I Heal - We Heal

"...I'd made something in class and they turned around and said 'I don't know why you're doing art because you'll never be any good at it' and this completely floored me because I thought this adult that was in a position of being a teacher—knew everything about life..."

"...the unfortunate side of having an abandonment wound that started pretty much at birth is that you learn to Self abandon—I began losing myself in my parents from a very very early age. Becoming whoever they needed to me to be, whoever they wanted me to be so that I would get breadcrumbs..."

"...in 2015, when I left, it was a very abusive situation, the lawyer knew it was abusive —so much so that he told me to not put my address on the documents so that whenever my ex husband signed them he wouldn't see my new address. A few weeks after I got moved & settled, I get a text message from my ex saying 'I know where you're at' ..."

"...I wanted to be safe, I wanted to survive, I wanted to breathe, I wanted to understand & feel my laughter, I wanted to experience my voice, and so in my mind the safest thing at 5 years old was to a boy..."

"...it's like being in a room with a thousand people except nobody leaves and more just keep coming in, and that's how many I'm seeing all the time—everyday/everywhere I go I see them..."

"...I'm going to figure a way to never ever let that happen again, that was not the person I wanted to be—in fact, I as an acupuncturist know what I was doing was toxic to body..."

"...I really did see my life flash before my eyes & I thought 'this is it, this is it— the end' but I heard a voice say 'not now—not now' and it just happened so fast, the car was spinning, and I just felt like I was out of my body like viewing it as if I was someone else floating above this car..."

"...I've never been to the ER , I've never had anything like that happen to me before so I didn't really understand the magnitude of what was really happening, I just know that I was struggling to breathe..."

"...I found that he was someone in and out of prison and I continued to remain in that relationship even though he was always absent and when he was present he was abusive. Around the age of 26 years old—I ran from him while he was away but..he found me..."

"...navigating the life of a 7 year old whose father just been stripped away, who was taken to prison, who had just been outed as a pedophile/child abuser -- to a point where her whole world had just completely crumbled..."

"...he was diagnosed with early onset Alzheimer's at 60 years old and that really changed the tragectory of my life and my thought process of life and how we're supposed to move through life..."

"...my mom fought hard to break generational curses, meaning when I ran away my mom was like it's not happening like we're gonna break that curse, you're going to stay here with us, we're going to work through whatever hormonal things you're going through as a teenager..."

"...5 years ago we were in pandemic stages and when you think, it's end of May-- we would've been in lockdown for quite some time..alot of us were starting to feel very hopeless...it took away alot of the busyness to really sit in what it is that I was doing/ wanted to be doing..."

"...he was waiting in the garage...we walked in and opened the door and there he was-- now my friend was taller than me so I didn't see the gun until I heard the shot and she was laying at my feet..."

"...so intentionally apply pain, suffering, sacrifice, and uncomfortability in a loving way...because when we apply those things in a loving way -- pain brings change , connection , and repentence ..."

"I think it's easy when people come across an alcoholic to say 'oh just stop drinking and then those problems will go' , and it's like well actually...the drinking is happening because it's actually solving a problem & it's actually keeping me alive..."

"...my father died when I was only 13--took him a cup of coffee and he was there having a heart attack on the sofa...back then there wasn't really any support, especially for younger children who had experienced any form of grief..."

"...my mom suffered from ovarian cancer for 5.5 months before she died...and I had the tough decision to make if I wanted my mom to die in my home surrounded by my children who were young at the time & have the energy of her Spirit depleating her body...and what that trauma potentially could've been to them..."

"...when I was 14 I attempted suicide and I was blamed by my mother for ruining her life when the ambulance came to pick me up, and a week after that she actually put me in an all girls home because they no longer wanted me in the environment..."

"...I didn't have grandmas growing up because they were passed away but I had this lady that chose to kinda adopt us as a grandma and I loved her-- she had Multiple Sclerosis and so for about 25 years I watched her just deteriorate-- what it did was it just laid this desire that I want to be young...I want to be able to play with my grandkids..."

"I dialed 988...I told them I'm supposed to meet a friend in 2 hours and I want to meet her but I also have these thoughts, please just help me do anything- anything to prevent this from happening..." Content Warning: This episode includes discussion of suicide, suicide attempts, and mental health struggles. Please listen with care. If you or someone you know is struggling, support is available—ca...

"...and then one day I got lucky--  won the lottery I say. I woke up one morning in the middle of the pandemic with cancer...FANTASTIC!..this saved my life..."

"...this is just over two years now that I've been living in my car, healing from mold poisoning and Chronic Inflammatory Response Syndrome (CIRS)..."

"In 2016, my life took an unexpected turn-- I fell into a coma that lasted almost 3 months...my family was already planning my funeral at that time and I came back..."

"I was a little boy, probably 6/7 years old but that encounter left a mark on me... left me with something I haven't forgotten..."