Ghosts: Essays in Conversation

Exhaustion Podcast: This is a podcast from my essay Exhaustion from the book Ghosts of Parenting. In this episode exhaustion is discussed not as simple tiredness, but as something that forms slowly through years of care, vigilance, repetition, and responsibility. This is not a conversation about coping strategies or parenting tips, it names what many parents are already living, the quiet weight of...

Care Podcast: This is a podcast based on my essay Care from my book Ghosts of Parenting. It’s a conversation about the quiet weight parents carry inside themselves, the things we hold so our children don’t have to. About doing the weighing in our own bodies so they can move freely. About staying steady while they learn how far they can go. The essay doesn’t offer advice or strategies. It simply na...

Fear Podcast: I wrote an essay called Fear from my book Ghosts of Parenting. This is a conversation about how fear quietly reshapes parenting over time, especially as children grow older and begin to move further into the world. We talk about waiting, watching, loving without control, and how fear becomes less about panic and more about staying connected to what matters most.

Vigilance Podcast: I wrote an essay called Vigilance, from the book Ghosts of Parenting. This podcast is a conversation about what it is like to always be half listening as a parent, the constant background awareness that never fully switches off, even on ordinary days when nothing seems to be happening.

Repetition Podcast: This is a podcast conversation based on an essay I wrote called Repetition, from Ghosts of Parenting. It sits inside the everyday reality of parenting, the things that keep returning, the same questions, the same moments, the same tired movements through the day. The conversation stays with what repetition feels like when parenting is lived across years rather than moments.

Responsibility Podcast: I wrote an essay called Responsibility, part of Ghosts of Parenting, and this podcast is a longer conversation about what responsibility in parenting feels like when it is lived day after day. The discussion explores how responsibility shows up quietly through attention, decision making, and constant awareness, how it sits inside ordinary moments, and how it changes shape o...

Arrival Podcast: I wrote an essay called Arrival, which is part of a series of essays from my book Ghosts of Parenting. In this podcast episode, the conversation stays with what arrival really feels like in parenting, not as a single beginning, but as something that keeps happening. We talk about how a child arrives into your life and then keeps arriving, in the morning, in the noise, in the ordin...

Ghosts of Emotions Podcast: This podcast episode is a conversation about Ghosts of Emotions, a book I wrote exploring the shape of emotions and how feelings move through everyday life. We talk about how emotions are often treated as single, fixed states, when in reality each one has different depths, durations, and ways of arriving. Joy, sadness, anger, fear, and numbness can all take multiple for...

When Clarity Thins the World Podcast: Here is a podcast conversation about an essay I wrote entitled “When Clarity Thins the World.” The conversation moves through the questions the essay opens, what happens after clarity lands, how passion changes, and why life can feel quieter once understanding arrives. It stays conversational, open, and grounded in lived experience rather than explanation.

Ghosts of Sex Podcast: This episode is a conversation about the book Ghosts of Sex, written by me. It moves through the themes that run across the book, including wanting, attachment, intensity, uncertainty, misalignment, and emotional exposure. The discussion follows how these experiences appear in different situations, how they overlap, and how they remain present beyond the moment in which they...

Exterior Axis Podcast: Here is a podcast reflection on an essay I wrote entitled Exterior Axis. This conversation stays with how the world acts on a life through constraint, consequence, latitude, and continuance, and what it means to recognise that without blame or false reassurance. We talk about why awareness matters, and why it is not the same as immunity. If you have felt the weight of things...

Who Am I Podcast: Here is a podcast reflection on an essay I wrote entitled Who Am I. This is a spoken exploration of how we come to identify with thought, how the body is often treated as secondary, and what happens when that structure loosens. The reflection stays close to lived experience and the physical shift many people feel when attention relocates from the head into the whole body. If you...

Shape of Love Podcast: Here is a podcast reflection on an essay I wrote entitled “Shape of Love.” I talk through the question of loving someone fully, while noticing how that love continues to expand with time, memory, and shared life. The conversation stays close to lived experience, the ordinary days, the returning, and what changes without needing to be named. If this question has ever stayed w...

Sorry Podcast: Here is a podcast reflection on an essay I wrote entitled “Sorry.” In this reflection, I speak about the quiet tension between holding on and moving forward, and how sometimes the most important shift happens before anything is resolved. The conversation stays close to that moment where action matters more than outcome, and where choosing to move can be enough. If you’ve been carryi...

It’s Not Fair Podcast: Here is a podcast reflection on an essay I wrote entitled “It’s Not Fair.” The conversation follows how unfairness is first recognised, how it settles into the body and attention, and how it quietly shapes the way people engage with authority, rules, and belonging. We stay with recognition rather than resolution, and with what people carry forward. If this theme feels famili...

Scars Podcast: Here is a podcast reflection on an essay I wrote entitled Scars. The conversation stays with how scars form, how they shape us, and how we recognise them in ourselves and in others. It does not revisit the injury, but looks at what life built around it. This is a quiet reflection on repair, boundaries, and what it means to continue.

Always Tired Podcast: Here is a podcast reflection on an essay I wrote entitled “Always Tired.” The conversation stays with how tiredness is lived, not just why it appears. We explore the relationship people have with being tired, including strength, carrying, and the quiet pressure to keep going. If tiredness has ever felt heavier than it should, this may speak to you.

I Give Up Podcast: I wrote an essay called ‘I Give Up’, and this podcast is a conversation around it. Have you ever put your arms in the air and said “I give up”? We stay close to that moment, and talk about what tends to sit underneath it. The conversation follows the weight, the release, and the honesty of reaching that point. If that sentence has ever been yours, this may resonate.

Out of Rhythm Podcast: I wrote an essay called ‘Out of Rhythm’, and this podcast is a conversation around it. Have you ever noticed how some relationships slowly pull you out of rhythm with yourself? We stay close to that experience, and talk about what happens when nothing is dramatic, but something keeps wearing you down. The conversation follows the noticing, the doubt, and the quiet shifts tha...

All of Me Podcast: This is a podcast reflection based on my essay 'All of Me'. It explores how we live through different roles and ways of being across our lives, the one who adapts, the one who leads, the one who stays quiet, the one who carries weight. Not as something to correct or outgrow, but as something that was learned through living. The podcast stays with the idea that these ways...

The Sound That Breaks Through Podcast: This is a podcast reflection based on my essay ‘The Sound That Breaks Through’. We talk about how sometimes we witness grief in ways that stay with us, the sound of sobbing, the scream of “no”, and what it does to the body when we are the ones standing there hearing it. The conversation stays close to those moments, not to explain them or move past them, but...

The Rock That Stayed Podcast: This podcast is based on an essay I wrote called ‘The Rock That Stayed’. It explores the people who hold steady without ever setting out to, not because they are stronger or louder, but because they stay when things get heavy. The reflection looks at what it really means to be someone’s rock, not as a label or a compliment, but as a way of being that forms over time t...

She Just Smiles Podcast: This is a podcast based on my essay ‘She Just Smiles’, exploring a moment many people recognise but rarely put into words. It centres on noticing older people pausing in public spaces to watch children at play, observing with a calm, knowing smile that does not intervene or ask anything of the moment. The podcast reflects on what sits behind that smile, how time changes th...

I Want to Cry and I Don’t Know Why Podcast: This podcast is a reflection based on the essay I Want to Cry and I Don’t Know Why. It explores a familiar but rarely spoken experience, the moment when your throat tightens, your chest feels heavy, and you feel like you might cry or scream, yet there is no clear reason for it. Nothing obvious has happened. No explanation arrives. The feeling is simply t...

Stuck in My Head Podcast: Most people already know they are overthinking. That’s often the most exhausting part. This podcast episode, Stuck in My Head, is based on an essay of the same name. The essay explores why the mind keeps looping, what that thinking is trying to protect, and why some things are heavier than thought alone can carry. The podcast stays close to the spoken voice, letting the i...