience, of excuse, of hoping to shape the world where everything goes our way. It is also this sad phase that made us unwilling to work for things. This hope of a silver lining gives us a reason to wait out for things that might even happen, or even the absurdity of all criteria to align like stars that are never meant to cross. In this episode, I'd like to talk ab...

Recently I'd been up to alot of work; drowning in them infact. I have lost so much time for myself, from gaming or leisure time, I find myself stepping into the life of a workaholic. It makes it worse when my work can get very result base when it comes to sales. However, all is not lost as I find myself embracing more responsibilities, from paying more and helping out my family, to using the capit...

It’s an interesting day today as I dive through a realm of emotions. From putting myself back out there to work, finding motivation amongst my depression and having courage to confront things that’s been holding me back. This episode of podcast is about facing what we eventually have to face; stuff that we can never run away from.

We have weird ways to find and define happiness. From distractions to projecting our emotions and attention, we sometimes never ever look inwards. Do we hate what we find inside? Or we simply think that happiness is from the outside but not in?

We wont know when it hits us. We puts off things, we wait for the stars align and that eclipse that might never come. We are left with regrets bitter after thoughts and what if’s. Sometimes we just have to take a step back and set a structure to just keep going.

I'm so grateful that our book club has finally taken flight and we are now on our first ever read together session! Finished this book and decided to try doing a one-take review and afterthought on this piece of work. A work of thriller that kept me on the edge, I'm glad to have tried out this book that gave me more takeaway than the stories and narratives itself as I embark on a journey of self-d...

Little did I know that my eyes would lit up that brightly from a call with my boss, decided to record this episode right after the phone call and I feel so excited to have find that we have the same pages for some of our dreams and goals. If you'd have to know Eugene is also a fellow wanderlust, backpacker and traveler which made me jump on board in the first place, and I'm glad that his little si...

Sharing my experience of taking medication for my mental health issue. I’d taken several mood boosters but this time I’m taking Setraline; an SSRI

Sharing my experience when I revisit a psychiatrist again and decided to seek help for my depression, anxiety and PTSD. I hope by sharing I could inspire more people to start more conversation about mental health.

Digging deeper on how I should sometimes think more inward and individualistic instead of more collective. It is hard to always hold up or wait for others or things to happen. Sometimes we have to fight for things ourselves.

A thought journey about how our choices ultimately affects and bring us to places, no matter how minimal they might seem, it all eventually adds up

Asking myself what I want, things I would love to work for and putting in some thoughts to come out with ideas to work towards it.

Digging alittle deeper into Giddens Ko (九把刀)‘s Yue Lao (月老) movie, and how some characters are so perfectly flawed get flawly perfect.

A rye off the bat poetry performance where I recite whispers from my heart literally right off in one take, as I dig deep and asked myself what is love. Hope you enjoy this work.

Digging deeper into my twitch journey, aside from the superficial race to rip our numbers but it is the people behind the numbers that counts, and they are something that numbers could never buy.

A very different angle, but sometimes we do have to know that we are not enough, and not just us, perhaps they are also not enough. The world is just so huge, our dreams even bigger and what’s out there is so much more than just another person, another soul or another whisper.

This episode talks about my tendency to expect people to like me when I share my deepest darkest secret, the things that broke me, my insides, me being real. I'd thought if someone make it that far with me, that person probably "like" me more than the average person. But sometimes I was wrong; and most of the time it happens when I put them on the pedestal, making it easy for me to tell them thing...

I’ll like to take this episode to talk about how I view the concept of creators and consumers; about how each cannot exist without the other. There are so much to discuss, from how we can consume and get inspired to create and create to inspired people to create more. The possibility of the world is endless, if we are looking at the right place. There are also some less obvious creations, from cre...

An episode that came out in the midst of my doing housework, about how we tend to focus on what “good life” people have, about the “hardships” they don’t have to endure that we have to. We like to focus on other people, but we should actually focus on what we have to do. It felt like we are running on race tracks but our eyes are not looking out for us; but at someone else.

An audio letter to my future self from the past; we are at the last lap of the year now, with December coming up next, there’s only one more month left to make the best out of 2021. A little motivational speech that comes with a touch of vulnerability to make myself a better person.

In this episode I’ll explore my concept of “filler episodes” in which represents activities or days that are just simply as literal as it is; without anything that would push me as a character forward. The tendency to procrastinate, to seek distraction and to stay in our comfort zone would always be there. And we have to make conscious effort to bring ourselves out of them.

Exploring the feeling of my tendency to rely or even over dependent on another person. This episode explores yet another part of my vulnerability; and how I grew up not feeling that I belong, constantly telling myself people would eventually leave.

I’ll like to take this episode to talk about several issues that I identify that may be problematic with me for holding out for the wrong person. From thinking that she would change to fitting her in my narrative, I have the tendency to be selfish yet selfless in an emotionally unhealthy way that is bad for my mental health. This is yet another triggering episode as I dig deeper inward my heart.

This is a short episode to tell myself because I was having an anxiety attack for talking about too much about my personal stuff. It’s suffocating to have people listening live, voices of them judging you and seeing some commentary that can be very opinionated. I took a step back and decided to ground myself with this one.

Similar to not holding onto your friends, some times we shouldn’t hold onto things too tight; or get too attach to people. Sometimes the wrong person won’t stay too long in your life and the right person won’t leave. The Universe would have their strange ways of guiding you, showing you the way of being a better person… for yourself.