Proper Madness

In this episode discuss the difference between being seen and being perceived, and why I've spent most of my life quietly making myself invisible even when I desperately wanted to take up space. I talk about growing up with body insecurities, learning disabilities, social anxiety, and neurodivergence - and how all of that stacked up into a subconscious decision I made about myself before I ev...

In this episode, I sit down in person with Kelly, founder of Luna Love in Whittier, California, a spiritual shop specializing in candles, oils, ritual tools, crystals, and classes — for one of the most grounded and honest conversations I've had about quantum leaping and timeline jumping. Because we're not here to sell you the idea that manifesting your next level is all flow and ease. It...

I'm back. New space, new walls, and honestly a lot to yap about. In this solo episode I'm having the conversation I've been sitting with for a while. I moved, I turned another year older, I became a published photographer, and somewhere in the middle of all of that expansion - my creativity went completely quiet. And I had to figure out why. This episode is about what happens to you...

What does it mean to live as an infinite being inside a finite human experience — and how do you stop fighting that paradox? This week on Proper Madness, I'm joined by Nino Palacio: behavioral coach, breathwork guide, mystic, poet, and retreat facilitator. Nino's work lives at the intersection of psychology, philosophy, and spiritual practice, and this conversation goes places I didn&apo...

In this episode, Sabi sits down with Ranela- marriage and family therapist, life coach, actress, and host of The Life Edit podcast - for a deeply honest conversation about what it actually takes to rebuild yourself from the ground up. Ranela shares her journey from a life heavily rooted in religion to a full identity deconstruction at 27. They go deep on codependency, attachment patterns, what it...

In this episode, I sit down with psychic, spiritual content creator, and all-around iconic human Kayleigh Alexa for an unfiltered conversation about what it actually means to be a spiritual woman navigating dating, self-trust, and showing up online without losing your soul in the process. We chat about the the spiritual closet, what it means to hide your gifts because you're afraid of rejecti...

In a world obsessed with trends, algorithms, and constant output, what happens when we slow down instead? In this episode of Proper Madness , I sit down with wildlife photographer and conservationist David to explore the deeper relationship between presence, creativity, and authenticity  both online and in life. Through stories from wildlife photography, travel, and personal evolution, this conver...

In this episode, I sit down with Sean Kennedy, musician, creator, and one of those people who can say the quiet thing out loud. We talk about what happens when life forces an identity shift… and how creativity can become the thing that brings you back. We go into curiosity as the root of real creativity, why so many people are trapped in performance (online and in life), and the difference between...

In this episode, I sit down with Ruby for a deep, honest conversation about intuition - not as something mystical or abstract, but as something deeply embodied. We talk about what intuition actually feels like in the body, why so many of us were taught to numb it, and how learning to feel again can change everything. From Akashic Records and breathwork to lineage wounds, sensuality, shame, and sur...

In Episode 100 of Proper Madness , we explore radical honesty, identity work, ego, intuition, and why performing online (and in life) disconnects you from your truth. This episode is a grounded, vulnerable reflection on self-abandonment, creative integrity, and how your life becomes lighter when you stop pretending. Your life is your art. Your truth is your medium. 1:1 Mentorships https://calendly...

I’ve never really sat down and told my story timeline until now. This is a condensed version, but our path to success is never linear. In this episode, I share my journey from childhood to adulthood, and how storytelling became the thing that saved me, shaped me, and eventually led me into creative direction. I talk about growing up deeply sensitive, living learning disabilities, feeling misunders...

Sometimes growth feels beautiful… and sometimes it feels like your shadow self is trying to hijack the wheel. This week, I got humbled.. deeply ... and I bring you into the actual behind-the-scenes of what healing looks like when old wounds resurface out of nowhere. In this episode, I shares: How Mercury retrograde unearthed wounds she thought were long gone The real reason ego flare-ups happen wh...

If you’ve been telling yourself you have “imposter syndrome,” this episode is going to rewire that narrative completely.  Because what you’re feeling isn’t a diagnosis  it’s a self-belief wound you inherited from childhood, trauma, or years of internalizing other people’s projections. In today’s Proper Madness episode, Sabi breaks down why so many of us cling to the label imposter syndrome when th...

If you’re someone who holds a lot of light- someone who’s magnetic, intuitive, and deeply felt... this episode is for you. Today on Proper Madness , I talk about what it means to be radiant in a world that tries to siphon your energy if you’re not careful. We get into discernment: how to recognize people who are drawn to you for the wrong reasons, how to trust your intuition, and how to stop aband...

Everyone’s talking about that Vogue article asking if having a boyfriend is embarrassing ...so let’s talk about it. In this week’s Proper Madness Episode, I share why I both agree and disagree with the article ...and how it ties into the burnout, emotional armor, and performative independence so many of us are stuck in. This episode is about why hyper-independence isn’t hot anymore, why we’ve glam...

What if your confidence isn’t about becoming someone new — but remembering the parts of you you’ve been hiding? In this episode of Proper Madness , I open up about how real self-confidence comes from making peace with your shadow — the parts of yourself you’ve been ashamed of, avoided, or labeled as “too much” or “not enough.” I talk about my own journey of facing my shadow — from being too nice,...

Sometimes life just feels like chaos... like you’re in this weird in-between space where nothing makes sense, and you’re trying not to lose your mind. In this episode I discuss learning how to chill inside the chaos - how to stop trying to control everything, and instead, find a strange kind of peace inside the unknown. If you’ve been overthinking, forcing, or trying too hard to “figure it all out...

What if creativity isn’t about doing more, but about being more? In this episode of Proper Madness , we dive into creativity as a language — one that connects, inspires, and heals. We explore the balance between feminine flow and masculine structure, how sensuality fuels creative power, and why true art isn’t about copying trends but speaking in your own voice. I share why creating from a full cup...

What happens when your sense of self depends on likes, followers, or other people’s approval? In this episode we explore why outside validation will never be enough and how to anchor yourself in self-devotion instead. I share how chasing perfection, performing for approval, and living in comparison actually pull us further from our truth. And I reframe what it means to invest in yourself, not to p...

In this soul-baring episode, I talk about what it actually means to be seen, not the curated, half-version of you, but the full, fiery, intuitive, silly, sensual, sensitive you. From thirst traps and shifting identities to friendship fights, romantic misfires, and spiritual downloads on vacation… this is a story of coming home to yourself. I explore how being around the right people makes us feel...

How many times have we thought that we could do everything alone? The success, the healing, everything... because some how we think it will make us more worthy or impressive if we do... but that is not the case. In this episode I literally sit down and talk about what has been on my mind and heart with no real reason or theme except for opening my heart back up instead of being a hermit.  

In this episode of Proper Madness , we’re unpacking what it really means to embody your worth . Are you a 10 that's acting like a 2? You might be chasing validation, hiding behind aesthetics, or letting external noise define your self-worth. I dive into the power of energetic confidence, body language, nervous system regulation, and how to stop sabotaging your magnetism . This one’s for the h...

What if the clarity you’re seeking isn’t in doing more… but in sitting still with what’s already here? This episode is about what happens when we stop outsourcing our worth and start listening to our bodies. I talk about nervous system healing, embodiment, intuitive clarity, and how our most meaningful creations come when we soften into discomfort, rather than escape it. Through personal stories,...

What if your emotions weren’t a block—but your creative fuel? In this episode, I talk about how we can take whatever energy we're in—grief, joy, confusion, rage, even numbness—and use it to create something honest. You don’t have to wait to feel inspired or "healed" to start making. This is your invitation to transmute what’s real and messy into something meaningful. We’ll explore w...

We spend so much of our lives trying to "find ourselves" or chasing clarity like it lives somewhere outside of us.  But the truth is… it doesn’t.  You don’t need a perfect plan, a cosmic sign, or a brand-new version of you. You just need to show up . In this episode of Proper Madness , we explore why clarity is a byproduct of presence—not performance. We talk about the pressure to consta...