Ghosts: Essays in Conversation

The School Run Podcast: This is a podcast conversation based on my essay called “The School Run.” The discussion explores the quiet life of a familiar morning scene outside a primary school. What seems like an ordinary routine reveals a living moment filled with children, parents, grandparents, and teachers, each moving through their own chapter of life on the same stretch of pavement. It reflects...

Still Here Podcast: This is a podcast conversation based on my essays “Still Here” and “Box.” In this discussion we explore the quiet structure of everyday life, the rooms we wake in, the streets we walk, and the repeating patterns that slowly shape our days without asking for attention. The conversation follows the moment when something ordinary shifts, when a familiar street becomes a pattern, a...

The Pattern Does Not End With You Podcast: This is a podcast conversation based on my essay called “The Pattern Does Not End With You.” In this discussion, we explore why patterns in families and relationships often continue even when we recognise them and try to change. The conversation looks at how habits, reactions, and ways of being can live in the body and move across generations, raising a d...

The Arranger Podcast: This is a podcast conversation based on my essay called “The Arranger.” It explores the quiet role of the person who keeps relationships moving, the one who sends the messages, suggests the plans, and holds the thread of connection. The discussion looks at what happens when that movement stops, and how some relationships do not end through conflict, but simply fade when the p...

Why Some Things Do Not Resolve Podcast: This is a podcast conversation based on my essay called “Why Some Things Do Not Resolve.” In it, we explore the limits of the common belief that everything in life can be understood and eventually resolved through insight. The discussion moves between lived experience and a wider structural view of reality, asking what it means when some parts of a life neve...

The Exhaustion of Constant Availability Podcast: Here is a podcast conversation based on my essay called “The Exhaustion of Constant Availability.” It explores the quiet condition of living in a state of constant readiness, where rest no longer restores and stopping rarely feels complete. Through a deeper look at time, identity, and relationships, the conversation examines how availability slowly...

Escape Podcast: This is a podcast conversation based on my essay called "Escape." It explores the moment we realise there is no empty space left in our days, the temptation to sell up and start again somewhere warmer or slower, and why the real question is not where to live, but how to live inside the hours we already have.

I Could Eat You Podcast: This is a podcast conversation based on my essay called “I Could Eat You.” It explores the strange and deeply familiar impulse many parents feel to squeeze, bite, or “gobble up” the children they love most. Through stories, language, and lived experience, the discussion looks at how love sometimes reaches beyond words and shows itself through the body.

Wallpaper Podcast: This is a podcast conversation based on my essay called "Wallpaper". The discussion explores how memory and trauma can shape the surface of a life, and what happens when that surface begins to lift, revealing other moments that were always there but could not be seen while everything was held in one place. It is a quiet reflection on how the past lives in layers, and how recogni...

Machine Podcast: Here is a podcast conversation based on my essay called “Machine.” In this discussion, we explore the experience people describe when they say they feel like a machine, or when others describe them that way. The conversation looks at the quiet realities behind that language, reliability, continuation, emotional distance, and what can happen when someone keeps going long enough tha...

Darkness is Darkness Podcast: This is a podcast conversation based on my essay called "Darkness Is Darkness". The discussion explores the experience of living through long periods of hardship, loneliness, and misalignment with the world, and how some lives unfold through endurance rather than clear turning points. It looks at what it means to recognise those realities honestly and to name them wit...

Spin Worms Podcast: This is a podcast conversation based on my essay called “Spin Worms.” It explores a survival mechanism I built in my mind during difficult years, an imagined team of “Spin Worms” that worked quietly to spin harsh or absolute thoughts into something softer and survivable. The discussion reflects on how those internal structures helped keep me here, and how they still remain as t...

Miscarriage Podcast: This is a podcast conversation based on my essay called "Miscarriage". It reflects on the experience of something profound being given and then suddenly taken away, and the quiet sorrow that can follow when a future that had already begun disappears. The conversation explores how imagined tomorrows, identity, and love can form quickly around a life not yet here, and the lastin...

Luck Podcast: This is a podcast conversation based on my essay “Luck.” The discussion explores how luck appears in everyday life, from hospital waiting rooms to late-night parenting and the small rituals people use to face uncertainty. Through the lens of chance, timing, and uneven starting points, the conversation looks at how humans stay present with what they cannot control.

Trauma Is Unfinished Survival Podcast: Here is a podcast conversation based on my essay called “Trauma Is Unfinished Survival.” This deep-dive discussion explores trauma as something the body carries, not just something the mind remembers, and looks at how repair happens slowly through the completion of survival responses rather than through explanation or insight alone.

How the Body Mirrors Podcast: This podcast conversation is a deep-dive discussion based on my essay “How the Body Mirrors.” It explores how our bodies quietly absorb the emotional atmosphere around us, from relationships and work to everyday moments like walking through a supermarket. The conversation looks at how tension, calm, and mood move between people, often before we realise it.

Drugs Podcast: This conversation explores what actually changes inside us when substances shift the inner environment, not the experience itself, but the awareness that remains while thought, emotion, and identity reorganise. Through medication, stimulants, and everyday moments, it looks at how the mind loosens and what becomes visible when inner pressure softens. From The Ghosts Movement, this is...

Quality Timeless Podcast: This conversation explores why “quality time” often feels thin, even when we carve out the hours for it. It looks at how modern life fills our inner world with constant demands, leaving little room for time to be fully lived. From The Ghosts Movement, a non-profit exploring memory, presence, and lived experience.

I Will Die Podcast: A conversation from The Ghosts Movement exploring the moment when time becomes personal, not as an idea, but as something felt in the body. This episode follows the shift from knowing you will die to living with that awareness, and how it changes how you see yourself, the people you love, and the life you are still in. A grounded reflection on carrying your ending while continu...

Religion Podcast: A conversation from The Ghosts Movement exploring religion as a shared human encounter, where people across time have touched something beyond themselves and tried to bring it back into language, ritual, and community. It introduces the Realm as lived experience and the Pull as the quiet direction that continues through a life, while leaving space for the unknown that sits beyond...

Back Through the Door Podcast: A conversation from The Ghosts Movement exploring how memory returns through the body rather than the mind. It looks at how presence can appear through movement, familiar spaces, and the quiet re-entry into places we once knew. The episode stays with why some memories come back easily while others remain just out of reach.

Finding the Dot Podcast: We often think our experience begins with how we feel, anger, stress, calm, or overwhelm. In this conversation, we explore what comes before that, the moment something is first noticed. In The Ghosts Movement, this is called the dot. It shows up in everyday moments, in conversation, conflict, and quiet realisations, and is always present before reaction or story takes over...

What Sex Left Unanswered Podcast: This is a conversational podcast exploring my essay What Sex Left Unanswered from the book Ghosts of Sex. In the podcast we discuss the emotional territory that remains after sex has ended, the questions that linger without resolution, and the quiet uncertainty that can follow intimacy. We explore how encounters can open meaning without settling it, how significan...

When Sex Could Not Carry What Was Placed on It Podcast: This is a conversational podcast exploring my essay When Sex Could Not Carry What Was Placed on It from the book Ghosts of Sex. In the podcast we discuss the quiet expectations that are placed onto sex, the emotional weight it is sometimes asked to hold, and the moment of recognising that reassurance, continuity, or repair cannot be secured t...

The Quiet Shame of Wanting Again Podcast: This is a conversational podcast exploring my essay The Quiet Shame of Wanting Again from the book Ghosts of Sex. In the podcast we discuss the return of desire after experience, the private awareness of repeating emotional patterns, the tension between clarity and longing, and the subtle shame that can accompany wanting someone again while knowing how vul...