Holding On and Moving Forward

We hear so much about healing—about moving on, letting go, and becoming stronger. But what we don’t talk about enough… is what comes after. What happens when you’ve done the work, you’ve walked away, you’ve rebuilt yourself… and you still have moments? In this episode, I’m talking about the reality of being healed—but still being human. The quiet moments where memories resurface, where you feel th...

There’s a word that gets thrown around casually… but when it lands on someone with a mental illness, it can be devastating: “attention-seeking.” In this episode, I share my own story — struggling with my mental health since I was 13 and hiding it for 16 years — and explore why calling someone attention-seeking can turn an already isolating, lonely experience into something even more painful. We un...

So many of us learn to be loved by giving — our time, our energy, our care, our strength — until there’s nothing left for ourselves. In this episode, I talk about what happens when you reach the point of emotional exhaustion and can no longer be everything for everyone. We explore the fear, guilt, and grief that come with stepping back, and the painful clarity that shows you who stayed because the...

Sometimes we spend so much of our lives performing — for attention, for approval, for validation — that we forget how to be okay without it. In this episode, I explore what it means to let go of the need to be liked, chosen, or praised. We talk about: • The difference between being liked and being truly known • Letting go of the version of yourself built to please others • Finding peace and self-w...

This episode is about conditional relationships — the people who loved me when I was easy, and the people who left when I stopped being. I talk about: • The people I met when I had nothing left to give • The people I lost when I had nothing left to give • The ones who came back, then disappeared again • The ones who left when I started taking responsibility • And the ones who loved me through ever...

When the People You Thought Were Forever, Leave There’s a quiet kind of grief that comes when people are still alive, but no longer part of your life. In this episode, I talk about what it feels like to be left behind by people you thought would be in your life forever — how a year later, the smallest moments can still bring them back, and how watching them move on can make you feel deeply alone....

Healing can be lonely - not because you’re doing it wrong, but because you’re doing it honestly. Healing is often talked about as something that brings clarity, peace, and connection — but there’s a part of it that rarely gets named. Loneliness. In this episode of What About Now? – Holding On and Moving Forward, we explore how healing can quietly distance us from familiar people, places, and patte...

“Not every struggle has a story. Not every pain has a cause. Sometimes there is no reason - and you’re still allowed to need care” We’re often told that there must be a reason behind our struggles. A reason we feel low. A reason we can’t get out of bed. A reason something inside us feels broken. But what if there isn’t one? In this episode, we talk about the pressure to explain pain — to justify d...

“Growth isn’t always joyful. Sometimes it carries grief, loss, and the weight of who we once were.” In this episode, we explore the often unspoken grief that accompanies personal growth. Even as we heal and change, we may find ourselves mourning the versions of ourselves we’ve outgrown, the familiarity of old patterns, and the moments that shaped us. Through gentle guidance and storytelling we unp...

“You can take responsibility for who you were without living there forever” Healing in a world that still sees your old self is an episode for anyone who is doing the work to change - but still feels defined by who they used to be. Maybe in the past you weren’t trustworthy. Maybe you drank or used substances to escape. Maybe you detached, disappeared, or shut people out because you didn’t yet know...

“staying doesn’t always become healing. Sometimes it just becomes quieter.” When Staying Turns into Something Else is a companion episode to I’m Still Here and Some Days That’s Enough. This episode is for anyone who is still surviving - but has start to notice small, unfamiliar shifts. Not relief. Not happiness. Just moments where the noise quiets, the grip loosens, or staying feels a little diffe...

Healing isn’t gratitude everyday. Sometimes it’s just staying. We’re often told that healing should feel like gratitude, growth, and moving forward. But for many people, healing doesn’t look like that at all. Sometimes healing is quiet. Sometimes it’s heavy. Sometimes it’s simply staying. This episode is for anyone who doesn’t feel “better”, anyone who feels stuck in the middle, and anyone who is...

In this episode, I open up about the moments I’ve tried hardest to forget — the silence, the betrayal, and the heavy truth that I let it happen. It’s a raw reflection on what it means to be blamed, erased, and left behind, while still finding the courage to take back your story. This isn’t about blame. It’s about honesty — the kind that hurts before it heals. If you’ve ever looked back at somethin...

Life can get noisy. Between work, responsibilities, and the constant pull of the world around us, it’s easy to miss the small, quiet moments that truly matter. In this episode, I reflect on the subtle joys, fleeting connections, and overlooked experiences that often slip by when life feels overwhelming. Through personal stories, reflection, and gentle prompts for awareness, we explore how slowing...

In this episode, I open up about something I’ve always struggled with — appearing “okay” on the outside, even when everything inside me is falling apart. It’s easy to convince the world that you’re fine, but behind that mask is a quiet kind of exhaustion that slowly breaks you down. This past week has reminded me how dangerous it can be to keep everything bottled up — to tell people you’re just “u...

This episode explores one of the most misunderstood parts of healing: why we grieve the very lives, loves, and routines that nearly destroyed us. Leaving a toxic relationship or life doesn’t just bring freedom — it brings emptiness, loneliness, and a strange ache for what once felt familiar. I talk about the quiet grief of walking away, the hollow space healing creates, and the temptation to mista...

We’re told to “just get on with it.” To push through. To smile, cope, and endure without complaint. But what does that actually cost us? In this episode, I explore the heavy toll of always powering through — the exhaustion, the isolation, the anger, and the invisible weight we carry when we bury our pain. It’s raw. It’s honest. And it’s a reminder that real strength isn’t silence — it’s allowing o...

Sometimes, survival means keeping parts of yourself hidden. In this deeply personal episode, I explore the “art of holding back” — a skill I learned as a teenager and carried into adulthood. From carefully edited truths to protecting others at the expense of my own wellbeing, I share what it’s like to live behind a filter, the cost of internalising pain, and the moments that remind me just how hea...

There’s a growing misconception that ADHD in women has become a trend — a fashionable label, the “in thing” right now. But the truth is very different. For decades, girls and women were overlooked, their symptoms masked, their struggles misunderstood. What looks like a sudden surge in diagnoses isn’t about fashion — it’s about recognition. In this episode, I share my own story of masking, self-bla...

Recovery isn’t always neat or Instagram-ready. In this episode, I share the messy, unseen side of healing — the setbacks, the quiet victories, and the progress that still counts even when it doesn’t look like recovery.

“Nature vs. nurture” makes it sound like there’s a winner. In my life, both shaped me—and so did a quiet rule I learned young: don’t share, just get on with it. In this episode, I tell the story of how that rule became my armour and my isolation. I carried it into every room—family, friendships, work—until speaking up felt dangerous and staying silent felt like strength. I share the seasons where...

A reflective, no-checklist conversation about conditional approval and the ache of trying to please people who won’t be pleased. We talk about the whiplash of “I’m proud of you… but,” why hope keeps sending us back, and the relief of stopping the audition for love. Gentle, honest, and human—this one’s about remembering you were never hard to love.

This episode sits with the uncomfortable truth: sometimes our struggles spill over and children end up standing in the puddles. We talk about the moments they shouldn’t have had to know, the times we took our eye off the ball, and why “wise beyond their years” isn’t always a compliment. No to-do list—just an honest, compassionate look at impact over intent, presence over perfection, and the promis...

In this second episode of the Protecting Your Peace mini-series, we explore a kind of exhaustion that often goes unnoticed — the weight of emotional labour. I share honestly about the invisible work of carrying other people’s feelings, always being “the strong one,” and the way this hidden load slowly builds into burnout. Together, we’ll look at: ✨ What emotional labour really looks like — and wh...

In this opening episode of the Protecting Your Peace mini-series, I explore one of the hardest but most necessary parts of healing — learning how to say no without drowning in guilt. We start with an honest check-in about what happens when we fall back into old patterns of people-pleasing and over-giving, and how easy it is to lose ourselves while trying to be “good” for everyone else. Through gen...