H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain Ends

Everyone in my life, who knows me, Should listen to this one. And as always, THANK YOU for your concern, your love, and your worry. Since recording this episode ... I met with my psychiatrist - for a 45 minute video session, where he could see my face, and look into my eyes. As we talked ... about 30 mins in... he stopped me. He said: "Alana, I've been seeing you for a very long time. I can say wi...

Hey Everyone ... my mother has told me my whole life, when it's bad weather, bad traffic, car issue... "Alana, drive in the right lane with the hazards on." ... Well... I think I am definitely realizing I need to slow down a bit ... stay focused, keep going with my drive, my passion and love for what I am doing right now... but I don't have to do too much too fast, I think we could all use that id...

Guys ... I am soooo excited about this one. Hopefully you all have been listening from the beginning and know that I have a special connection to my Dad even though he is in heaven ... I guess he realized I really needed a "droopy drawers lecture" today. And for some reason that book from so long ago ... just popped into my head "Dear God, It's Me Margaret" ... and now I'm like "Dear Dad, It's Me...

Hello All ... this was a fun one too ... I came across some old cards and notes that really made me think of where I was, where I am now, and how far I have come. It made me happy, but also kind of sad ... but then proud. Thank you again for all of your support!

Parker woke up... right after the journal entry I had just recorded... telling me about a Dream he had about my Dad, saying it was April 1st, 2026 ... and I had told him it was an April Fools' Joke that he had passed, and that they were watching the JETS together, that dad looked younger (around the age of 50), he looked skinnier, healthier ... and Parker asked him how he lost the weight ... and a...

Woke up to the most beautiful and bright Full Moon today. This is a journal entry (with a few side bars as always) ... where I talk about losing my Dad, the importance medication has had in my life, little miracles, the Jets, Phil Collins, and how Dreams really do come True. It's a little bit all over the place ... but hey, So am I!! I really love this one ... thanks for listening guys.

Hi Guys... now that I have come off of my coffee high ... I was getting ready for bed tonight, and I have been making it a point to journal at least once a day, so as I was journaling, it came over to me that I wanted to say something to the soulmate that I truly feel is heading in my direction ... so I wrote a little something. THEN, I remembered.... an astrology site that I had signed up for wee...

Well... TRIGGER WARNING - this was recorded while I was FULLY caffeinated up after an amazing breakfast date with my bestie ... so... apologizing in advance! While driving on route 80 for the first time in 10 days ... I somehow went down a detour of some really crazy (and unbelievable) bad date stories while dodging huge rocks and bad drivers! This one might be one of my favorites ... when I liste...

This is the pick-me-up (off the floor) check in that I recorded after that last doozy ... I am probably going to keep it lighter for awhile... I realized the energy I exude when I talk more and more about my struggles ... of course I will still use my experience with Mental Illness as the main theme of my Journey... but I think I am ready to realize, those struggles and obstacles were put into my...

Hi Everyone.. I just want to THANK YOU. Thank you for taking time for YOU and leaving your own struggles for a moment ... to hear about stories of someone's life that might be able to make YOURS feel a bit different tomorrow. Soooo with this being said, this one is a DOOZY. I promise you it's a story like you have NEVER EVER heard before .... get your popcorn, your coffee, your white claw ... and...

Hey Guys - I am going to preface by saying this is the LONGEST episode I have done clocking at 50 minutes! So if you are looking for a quickie ... this isn't the one! But afterall, we can't be satisfied with Quickies ALL the time right??? (That's what she said lol) Okay - so ... in order to understand the name of this episode, "The Five People You Meet on Earth" - you need to listen to the WHOLE t...

Hey guys! This is a quick fun one! I hope you like it ... it's all about music and how much ONE song can just change the direction of your entire day. And that's what happened to me today. I promised in this one that I would post the recommended playlist that I dare you all to make on your phone today ... BUT ... you will have to pause the episode and write them down ... because by the time I post...

This one focuses on the sweetest 94 year old man I've ever met. My mom has been a caregiver to him for the past 3 years ... and she has changed his life, as he has changed hers. Unfortunately he has been hospitalized and in rehab for months now, my Mom visits him as much as she can, and he just sobs on her shoulder, bc all he wants to do is go home. Today was the first day I went inside with her t...

Just a fun morning drive ... sharing thoughts on how hearing someone's voice even for just a few seconds, can make such a difference!

I've never claimed to be a Yogi. Most of all because I think the word "Yogi" is annoying. But, today ... on the yoga mat, felt like the first time in a very long time ... where I knew why I was there. In that Moment "in time" ... I knew I was meant to be there. So whether you know what a downward dog is or not... I think this is a good one. Especially for those of us that know, deep down in our he...

Good Morning. I wanted you to know this one was recorded in the morning ... because sometimes mornings are hardest for me. When I was in depression, the minute I woke up, before I opened my eyes, I would feel, for just a split second, that the depression had lifted... and I would have HOPE. And then ... my eyes would open, and I was still in the darkness. Similarly, when my Dad passed, I would wak...

This one started as I was washing a mug that I never knew I had .... and then turns into making talking about Signs that help when you lose someone that you loved. Being open, and receptive to the idea that just maybe ... there is more out there then just this? And that just maybe... your loved ones will be able to guide you more from HEAVEN than they ever could when they were here on Earth. Maybe...

This one came to me while I was putting away the dishes .... just a thought about how different it is when you can hear someone's voice ... but not have to commit to an actual phone call, but when you need more than just a text message. Of course it also starts to go in many different directions ... but somehow it always finds its way back ... thank you for all hanging in there with me so far! Hop...

This one starts with me feeling pretty aggravated and a bit defeated. But by the end, I am in a much better place ... so I am happy I recorded when I did ... I just needed to talk it through. I hope this one helps for those out there that ARE OK ... but you are feeling like others don't believe you. It is also for the ones that are WORRIED that someone is NOT OK... ask them once, if they tell you...

"You you have so many relationships in this life, only one or two will last. You go through all the pain and strife, then you turn your back and they're gone so fast." - MmmBop - Hanson. Whether you like boy bands or not, I invite you to listen to this episode that talks about stopping and remembering what it is that you LOVE, and making sure you make time for that in your life. So this HANSON epi...

This one starts with the frustrations of shoveling snow for the first time in my life .... and then ends up talking about Celine Dion, Divorce, Self-Harm, the movie Ghost, and how I feel like Whoopie Goldberg talking to My Dad in Heaven! And of course, at the ending off with the message we all should know by now.... please keep holding onto that H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain Ends.

Let's Lighten this place up after that last one! This is definitely one that was fun to make .. because it went in a different direction as I kept talking! For those of you out there ... who sometimes just hear a song lyric ... or connect with a song and you don't understand why ... this one is for you! After you listen to this episode, I ask that you create a NEW playlist on Spotify ... called "H...

TRIGGER WARNING - This episode discusses heavy themes of Suicide Ideations. Please do not listen if this is something that is difficult for you (or if you know me, love me, and would have missed me... bc this is a very hard to hear). This is by far, the most emotional episode I have shared so far. I would not recommend listening while driving ... (especially after my last episode about the detours...

This was an epiphany I had (while going to the bathroom... but that is besides the point)! About a time years ago, where I took on responsibility for something that happened to my sister, because of MY illness. The crazy thing? After I recorded this, but before posting it, I sent it to my Sister ... and she sent me back a voice note, saying that she wanted me to know, when she looks back on this.....

This one reflects the fears that I know some of you have right now. So I know I "happened" to find this letter at the perfect time. (Thank you Dad). Just know, I have the tools in place, I have worked very hard to get where I am, and I won't let any of you down. Thank you for listening.