Inside Voice with Martha's Mind

injuried me is hopefully over! Climbing some hills and Sudoku!

i did a spoken word and I wanted to break it down.

it's an update

let's have just a ramble and a bamble about life and thoughts after a heavy episode.

It's been a really head-eating topic of mine for a while. I am surprised I haven't seen someone speak about this before. Usually, feelings around grief/loss, you tend to find similar conversations. I struggled to find others who have spoken about the guilt when receiving their loved ones money and heirlooms. I hope this is recived in the way it is intended to to heard.

okay my old diagnosis was PDD-NOS, which stood for pervasive disorder, not otherwise specified it is an autism diagnosis for individual showing significant social communication or behavioural delays who do not yet meet the full criteria for autism.

I'm back after another slump of low mood and spiralling. With much MUCH help from my boyfriend, friends, class pass, Vice and getting rid of a job that made me feel insecure. I'm ready again to chat :)

understanding how to rebuild work energy again, returning to work after time off/ learning a completely new environment. autistic overwhelm - not just a cafe closed! life updates! The OG - https://www.marthasmind.co.uk/

Lets work this out together, and it's not a one conversation then done type of chat. But understanding a needs of an autistic person in a reltainhip is a process. A constant one at that.

OCE, online vulnerability, starting a podcast - Katie hosts Figuring it out as i go along It was so nice to discuss topics that I find are hard to come along, OCD being very much an unspoken topic that truly shows the hardship of a disorder that many don't know the true scope of the problem. It was also so interesting to speak to someone else who also shares a lot of themselves online and how they...

okay, lets be real. When I started this podcast, people might have listened just to 'show face'. after that, yeah I kept up something which probably didn't gain that much traction. This episode is the kick up the BUM... start something even if you are terrible.

Still riding a high after holidays, good dates and a pop up event with Girls Don't Sync.

original blog post - HERE Felt good to revist an old post and feel so vastly different to how I am now ALTHOUGH, I can definitely note that people will / still feel like this.

I wrote this piece for a work thing, so when I came across the research on this LINK LINK You can have the biggest social group and still feel like there aren't plans forming or that you're struggling to be social or connect with people. I feel you.

Quitting my job - hard but has to be done. Seeing your ex in the supermarket (hide me behind the cereal pls) The wheel of priorities in life.

As the comeback episode came out, I wanted to catch up more so on how I am NOW. Right now I have been catching myself in escapism practices like the cinema, cold plunges and DJing.

so my london marathon dream... it wasn't the dream I had thought it was going to do. Sadly sometimes the pressure we put on ourselves to enjoy an expiernce can really hinder the actual moment itself. I talk about \ - the event day itself (making a comical martha moment) - how the event was - learning that sometimes what we want might not bring us joy.

I've had a really hard time mentally the last few months. I can't even pinpoint exactly why, but it's been ropey. This is an incredibly honest chat from me. TW: Suicide/ death

I learnt why people on the spectrum might really struggle *more with rejection than maybe others. This helped me with my most recent feelings around seeing someone.

Although love may be in the air for some this month with Valentine's day round the corner, breakups are so hard to navigate. Truly an underestimated time for some people and how it can cause us more pain than we realise. Louise has been through her share of breakups and shared her mind on how to relly get through them with (hopefully) less pain! Knowing how to reply on friends, telling your bo...

I am back after my time away in Australia trying to figure out life. It was good to have a break break from seeing the same things and doing the same things, which meant I couldn't think about the same things. BUT, I definitely was met with some confronting feelings and made me question my sense of self. To read my latest blog post - READ HERE

I felt the lowness in my voice and pace of this episode. Thinking (at the time) I was fluent and eloqent, yet on reflection I sound tired, drained and lacking my normal self's energy. Totally fine and the episode explains why.

Meet Quentin and his mind. Quentin and I share the same need for music and how much it can help us with our moods. Quentin shares his past self, what that looked like and how that felt. Quentin shared his past desire to be a therapist but found the same passion for helping others through the love of music and what that can do for someone. I thoroughly enjoyed talking to Quentin. Articulate, calm a...

Delving into Millie's Mind with my favourite set of question cards from We are Not Really Strangers .

it's been a long time coming for me to really share my thoughts on the 2 years I've been jobless. Yeah, it was fun to begin with, but sadly the long toll of waking up feeling purposeless and no sense of accomplishment has really hit my headspace and self-confidence like a brick to glass. I *really* know I am not alone. But it does feel I havn't really had honest chats about unemployment like this...