Heartbreak to Wholeness: Untangling the Mindf*ck of Narcissistic Relationships

Why does breaking up with a narcissist feel like ripping apart your mind, body and soul, unlike other breakups? Breaking free from a narcissistic relationship isn’t just about letting go of a person, and this episode will help you understand why healing feels so layered. In this episode you will discover: Exactly why a narcissistic breakup hurts deeper, lingers longer, and requires a whole new lev...

Are you paralyzed in your decision to leave a relationship because you’re terrified that they won’t be okay if you go? If you’ve ever found yourself shouldering the responsibility for your partner’s emotions, decisions, or struggles and feel afraid to be seen as the villain in their story, this episode is for you. In this episode you’ll discover: A new perspective on why staying in a rescuing role...

Do you wonder why it is so hard to let go of a relationship, even when things really aren’t working? If you’re stuck not knowing when or if you should leave, you’re not alone. This episode dives into why we stay in painful relationships and how to find the peaceful inner knowing of what to do. In this episode you’ll discover: 3 reasons we hold onto relationships even when we feel unhappy in them P...

Are you navigating a divorce with someone who is narcissistic and wondering how to protect yourself and your kids from manipulation and abuse? The threats, manipulation, and fear of escalation can leave you questioning your every move. In this episode, you will discover: The clear, practical steps you need to take to plan for a safe exit from a narcissistic spouse Effective strategies for document...

What if there was a clear reason that your last narcissistic relationship was so hard to leave? In this episode, we uncover the striking parallels between narcissistic relationships, cult dynamics and addiction. These relationships don’t just manipulate your emotions—they hijack your mind, body, and sense of reality which can make leaving (and healing) feel impossible. In this episode you will dis...

Have you found yourself questioning how someone could lie, manipulate, or provoke you without remorse? When you're dealing with someone who seems to thrive on pushing your buttons, it’s easy to feel stuck and confused. In this episode, we unravel the mystery behind their behavior, helping you understand the way their minds work so you can make sense of what feels incomprehensible. In this episode...

Have you ever found yourself trapped in a whirlwind of emotions after betrayal, leaving you torn between the instinct to stay close to someone who has hurt you and the deep knowledge that you deserve better? In this episode, Heidi Dike Kingston and I explore the complex dynamics of betrayal trauma, the effects it has on your nervous system, and the steps to begin healing so you can move toward a l...

Have you ever wondered why you keep repeating unhealthy relationship patterns despite your best efforts to move forward? This episode dives deep into the ‘why’ behind our unmanageable cycles of seeking connection or staying in harmful relationships, and how we can make sense of it all. Listen as Heidi Dike Kingston shares her personal journey of love addiction recovery in this part 1 of 2. In this...

Are you wondering if true, healthy love is even possible for you? This episode dives into the heart of what makes relationships genuinely fulfilling.  If you’ve ever found yourself questioning what you should expect from a partner or doubting your ability to experience real love after a toxic relationship, this conversation is for you. In this episode you will: Understand the 8 signs of a hea...

Do you want to lose it when people tell you to just “love yourself?” Loving yourself can be a nebulous thing and can feel far away, especially while moving through heartbreak from a narcissistic relationship, period - but definitely around Valentine’s Day. In this episode Angela Slade and I have a powerful conversation that will take the confusion out of self-love and show you exactly how you can...

Are you wondering if anyone can relate to the self-blame, confusion and heartbreak you’re experiencing since you broke up with your narcissistic ex? This episode shares my story. I give you an explicit view from my ride on the toxic rollercoaster and how I finally got off and healed from the mindf*ck of it all - all while learning what the heck "loving myself" even meant. So when I say, “You are n...

Are you struggling to comprehend how your ex could be capable of cheating or living an entire double life? Betrayal trauma cuts deeper than most wounds. In this episode Deana and Lizzie from The Matadoras share their emotional journey of discovering they were both entangled in the same man’s manipulative web, how they unraveled his lies and found the strength to move forward. In this episode you w...

How many times has the question,  "Am I the toxic one?"  keep you up at night, spiraling you into self-blame and self-doubt? If you’ve found yourself replaying arguments, doubting your worth, and wondering if your reactions are to blame, it’s time to get clarity.  In this episode, you will: Finally have an easy way to finally be able to answer the, “Am I the toxic one?” question whe...

Are you asking, “Why did he do this to me?!” completely bewildered by a narcissists behavior? Making sense of it can sometimes feel like you’re trying to understand someone from another planet, and this episode will shine some light on the seemingly non-sensical mindf*ck. By tuning in, you’ll discover: The why behind the behaviors, patterns, and tactics used by narcissistic individuals that leave...

How do you recognize when intimacy has shifted from connection to control? If you've ever felt that your partner's actions didn't align with their words or found yourself using sex to end a fight, this discussion with Hilary Buckwalter-Wilde will resonate deeply for you. In this episode you will: Gain clarity on how sex can be misused as a tool for control and manipulation, trapping you further in...

Wondering how the heck you’re supposed to spot the subtle red flags in your next relationship so you don’t fall into another narcissist’s trap? Dating again after a narcissistic relationship can be downright terrifying, so in this episode, Angela Davis LCSW and I will equip you with what you need to confidently date without fear. In this episode you will: Learn the #1 sign you’re dating someone wh...

Are you craving clarity and guidance as you stand at a crossroads, unsure of your next steps in your relationship? The end of the year can feel like a whirlwind—especially if you’re wrestling with life-changing decisions in your relationships. This episode explores how harnessing the reflective energy of the winter season can help you access a sense of peace and purpose, even in the midst of chaos...

What does it take to exit the narcissistic cycle for good? If you've ever felt like your worth depended on someone choosing you, this episode with Cheryl Brockie is for you. We dive into the key components you need to strut into healthy relationships with authentic confidence and leave the toxic ones behind. In this episode you will: Learn the #1 game changer that will shift you out of toxic relat...

Are you navigating the holidays as a newly single woman wondering how to feel joy amidst grief? What if this season could also be an opportunity to reclaim your narrative, honor your healing, and create traditions that reflect who you are becoming? In this empowering episode, you’ll learn: How to redefine your single status into something empowering Practical steps to design holiday traditions tha...

Is the “most magical time of the year” starting to feel more like a rom-com gone wrong? The holidays can hit differently when you’re single—especially after leaving a toxic relationship. The world around you screams joy and togetherness while you may be navigating grief, confusion, and the weight of healing. This episode explores how to embrace both the heartbreak and the hope this season brings,...

Have you ever wondered how toxic relationships could be influencing your relationship with food and your body? In this episode, we’re diving into how disordered eating often sneaks in as a coping mechanism when emotions get too messy or relationships feel like a rollercoaster you can’t get off. If you’ve felt stuck in patterns of self-criticism or body fixation, this conversation with Kathryn Holt...

Are you the only one noticing a family member’s toxic behavior, while everyone else just tiptoes around it? In this episode, Kristin Hill and I dive into the unique challenges of dealing with a narcissistic family member who isn’t your partner—like a mother-in-law. If you’re struggling with difficult in-laws or close family members, this episode sheds light on maintaining your peace while preservi...

Are you dreading those holiday gatherings with people who constantly cross your boundaries or leave you feeling drained? For many, the holidays are not just a time for joy but also a source of anxiety. But what if you had clear strategies to stay in control and prioritize your well-being? In this episode, you’ll discover: The vital FIRST thing you need to do before setting a boundary with a narcis...

Have you ever thought you had your life all figured out, only to get hit with a plot twist that leaves you saying, “Wait… what?!” In today’s episode, I’m spilling the beans on a major life update that even I didn’t see coming. Whether you’re feeling stuck, scared to take the next step, or just wondering if things could ever turn around, this episode is your reminder that life’s surprises can...

Where are all my empathetic, loving, codependent ladies at?! Whether you are tangled in someone else’s addiction, trying to “fix” and manage others' lives, or find yourself spewing passive aggressiveness when your partner loads the dishwasher wrong, codependency takes an emotional toll that is a total doozy. This episode with my guests Behk and LAH, co-hosts of Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheate...