Numbers Podcast

What happens when the thing standing in your way isn't darkness—but a light you're not ready to look at? Not because it's evil. Not because it's dangerous. But because once you see it, you can't go back to who you were before. Sometimes the hardest truths don't hide in the shadows. They stand directly in front of us, waiting for us to open our eyes.

Some people arrive like storms. Others arrive so quietly that you don't notice the space they've carved out in your life until you're exhausted, vulnerable, and reaching for comfort without thinking. He thought safety came from isolation. He thought the walls he'd built would keep everyone out. What he never realized was that someone had already found a way into the spaces he kept hidden from ever...

A poem about almost-living, almost-leaving, and the quiet collapse between hope and hesitation. We break down the voice inside “never mind…” and what it means when a life stalls mid-sentence. Ghosts, cracks, false starts—everything that never fully becomes, but still leaves a mark.

The rain came first. Then the future. Then the fear of what happens when someone holds your heart gently instead of breaking it. In this episode, we drift through imagined love, emotional weather patterns, and the terrifying realization that vulnerability might be real this time. Some storms destroy you. Some teach you where to begin.

What happens when someone loves you before you know how to love yourself? What if being truly seen feels less like salvation… and more like exposure? In this episode, I break down the writing process behind one of the most emotionally raw poems I’ve written — a piece about self-hatred, intimacy, vulnerability, and the terrifying realization that someone might actually care about you. We talk about...

In this episode, I try writing a love poem live without sanding down the awkwardness, spirals, or emotional mess that makes it feel human. We talk about yearning, weird details, hidden inner selves, why sincerity is so hard to write without sounding fake, and how sometimes the smallest lines carry the most weight. Somewhere between dragons, gas prices, and snort laughs, the poem slowly becomes les...

Some people flirt. Some people accidentally peel back each other’s emotional armor within thirty seconds and enter a life-altering psychic event. This episode explores the writing process behind a poem about anxiety, masks, mirrors, longing, dissociation, and the unbearable vulnerability of being truly seen. Which is beautiful.

This piece explores the moment between dissolution and rebirth, where the speaker drifts through a dreamlike space of reflection, memory, and light. Through imagery of breath, water, stars, and mirrors, the poem traces a gradual return to selfhood, culminating in the quiet but powerful act of taking a first step forward. Themes of healing, identity, and emotional awakening move beneath the surface...

three poems were written in this episode. the first two died on impact. the third one stared back at me from the ceiling.

This episode dives into a fragmented, emotionally intense style of poetry where identity blurs, repetition mimics spiraling thoughts, and imagery—mirrors, flickering screens, cracking porcelain—carries the weight instead of any clear storyline, pulling listeners into a headspace that feels obsessive, glitchy, and a little haunted; but just as it starts getting too heavy, it swerves into humor, und...