MY BLUEPRINT: Struggle Towards Emotional Sobriety

Is it a beautiful day in your neighborhood?

You might be thinking, why does this guy think this episode will go viral?  I am not 100% sure, but what gives me faith is that this episode is about being of service and making a difference for others and that gives it a chance.

Emotional Sobriety is what this entire podcast is about.  Listen in as I share a recent incident in my life that helped me see how emotional sober I really am.

If you were to ask me when I started this podcast if I would ever sing on an episode, I would think you were crazy and it would never happen.  But, I have learned to never say never.

This is an episode that I did not want to publish-but I did.  I share my experience of what it feels like to have a manic episode.

Episode #32 Picking Weeds is one of my favorite episode I posted.  But, I realized I left out some key points.

This is a short episode with a powerful message.

One November 9, 2019 Ella Hannah Stoller will be called to the Torah.

Wounds hurt and leave a mark.  However, the wounds I have experienced in my life have taught me many invaluable lessons.

Fifteen years ago today I got married.  It was, and still is, one of the happiest days of my life.  

Have you ever asked another man out for coffee?  If not, try it. It is one of my favorite things to do!

I think their is a fine line between helping someone and crippling them.  I for sure have been guilty of enabling someone when I thought I was actually helping them.

I have heard this term "Hold The Space" many times but was never really sure what people were talking about.  In this episode, I try to make some sense of the phrase.

Not much to say about this episode, just listen.

A few days ago I woke up with a back pain that I have only felt two other times in my life.  For decades I have wondered what this back pain represents.  It first showed up when I was 16 years old, again at 40 years old, and know at 45 years old (I will be 46 in January). 

My guess is you have never heard of Dave Ellis or Falling Awake.  Well, either did I until I read the book Falling Awake 17 years ago.  Dave Ellis has been a role model for me and has inspired me more than any man I have even met.  For more information about Falling Awake click on this link: FallingAwake.com          

I do not know about you, but it is much easier for me to give than to receive.  Listen in and hear about the services of receiving.

Do you live more in fear than in faith?

This is a poem I recently heard about the disease of alcoholism.  I re-worked this poem to talk about my Depression and Bi-Polar.

We all have our vices we use to escape the feelings of anger, sadness, fear, guilt, and shame.  Listen in and see if you can identify yours.

Recently, I sat down and started to compile a list of how many people I know.  When I started to look at the variety of groups, organizations, jobs, and communities I have been apart of over the years, I was suprised by how many people showed up on my list.

I recently heard this definition of Shame   S hould  H ave  A lready  M astered  E verything

My guess is that you might be unfamiliar with the MBD Virus.  It has been around for many decades and I think if it continues to go untreated, it is deadly.

I recently came across a book by Loire Gottlieb called  Maybe You Should Talk To Someone: A Therapist, HER Therapist, and Our Lives Revealed. I share many of her beliefs about what makes a great therapist in today's day and age.    

Listen in and find out what Step 8 is all about.