Midnight Wisdom

Just realised citizen has the word zen in it but cities have no zen!!! Hahahahhaha 23:30 05.06

11:35 pm 03.06 8% moon

11:39 PM 02.06.2024 enjoying Mandela's autobiography. Focusing a lot on different projects. Enjoying massively how I've been thinking and approaching issues and emotions. I am doing well. Even when things don't go perfectly. Slept on two yoga matts the last week besides last night and it felt amazing. Love you Kinans.

I got to experience Kali. Should be experiencing her all the time. My feet were touched. And I cried.

23:03 19.05.2024 about to sleep! Goodnight. Looking forward to tomorrow and the rest of the week.

Recorded Monday 13.05.2024 in Cagliari in the apartment. I sent Ashraf a long voicenote telling him how I was suffering girl wise in Italy. We got on a phonecall the day after and talked a lot. He was telling me not to keep moving when I went on a walk. He was eating a beautiful dish.

23:19 12.05.2024 I’m sitting in a yellow chair in Cagliari reading Nelson Mandela’s autobiography. Sat with Philipp for a long time drinking Matte and discussing P and I and matters of life and death. Was a good trip and I’m glad to be back. My mind went through many moments throughout and it concluded at finding peace in the heart of kindness in myself. Was a beautiful moment. No crazy romances....

23:06 05.05.2024 In Cagliari. Will send mom a voicenote telling her how I am. About to sleep. Work tomrrow from here. Want to work on Sex, Porn and Love addiction book tomorrow. Focus on writing and then merge that into editing. Do your pushups with Stefan and Philipp. Have a late lunch even if it’s difficult. Keep it to salt with water. If you’re not writing, try to be learning or organising. Lov...

2024.04.24 09.25 It was a full moon last night and I decided to record right after finishing Dexter: New Blood. Recorded around 11:20 pm 23.04.2024

The Sage's Card. The Instrument of Power. The Seeds of Color. Planted.

21.04.2024 23:00 Sunday. Feeling raw and available. What a wonderful experience. Coming from my heart a lot more. Afraid of not being in connection. Afraid of going back to old patterns. Afraid of losing access to the open doors of a golden place in my heart. And life continues. And that is why many of its moments can be beautiful to begin with.

09:29 13.04.2024 Sunday. Took a break from packing my bags to record this. Went to Mahadeens to talk music the other night. Allahu Akbar. Work work work (wc3 peasant sound). New housemates, Chiara leaving. Yo. Bald now.

15:29 Sunday 07.04.2024 omw to Berghein walking there and going to be there in a few minutes. Sunny lovely weather. New Moon tomorrow.

23:39 2024.03.31 ich sitze neben Momo in Iserlohn. Er spielt ShadowFight 2 und die Familie sitzt mit Freunden. Wir hatten vor kurzem unten unter rucken trainiert und Horse-stance für 2 Minuten gemacht. In diesem Folge habe ich drei Voicenotes. Eins an Johannes, eins an Papa und eins an Mousa. Papa war erst, dann direkt Mousa, und Johannes war vor 40 Minuten.

23:46 24.03.2024 got a new couch. Overheard some guy talking about content marketing. Dads health is bad again. Finished reading: Green Mile. Write Useful Books. Reading Solo Leveling. Doing 3x duolingo classes a day in Japanese. Figured out my camera settings. My microphone settings. Set my basis in a lot of things. Did I say I got a new couch?

23:29 17.03.2024 Watched The Bear season 1 and 2 this week. Last pages of The Green Mile. Finished writing ‘Escape’. Proofed first seven chapters of “The Cure”. Wrote more in other directions. Courses im taking: intro to architecture, intro to political science, ninja writing. Planned different courses, marketing opportunities. Sent an email to Karim with a task for him to do. Trips to: Hero Journ...

23:51 10.03.2024 raised 350 for Gaza and Zaks family.

Recorded Friday 8-9 pm. I talk about the new shoes I got and how amazing of an experience it is. Also about how things got together for me to run into a lot of people I touched base with in Berlin. The one I didnt mention was Marlena or something like that. Also saw her, she didnt see me in the train. i smiled and continued towards neukölln on Thursday. I don’t chase distance.

Recorded Monday 4th of March 2024. After yoga class. Remembered Tami and Mousa and how I always chase distance. I don’t want to chase distance.

23:02 03.03.2024 Changed my mind about work again. Looking forward to the structure and knowing im doing something that directly pays me. Ill have to see how I manage my energy. Did a breathwork class last evening and the facilitator was in front of me breathing and I couldnt breathe because his breath stank.

25.02.2024 09:58 week 280 of doing this feels like there’s something to celebrate about that. Shared generally how my diet and lifestyle are.

24.02.2024 00:04 ashraf and I had a long conversation. Valentines day tantra event. Riccy and I breaking up. Party coming up in two weeks

What do you do when you have no energy to upload an episode but promise yourself to?

10.02.2024 11:30 am Saturday. Got the chance to talk and catch up with my first friend Ramez Azizi. We touched all topics good male friends touch: Career, politics, army, and life goals. And most importantly, waste management in large cities. A little bit of Arabic and English together. Youtube link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MwdVC9wZIOY&t=2s

Filmed for the first time. Youtube Link: Sunday 04.02.2024 1:39 pm. I have a new haircut. Vegan atm. Much more balanced. New room setup. Mic and camera setup. Realised I need to grow on youtube more slowly than go as fast as I keep telling myself. Slow and steady wins the race. I talk about a challenge of beginning meditation. The idea of beauty. Growth. And reflect on a few things that happened t...