Midnight Wisdom

28th of March 2021 I let go of some things (chicken tit rainbow painting).. I tested another thing (online coupon of my course and 200 people registered overnight) and I’m going to sleep now. Take care all.

I spent the night of the 25th reading Morningstar, a fantasy novel by David Gemmel about an unexpected hero whose legend grows completely outside if his control. A thief and a mavrick, and an unexpected friendship with a bard.

21st of March 2021, 9:35 pm. We are what we are. What's good for us is what's good for us. We forget, so we can remember more. I feel like I remember more. I feel like I've grown. I respect it, and I respect it again. This one is for Qais. I love you.  This one is also for my dad. I love you too.  Take care all.

Recorded on the 8th of March 2021. A Monday. I talk about my process of writing again, and what I'm going through. I think it's an interesting one. Best, Khalid

4th March, Thursday, 2021. Hay fever is fu***** killing me. But I'm alive and I'm living. One thing leads to another, and another leads to that, and in that the space that we are is the space that we'll always be. Let's try to make that one of peace that doesn't need anything. You move until the pieces align, you adjust, you interact until you find the person who readily accepts your actions. Skat...

Expression is in all. And it's beautiful. The directions it can take, the regret behind it, the love, and all the emotions in between.  It's in everything, in all. And how sensitive can we be to it? And which direction can we take it. As we still balance the rest of our lives, our jobs and work and responsibilities, with the real that we know we need to express. Because expressing the truth i...

I was really okay with letting all go. But I won't, and I'm not going to. Not now. Recorded Tuesday night, the 23rd of February 2021. I had felt like I lost my job the night beforehand, and slept in kind. Thinking of the path I'd take if otherwise. Going to Jordan, where I'd lock myself in a room in a rented house with no internet for 3 months, and write, day and night. Exist only for my writing....

The beautiful day of the 21st of February 2021.  I bought Settlers of Catan and Risk today ;) and I'm happy about that. I trained with Klaus for an hour and half, and I played Assassins Creed Origins for 2.  I talk about food in this one, and exercise. How I've been eating recently and the type of mentality I take when it comes to what enters me and how I use what enters me in what I car...

I'm keeping up with the workouts and I'm glad for that. Exercise, and eating well, and balancing everything brings out a different thing in me.  Let's see.

I am.

07.02.2021 a new place a new job and new housemates I deal with everyday. Back on the progress wagon, and away from the place I used to live in, I found that place to be very dirty. Working out, eating well, reading and writing. Good time. Let’s see. One thing though, I’ve been feeling like my dreams have been packed with meaning but that also makes them more obscure and harder to remember. For su...

31st of Jan 2021 I talked about the last few days, finding a job, moving into the apartment, realizing differences in vibration, love, life and Tzha Truzth.

27th January 2021 I almost uploaded my cv instead of the episode. The equinox of Zenith. Never forgets.

24th of January 2021 Covid +, quarantining till the 28th of Jan and then moving out into the new place then.  Glad I came back to Germany from Dubai, was a tough flight actually. Because I was actually sick. Took my measures not to infect anybody but who knows. As much as learning from mistakes is nice it's a lot better not to make them.  What secret key am I looking for to hit a truth o...

27th of January 2021 The day I travel back to Berlin. Let’s hope we keep our health and everyone else’s too.

Keeping track of my life by week is interesting. Makes for perspective. Week 115 is when my brother is getting married. Good stuff. It's the 5th of January, recording into the 6th. 2021.  Putting things together and packing my bag. Looking forward to a new scene and family and loved ones. My time at Iserlohn was good. Looking forward to the future. From one hope to the next.

I had the pleasure of recording with Marvin on the 3rd of January 2021, again after almost exactly 2 years since the first one.  It was nice to catch up, a short but intense conversation.  You can really see how he's developed internally in a beautiful way.  I'm looking forward to see more growth and self love from the both of us.

I wrote a lot this week.  1 hour in my personal pattern recognizing notebook.  And hours of transcribing, and writing.  Vernon. And I got a podcast episode out of it. Nice. It's coming together. Nicely.  This was nice, this last hour and a half.  Reading a little out loud, recording, and writing.  Writing a lot and quickly.  I even did a few 5 minute writings and...

27th Dec 2020 8:30 pm low low on Tare2s bed playing bloodborne. Food, love, Vernon, reading, and playing. Not too fucked. Wearing fur hoodie. Waiting for liiife. Finding our patteeerns, growing more Zeeen. Stuff like that.

20.12.2020 I'm glad I sat and did this one, it's easy to say you don't have to and to find something else to do. Been in a fasted state today and got a lot of things done. It's nice to let the body digest and be with itself as it is.  Books and content have been a very big thing for me really, ordering books with style I like is nice. Absorbing from them and getting a new sense for words and...

16.12.2020 This recording started in Koerner park, blue jacket, black t-shirt, and fur hoodie beneath.. It was after I went to Marwan's place, took the package from him, talked, saw two lines, walked back, stood on the edge of water in the park, thought of sacrifice, got an espresso for 1.2 euros and then walked more before going to that park closer to my house with the train, observing everything...

13.12.2020 1:33 am 2 days to the new moon. No one sees anyone anymore. It's insane. I called Amer today to see how he's doing. To be compassionate. Just to tell him that what he went through wasn't easy, and it wasn't. At least I have an older brother, he doesn't. He has himself and his abusive family, and friends that are only friends and not family. It doesn't mean I'm a friend of his or anythin...

06.12.2020 Had a Russian Bone Doctor called Ruslan* over yesterday. Interesting experience. I'd recommend it to anyone. *I said Rusman in the episode.

01.12.2020 Back then I had been feeling like things were going to fall apart. I got fired that morning, and recorded this when I got at home. Funny phase in my life. I'm not bothered though. Dealt with it really quickly and got what I needed out of it.  Had a job for two months, really close to home, met some nice people, a girl, improved my languages, my words, did some good reading, ate wel...

I feel like it can all crash any second. But it will pass. I’m young and healthy, and I’m good. My heart is good. I’ll keep moving, for now, as long as I get to keep moving.