Matthew Handy

My Last Relapse: Addiction Recovery & Sobriety Stories

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My Last Relapse is the addiction recovery podcast that says out loud what you’ve been secretly thinking about addiction, relapse, and recovery. Matt Handy-—who lived through two decades of heroin addiction, homelessness, and prison—cuts through the lies and fear-mongering that dominate traditional recovery programs.  This isn’t about war stories or your worst relapse moments. It’s about the future—your future—without rigid rules, unrealistic expectations, or being told you don’t belong. This is real conversations about relapse, addiction, treatment, rehab, recovery programs, meetings, self-hel...

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Matthew Handy

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Health

Podcast website

www.spreaker.com

Latest episode

Jun 20, 2026

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Episodes

Life After Getting Cut Off by My Parents, Building a Pharmacy Empire & Battling the PBMs 20.06.2026

Raised in a traditional Sri Lankan household, Tania’s education and achievement were everything.  Originally on track for a career in medicine, Tania studied microbiology and completed hospital internships in Houston. But mentors encouraged her to explore sales and marketing, recognizing her strong people skills. Choosing to pivot away from medicine caused major conflict at home, and her family wi...

Life After Graduating High School at 16, Selling Coke in Strip Clubs, and 2 Dead Boyfriends 13.06.2026

Apurva L. Vanguri-Weeks was the first American-born child in her family — raised by South Indian immigrant parents who didn't let her wear jeans, didn't let her date, and didn't let her cut her hair until senior year of high school. She was supposed to be a doctor. While at William & Mary on scholarship, she started drinking. The night she got drunk for real at a frat party, she came to with a...

Life After Abu Ghraib, an HPD Officer's Knee on My Neck and Losing My Sheriff's Badge 06.06.2026

Edwin Henderson is 45, an Army veteran with one Iraq deployment, and a former Harris County deputy who watched his law-enforcement career end on the ground outside a Houston club. He now works in business development at West Oaks Hospital's Patriot Support Program for veterans and runs Chefs in the City as an executive chef on the side. He grew up the latchkey son of a single mother in north Houst...

Life After Marrying for Bricks of Cocaine, Smoking Meth On My Way to a C-Section & Being Homeless With 2 Toddlers 30.05.2026

Kimberley Brooke is 19 years clean from methamphetamine and has spent the last twelve of those years sitting across from people on the worst day of their lives. She got there the long way. Raised in Amarillo by parents she calls “hippies practicing free love,” Kimberley was molested by an uncle starting at age five and grew up inside what she calls "the land of the great pretenders" — picket fence...

Judge Juli Mathew: How the Juvenile Mental Health Court She Built Hit an 85% Success Rate 23.05.2026

When Judge Juli Mathew took the bench at Fort Bend County Court at Law No. 3 in 2018, she made history twice over — first Indian American woman elected to a bench in the United States, and first Asian American judge in one of the most diverse counties in Texas. Three years later she built something that didn't exist in the state yet: a juvenile court designed around mental health. Born in Kerala,...

Life After Dying 4x, Getting Fired While on a Ventilator, & Still Being Suicidal at 18 Yrs Sober 16.05.2026

Frank Parisi flatlined during heart surgery on May 8, 2023. He came back. Twenty-six days later he received the transplant that gave him a second chance — a heart from a nineteen-year-old donor. He'd grown up in Little Italy, the son of a father tied to organized crime, and spent a decade hooked on opiates before getting sober in 2011. By 2023 he was thirteen years clean, in the gym every day, and...

Life After Dating Alley Cats, Marrying & Divorcing a Cheater, and 14 Years Married to an Autistic Cop 09.05.2026

Lori Bell was conceived when her father got drunk at a traveling circus, wrestled an anteater, got fired, and was dropped off in the next city — Kansas City, where he wandered into the unemployment office where her mother worked.   Her dad was a third-generation Italian Vietnam veteran with PTSD and an eighth-grade education, and her mother was a Midwest farm girl with abandonment issues. Lori gre...

Life After Getting Caught With 5 Kilos of cocaine & 6 Felony Arrests in 2 Years 02.05.2026

David’s trouble started when the DEA caught him with five kilos of cocaine at the age of 20. On probation, he moved to St. Louis with court approval, finished college in three years, and was released early from probation. He built a subprime real estate business, but crooked deals and market shifts caused it to collapse. Back in Houston, he returned to high-end real estate and relapsed into heavy...

Life After Getting Shot, Stabbed, Detoxing Off K2 & The Choice I Made To Avoid 99 Yrs in Prison 25.04.2026

Born in Kansas to Mexican parents, Omar was sent as a baby to live with his grandparents in Mexico. He returned to Kansas around age five where he learned English, was bullied and sexually abused, then drifted into gangs and substance use in his early teens.  He became homeless but still finished high school, briefly attended college, and then dropped out as his addiction to pills, K2, cocaine, an...

Life After Getting Kicked Out of the SEALs, OD'ing on Fentanyl & Trying to Commit Suicide by Volcano 18.04.2026

Taylor Cavanaugh grew up in San Diego with drugs and alcohol in the house from early on. His father had substance problems and financial instability, and Taylor was eventually kicked out of high school for dealing ecstasy and somas.  At 18, after getting mixed up in a stolen property situation, he checked into what turned out to be a lockdown psych ward in El Cajon — sharing a floor with old women...

Life After Sending My 12-Year-Old Son Away To Save His Life From Tech Addiction 11.04.2026

Andi gave her son his first iPhone at age 7, a gift that seemed harmless until it slowly devolved into gaming marathons, failing grades, and a complete erosion of his sense of right and wrong. After trying parental controls, the Adlerian free-will approach, and prolonged battles with his school over Chromebook use, Andi reached a breaking point that forced her to shift from rule-setting to values-...

Judge Wayne Mallia: How Criminal Court Considers Mental Health 04.04.2026

Judge Wayne Mallia went straight from law school into the Galveston County District Attorney’s Office, working there for 13 years and spending nine as First Assistant DA. He was later elected as a district court judge in Galveston County, where he presided over criminal cases, created the county’s first specialty court, STEP, and helped start a drug court. After leaving the regular bench, he becam...

Life After Drinking Myself Into Kidney Failure and the Murder-for-Hire Scheme That Landed Me in Federal Prison 28.03.2026

David became a father at 18, finished college while working full-time, entered Nissan's executive training program, and then built a successful marketing agency serving plastic surgeons. As his success grew, so did a hard-partying lifestyle driven by cocaine and alcohol addiction, and he drifted from his faith. After suffering a severe stroke and grand mal seizure in 2015, he was put in a medicall...

Telling Your Story Could Save Your Life with Aaron Donaghy, Story of Self 21.03.2026

Frustrated by an education system Aaron viewed as compliance-driven and devoid of meaningful agency, he left teaching to work in trauma and addiction recovery. Over 20 years teaching high school, Aaron observed that his students' lives and trajectories were effectively set by the time they graduated. He began noticing recurring patterns: victim thinking, codependency, and a clinical culture that p...

Life After 5 DWIs, 35 Convictions, Getting Arrested in Walmart With a Louis Vuitton Bag Full of Dope 14.03.2026

Although Curtiss was sexually abused as a child, he did well in school and football until a humiliating pep‑rally incident in seventh grade led him to quit sports and start smoking marijuana. Drifting into fights, he landed in alternative schools and eventually dropped out.  While his mother used crack and his father cooked meth for the Bandidos, he lived mostly with his grandparents while stackin...

Life After Getting Hooked on Pills at 13, OD’ing on Tylenol, & Conceiving My Son on LSD at Ren Fest 07.03.2026

Jessica's childhood fractured early. Her alcoholic father went to prison for a DWI, and by the time she was six, her parents had divorced. Her mother remarried, folding the family into a blended household with an adopted stepsister who had split personality disorder.  That stepsister would go on to accuse both her own father and Jessica's stepfather of molestation, and eventually began self-harmin...

Life After Losing My Kids Twice, Selling Drugs on Reddit, & Living in a Trash Shelter 28.02.2026

Rachel’s parents divorced when she was just a baby, and she lived with her mom, who struggled with alcoholism and mental health issues, while her older sister went to live with their dad. By ninth grade, she was rarely at school, drinking heavily, and immersed in the punk scene.  She blacked out a house party and assaulted her cousin who called the police, leading her to hide out in a friend's bas...

Life After Putting a Pistol To My Head 3 Times & Being a Recovery Speaker While Quietly Addicted to Opioids 21.02.2026

Craig “Bubba” Norton was first exposed to addiction when his mother died from alcoholism in 1982. His father later entered treatment, and during a family program Craig realized at age 20 that he was also an alcoholic. After moving from North Carolina to Texas, his drinking escalated, leading to three DWIs and jail in 1987, where he decided to seek help. He found early stability through work and AA...

Life After Relapsing To Celebrate My One-Year Chip and Again With an 8-Month Old Baby 14.02.2026

Nikki grew up in a small town with a mother who struggled with alcoholism and periods of abuse but was also loving and devoted. As a teen, she began using substances like weed, pills, and whippets. At 19, she sought help from a doctor but felt dismissed, and at 21, she entered her first treatment program. Three months later, she met Curtis at an AA/NA club. Both had histories of alcohol addiction...

Life After 5 Years on Skid Row, Owning a Treatment Center & Realizing the Industry is Built on Lies 07.02.2026

Richard Galvan began stealing, getting arrested and drinking vodka alone in sixth grade. He snorted and sold his Ritalin, stole his mother’s pills and drank cough syrup. By his early teens, he was selling pills, using meth, and became well known to the police. Born in 1982 in the San Fernando Valley, by 10th grade, he started using heroin and spending time downtown near Skid Row. He was kicked out...

Judge Katrina Griffith, Harris County CPS Court: Who Gets Their Kids Back? 31.01.2026

Judge Katrina Griffith grew up wanting to be a lawyer, encouraged by her mother during arguments with her older brother in "mom's court." As a teenager, she saw the juvenile system affect family members. After college, she entered the University of Houston Law School focusing on juvenile criminal defense. In her 2L year, she joined the juvenile defense clinic. In her final semester, she took Profe...

Life After The Drug Blackout That Ended My NFL Career with Randy Grimes 24.01.2026

Born and raised in East Texas, Randy Grimes grew up in church with an older brother and sister and played football and baseball. He attended Baylor University, where he had a strong football career and met his future wife on his first day. They married after his junior year. In 1983, he was drafted in the second round by the Tampa Bay Buccaneers and moved to Tampa with his wife in a U-Haul. He soo...

Life After Seriously Injuring Another Woman While Driving Drunk, Getting a Felony DUI, and Attempting Suicide 17.01.2026

Jenifer grew up in a home marked by physical and verbal abuse, which shaped how she viewed trust and relationships. She got pregnant at 18 and had her son, Hunter, at 19, raising him mostly on her own.  At 28, she married, but the relationship was unstable and ended in divorce due to her husband’s alcoholism. Jenifer built a 20-year career as a dialysis nurse but battled major depressive disorder....

Life After Bipolar & Depression, Getting Locked in a Rubber Room, Quitting Alcohol and Picking Up Crack 07.01.2026

Doug experienced abuse in early childhood, and at age 12 when his father left, he spiraled into severe depression, suicidality, and repeated psychiatric hospitalizations.  As a teenager, he discovered alcohol and used it to manage his symptoms while earning a master’s degree in social work and working at a suicide hotline, even as hospitalizations and heavy drinking continued. In his mid-30s, afte...

Life After Being an Ecstasy “Connoisseur” & MDMA-Fueled Raver, and the K-Hole That Scared Me Straight 30.12.2025

Born in Italy to Russian parents, Dan came to the U.S. as a baby and grew up in a highly driven immigrant community near Princeton, New Jersey.  An only child, he was pushed hard to be successful in academics and athletics, with video games becoming an early escape. As a teenager, he turned to marijuana and alcohol, escalating after his mother passed away during his senior year.  He headed to coll...

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