Benny Beam

I Lost My Best Friend

Health EN ↓ 4 episodes

A highly personal podcast, structured almost like a diary, about coping with the heartbreak and depression from losing my best friend. I’ll post a new episode at suitable moments, sharing how things are going for me and what’s happened since last episode. There will be visits to doctors, psychiatrists, dating sites, online gaming, how to handle everyday tasks, how to heal, the do’s and don’t of coping with depression... And hopefully, at the end of the series I again have a best friend - and life as I want it can be restored.

Author

Benny Beam

Episodes

4: Did my dream last night make me paranoid? Or am I actually a creep? 14.09.2025 13:00

I am going deeper into this broken relationship and I wonder... Was I a creep? What would I think if I saw myself from a third person perspective? Would I have warned her about me?

3: I visit a psychiatrist, revisit old clips (bad idea) and meet someone on a dating app. 10.09.2025 13:29

I share impressions from my first experience with a psychiatrist, and I browsed through old recordings to make some funny TikToks - but that was a bad idea. And finally, I've met someone on a dating app that's made my days slightly brighter.

2: I visit my doctor, and try dating apps 06.09.2025 15:59

I take the first steps in order to recover: I've asked my doctor for help. Something I should have done a long time ago. Also I try a few dating apps, until I realized what I actually did seek there. Also, those apps suck, and I'll tell you why.

1: To gain and lose a friend: This is how it began. 06.09.2025 24:14

Here's the story of how a random person you meet in a video game soon can become your best friend ever. And how I lost her again.