It's All My Fault

I didn't make it even 24 hours before awaking and baking brain barf blasting again. Ha! So so me, yeah? Yes. It is. <heavy sigh> DoUhave.aPoint? Episode 28 of 53

It's the midpoint of season 4 so naturally, I'm barely awake for the occasion. Awake and baked for the occasion? Well duh ... DoUhave.aPoint? Episode 27 of 53

I haven't reviewed any of this one so ... there's that. Even so, my overconfidence has a feeling this is one of my more listenable 20 minute brain barf blasts... at least recently. Assuming,of course, that any of this clears the bar as "listenable" in the first place. Which, yes, is an ENORMOUS assumption to entertain. Enormous enough to justify ALL CAPS? Perhaps, perhaps indeed. Okay, wtf am I ev...

If you are here... ... well ... that means you reacted to the title unsteadily and are now pondering ...what precisely...?? If a little more clarity than what the title already conveys could be mined from the land of pithy comments? How un-pithy of you. DoUhave.aPoint? Episode 25 of 53

Trying to reorganize the nonsense in my head again. Successfully??? Hard for me to say... you? Thoughts either way on this one are expected so don't hold back or anything... I mean, like you would ... amirite? Yeah... I am. DoUhave.aPoint? Episode 24 of 53

Nobody tells you what you should be thinking better than me, no? Ok. Many many many institutions/individuals are better at that than me. Right. Got it. "So what?" Says someone, maybe me. So find out what the latest thought I'm placing in your head might be... or not, given I'm not very good at this. Do you however you see fit. Absolutely with or without me. I will be okay, however you weigh, whate...

Pause it when it gets unlistenable. What else can I say? DoUhave.apoint? Episode 22 of 53

I manage to clarify one cloudy point from recent recordings while confusedly muddying my way through multiple other points in the process. One step forward, three steps left, two steps back, a twirl and we shake it all around... that's what it's all about!!! DoUhave.aPoint? Episode 21 of 53

Contradictions, both internally derived and/or perceived externally (particularly my/our collective reactions to them) have been my obsession. At least recently. Oh who am I kidding... "recently"... seriously???... whatever. Recently. Maybe this warped sense of time is why I keep losing my %@#& in these recordings. DoUhave.aPoint? Episode 20 of 53

N-N-N-N-N-Nineteen. 19. Need I say more? No. Duh. But since Lilly is involved here, I won't speak on behalf of her needs... instead I'll let her speak for herself. Like I have any choice... amirite? DoUhave.aPoint? Episode 19 of 53

I can't make it through one episode where I actually do what I said I was going to do in the previous episode. I don't know how many examples exist demonstrating my failure in this regard, I just know I'm "0 fer whatever"... Talk about not finding one's purpose, geez. DoUhave.aPoint? Episode 18 of 53

I knew my time to record episode 176 of " It's All My Fault " was short before a disruptive life force was scheduled to re-enter my life. Being in this unique situation, I wanted to capture the angsty tranquility entangling within me as this inevitability drew nearer to knocking on my front door. Then... this recording happened. Well not just then... mostly then... with a little "coupla' days ago"...

Oh what's the point of it all amirite? More and more... it seems... like ...ya' know when ... ... you're simply having that kind of day where it's all about celebrating your dog's champagne birthday particularly all the joy and companionship that day's particular "stroll down memory lane" is apt to offer when instead, the truth of that anticipated day is, you are on the verge of an emotional colla...

Somewhere between 4 and 44. That would be my guess for the number of topics I discussed in this recording that unexpectedly started falling out of my mouth as soon as I hit record. I don't even need to guess the total on this next one because I know there were at least 2, and therefore somewhere between 2 and 22 topics that I had intended to discuss after hitting that record button that instead, I...

If the 173rd episode of It's All My Fault called for a "lethargic" conversational approach to questionable discussion topics, particularly one that veers into "I'm not even paying attention to this any more" moments of potential misinterpretation while circling back on the very idea I myself, just moments ago, initiated - well in that specific case, I'd have f'n nailed it. If you think your "this...

This one is like finding out the butter you left out on the counter this morning has melted through and is on its 5th hour of collecting in semi-liquid form under, at a minimum, the microwave. You could just leave it alone and hope someone else comes and fixes it. You could do that... DoUhave.aPoint? Episode 13 of 53

Missing the point is... kind of... THE point. I know... I get it. I do. I really do. But seriously, do we all have to be missing the point so blatantly... and simultaneously? I'll bet you 8.5 minutes of double speed life time that we don't. Oh raising me a minute of description reading time now are you?!? Ok slow reader. Well ... then, I raise you five unnecessary ellipses, one snarky retort, four...

Are you ready? What? No you say??? Well I took a couple of months off to prepare so I'm not judging you here for whatever you've been doing... That's for sure. Prepare for what you say? Siilly goose... duh. For what's next. After all, isn't that all life really is anyhow? Preparing for whatever comes next? That's what they'll say about this time in other times... I think. The truth is, my time awa...

Welcome, officially, to the tenth episode of DoUhave.aPoint? The delayed delivery of this recording was unexpected and, unfortunately, unavoidable. The forced "intermission" was advantageous in one way, offering me a chance to listen to what the universe is signaling to all of us. Recognizing that collective circumstances are now gathering momentum, accelerating in fact... well, further delays cou...

My Galaxy S4 finally bit the dust and my new Pixel 2 is being weird (user error I'm certain...) so this is going to be all you get. Unless you listen. Then you'll get a wee bit more o' me... but only a wee bit. Even the "why am I breaking down right now?" version of me stops by... Oh yeah baby... he's back! DoUhave.aPoint? Episode 9 of 53

Has anyone seen my rocker? I hope so... really I do. This time I've spent off of it, lately... well, it's starting to take its toll. Ya' know? DoUhave.aPoint? Episode 8 of 53

Into every June a little insanity must seep. At least in my simulations. Including this one. The one I share with you. Earth v.8675309. June 27. 2022. The June that's about to exit stage left... like Rush did on that one album cover. The one that will see me turn 53 a little over 12 hours from right now. Does Denny's still exist? At least there's that "b-day-yay" 25% discount to be leveraged at my...

Let's face it, I've been waaaaaaay overdue for an unexpected breakdown during one of these recordings. And boy-oh-boy did I make up for that lost time here. So much so that I'm not even going to relisten to this episode before posting it live so what broke me down in there? Not really sure... I'm not really sure at all. Maybe you care to find out? Apparently I do not. DoUhave.aPoint? Episode 6 of...

I know... I know... ... and you know I feel terrible about being so weak here again... ... AGAIN ... ... but for many reasons, I've been too low in energy (for over a week now tbh) to communicate in anything other than whimpers and groans... so... y'know... The (admittedly... self-diagnosed) condition of CHS that's currently humbling my composition hasn't included the sorts of life moments that on...

I know, I know. What can I say? A week's gap between recordings is an absolute 100% failure. Furthermore, I am the only causal agent to blame. I'm not contesting anything in that at all. I apologize for losing track of myself so thoroughly as I did. As always, I will strive to do better and despite current setbacks, I'm optimistic about what's next. That said... I was the 2nd (or 3rd... mono was d...