Ghosts: Essays in Conversation

Believing It Meant Something Podcast: This is a conversational podcast exploring my essay Believing It Meant Something from the book Ghosts of Sex. In the podcast we discuss how meaning forms quietly between two people, how small gestures and patterns of contact can take on emotional weight, and how belief becomes real internally even without explicit agreement. We explore the experience of assumi...

Wanting More Than Was Ever Offered Podcast: This is a conversational podcast exploring my essay Wanting More Than Was Ever Offered from the book Ghosts of Sex. In the podcast we discuss the quiet expansion of hope beyond what was ever clearly given, how emotional investment can grow without promise, and why wanting continues even when limits are visible. We explore the tension between awareness an...

What Remains: This is a podcast conversation about an essay called What Remains from the book Ghosts of Parenting. The episode explores parenting as lived time rather than advice or identity, naming what quietly accumulates across years of repetition, responsibility, fear, care, exhaustion, and love. It speaks to the invisible continuity of showing up, the way attention reshapes a life, and how pr...

The Future Inside the Room: This is a podcast conversation about an essay called The Future Inside the Room from the book Ghosts of Parenting, exploring how parenting carries the future directly into everyday life, not as an abstract idea, but as a constant, embodied presence. The conversation names how tomorrow lives inside ordinary moments, in vigilance, in quiet fear, in sustained attention, an...

The Child You Were: This is a podcast conversation about an essay called The Child You Were from the book Ghosts of Parenting. The episode explores how becoming a parent brings the past quietly into the present, not as memory, but as sensation, reaction, tenderness, and strain. It names how early experiences of care and dependence remain active in the body, shaping fear, love, vigilance, and exhau...

The Weight of Tomorrow: This is a podcast conversation about an essay called The Weight of Tomorrow from the book Ghosts of Parenting. The episode explores how parenting carries the future inside the present, not as planning or anxiety, but as a quiet, ongoing pressure that shapes attention, care, and exhaustion over time. It names the invisible load parents hold, the way tomorrow lives in ordinar...

Staying: This is a podcast conversation about an essay called Staying from the book Ghosts of Parenting. The episode explores staying as one of the quiet, enduring realities of parenting, not as commitment, resilience, or sacrifice, but as a lived condition that unfolds across years. It names how staying shows up in ordinary days, emotional fatigue, unresolved moments, and ongoing responsibility,...

Trust: This is a podcast conversation about an essay called Trust from the book Ghosts of Parenting. The episode explores trust not as confidence or certainty, but as a lived condition that unfolds across years, shaped by fear, care, vigilance, and love. It looks at how parenting asks for repeated acts of letting go while staying close, how trust often feels heavy rather than reassuring, and why c...

Worry: This is a podcast conversation about an essay called Worry from the book Ghosts of Parenting. This episode explores worry not as anxiety or overthinking, but as a lived condition of parenting, a quiet, persistent form of care that stretches across time. It looks at how worry begins as vigilance, how it follows children as they grow, and how it settles into the body as a background hum of re...

Quiet Joy: This is a podcast conversation about an essay called Quiet Joy from the book Ghosts of Parenting. The episode explores the quiet, often unnoticed moments of joy that move through everyday parenting, not as reward or resolution, but as brief pockets of presence that exist alongside exhaustion, responsibility, and care. It reflects on how this subtle joy appears in ordinary gestures, shar...

Watching Change: This is a podcast conversation about an essay called Watching Change from the book Ghosts of Parenting, exploring how parents live alongside the quiet, continuous shifts in their children that rarely announce themselves but shape everything. The episode names watching change as a lived condition rather than a moment, revealing how parents hold past and present versions of the same...

Letting Go: This is a podcast conversation about an essay called Letting Go from the book Ghosts of Parenting. The episode explores how letting go in parenting is not a single moment or decision, but a gradual, ongoing shift in how care, responsibility, and connection change over time. It looks at the quiet ache that can arise as children become more independent, the tension between holding and st...

Holding: This is a podcast conversation about an essay called Holding from the book Ghosts of Parenting. The episode explores holding as one of the longest realities of parenting, how it begins in the body and slowly moves inward, becoming attention, readiness, memory, and care carried across years rather than moments. It speaks to the unseen labour of staying available, holding concern at a dista...

Repair: This is a conversational podcast about the essay Repair from Ghosts of Parenting, exploring parenting as lived time rather than advice or identity. The episode stays with repair as an ordinary, repeating condition of care, how moments of rupture arise inside long responsibility, and how return becomes part of the relationship itself. It names the quiet labour of noticing what has shifted,...

Mistakes: This is a podcast conversation about an essay called Mistakes from the book Ghosts of Parenting. The episode explores how mistakes live inside parenting not as isolated errors, but as moments shaped by fatigue, care, fear, love, and responsibility unfolding over years. It looks at why parenting mistakes often feel heavier than any others, how they replay long after children have moved on...

Time That Will Not Hurry: This is a podcast conversation about an essay called Time That Will Not Hurry, from Ghosts of Parenting. We explore how parenting reshapes our relationship with time, the strange reality of days that feel endless while years pass too quickly, and what it means to live inside a kind of time that refuses urgency. The conversation names the hidden strain of waiting, repetiti...

Presence: Here is a podcast conversation discussing the essay Presence from the book Ghosts of Parenting, exploring presence not as attention, emotional availability, or something to get right, but as a lived condition that unfolds across years, the quiet reality of staying, returning after interruption, and carrying responsibility even when tired, distracted, or unsure. The discussion names why p...

Protection: This episode is a spoken essay from Ghosts of Parenting titled Protection. It explores protection not as a set of actions, but as a living condition that settles into the body over years, the quiet vigilance that never fully switches off, even when nothing is wrong. Moving through ordinary moments and long stretches of time, the essay names how protection expands beyond physical safety...

Helplessness: This episode is a spoken essay titled Helplessness, from Ghosts of Parenting, exploring helplessness as one of the quiet, enduring conditions of raising children. Not helplessness as failure, but as a lived reality that appears when care meets the limits of control. Across early infancy, growing independence, and the long arc of watching another life unfold, this reflection names how...

Waiting: This episode is a spoken essay titled Waiting, from my book Ghosts of Parenting. It explores waiting as one of the quiet, constant conditions of parenthood, not as a pause between events, but as a form of attention that never fully switches off. We look at how parents live slightly ahead of the present, holding uncertainty, vulnerability, and future possibility so their children do not ha...

Attention Podcast: This is a conversational podcast episode based on my essay Attention from Ghosts of Parenting. It explores attention not as focus or parenting effort, but as something that quietly settles into life over years, the constant background awareness of another person, the interruptions, the half finished thoughts, the way inner space keeps being entered. Rather than offering advice o...

Absence Podcast: Absence is a essay from Ghosts of Parenting, exploring how absence lives quietly alongside love, care, and responsibility. This episode names the subtle ways parents are present and missing at the same time, physically, emotionally, and across years, and how this becomes a structural part of parenting rather than a personal failure. It reflects on separation, limitation, and the f...

Being Needed Podcast: This episode is a spoken reflection from the essay Being Needed from the book Ghosts of Parenting. It explores what it really means to be needed across years, not as a role or identity, but as a lived condition that quietly reshapes time, attention, and inner life. Moving from early physical dependence to the subtler emotional forms that arrive later, this piece names the ong...

Ordinary Days Podcast: This is a podcast reflection on my essay Ordinary Days from the book Ghosts of Parenting, a quiet exploration of where most of parenting actually lives, not in milestones or dramatic moments, but in the long, repetitive stretches of everyday care. I speak about routine, responsibility, tiredness, vigilance, love, and the unseen weight carried across years, naming how ordinar...

Love Podcast: This is a spoken reflection on my essay Love from the book Ghosts of Parenting. It explores parental love not as a feeling or ideal, but as something lived across years, the quiet condition that reshapes time, attention, fear, and care once a child arrives. This episode names how love shows up in ordinary moments, in listening after doors close, in carrying tomorrow inside today, and...