Full-Time Grievers

You get a text. It's probably fine. But somehow your whole body says, “I cannot deal with this right now…”. This minisode is for that moment: when your brain-on-grief meets your inbox and loses. In acute and active grief, our Executive bandwidth is heavily taxed. Attention, memory, decision-making, and language are all running on reduced capacity. So when a text comes in – even a well-meaning...

As a paramedic for over 15 years, and now as a sound therapist and Reiki practitioner – Karen Hollenbeck supports those near death and those having to survive their loved one’s death. She's also a fellow Full-Time Griever, navigating the death of two brothers, among others close to her, all passing within a few years. In this conversation, Karen and Nathan talk about what it's like to supp...

In this episode, Nathan describes the functional parallel between the experience of acute grief and the documented symptoms of traumatic brain injury. The cognitive fog. The bone-deep exhaustion. The emotional volatility, the strange relationship to time, the inability to make decisions or hold a conversation – all of it has a neurological basis. Drawing on the neuroscientific research of Mary-Fra...

Sometimes grief feels like reality glitched — and you’re the only one who noticed…  The Grief Confessionals is a new minisode format. Raw pieces of grief – written by real people and read without commentary or advice. Just truth being witnessed. In this first confessional, Nathan shares a reflection from “the Broken-Hearted Twin” on losing their brother, and the strange, persistent sense that real...

Grief doesn’t just hurt – it changes who we are. In this episode, Nathan names an experience most grievers have, but very few expect — after loss, you may not recognize yourself. Your values and priorities shift. Your capacity changes. Your motivation gets weird. Your sense of belonging rearranges. And on top of everything else, our culture pressures us to “get back to normal” – as if we’re suppos...

In this minisode of Full-Time Grievers, Nathan M. McTague offers a different approach — not a solution, not a lesson, but a gentle invitation to be with what’s already here. This is a quiet, grounding episode for anyone who needs permission to be with their grief, just as they are. You can listen while resting, walking, or going about your day — and return to it anytime you need a reminder that yo...

Grief is hard — and in many ways, our culture makes it harder than it needs to be. In this episode of Full-Time Grievers, Nathan M. McTague names ten common ways grieving in America is constrained, misunderstood, or actively complicated — from unrealistic expectations of emotional coherence, or platitudes offered instead of presence, to the pressure to “move on” or return to who you were before lo...

Reiki Master, Grief Specialist, Performance Artist, and former Full-Time Grievers CoHost, Selysa Love talks about stepping away from the show and what it took to honour herself and her own growth and healing above all else. To find out more about Selysa's work go here . To see Selysa's TEDx Talk go here . You can download your free grief journal ⁠ here ⁠. Send your Grief Confessional ⁠here...

A threshold episode. Honouring how we began and looking ahead to where Full-Time Grievers is going in Season 2 and beyond. The episode closes with a short grounding practice and a seasonal blessing for anyone moving through grief at the end of the year. You can download your free grief journal here . Send your Grief Confessional here . And contribute to the show here .

While the world turns up the sparkle, gatherings increase, and social media floods with picture-perfect celebrations, grief can feel more isolating than ever. In this episode, we explore: 💛 How to use the holidays as a potent time for grief work.  💛 Finding your balance between isolation stress and social overwhelm.  💛 The neurochemistry of connection — and how it can soften the season 💛 Permi...

Selysa and Nathan offer another session of journal prompts to support the listener in consciously attending to and expressing specific elements of grief. You can pause the episode and write along with each prompt, and/or pick and choose from the options throughout.  If you’ve been looking for ways to let more grieving  out, this is for you.  (Companion to episode 18.) Free Download: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠...

We’ve all said it — “I’m fine.” But what’s the real cost of staying “fine” when we’re not? In this episode, Nathan and Selysa explore the physical, emotional, and relational consequences of suppressed grief — the kind we avoid, bury, or rationalize away. Together, they unpack how grief gets stored in the body, why we sometimes can’t feel until it’s safe to, and how numbness becomes both protection...

We're back! Nathan and Selysa head into uncharted territory for many full-time grievers – actually having time set aside for grieving. Starting with the concept that writer and grief advocate, Rebecca Finegloss, calls Grieve Leave, and exploring the macro and micro opportunities from there for making time to be with our process, as well as the emotional terrain around it all – this episode is...

This is the second part of the conversation from episode 16 - You Don’t Owe Forgiveness, so Why Offer it?  When someone dies, anger often follows. We can find ourselves blaming doctors, family members, even God—or the person who died. In this episode, we talk about the messy, honest process of acknowledging blame, feeling the anger, and finding our way to forgiveness in grief.  Free Download: ⁠⁠⁠⁠...

What happens when the person you're grieving also hurt you? In this episode of Full-Time Grievers, Selysa shares her deeply personal experience navigating grief after ending abusive relationships—including with her parents—and the emotional complexity of mourning people who caused harm. Together with co-host Nathan, they explore what Selysa calls “forbidden grief,” the kind of mourning our cul...

If you're experiencing acute grief or struggling to process overwhelming emotions, this interactive journaling episode is for you. Selysa & Nathan will gently guide you through a process of identifying, validating, and expressing your feelings. We'll explore the physical manifestations of your emotions and conclude with a moment of comforting self-touch. Free Download: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ How to Re...

Not as a way to side-step or bypass our grief, but sometimes, even as we are allowing, fostering, and following our grieving process, we have moments of also getting to witness profound and moving beauty. Because these moments can happen in between, alongside, or even as a direct result of our mourning, in this episode Nathan and Selysa spend some time talking about how we can allow, welcome, and...

What if forgiveness isn’t something you owe — but something you offer to free yourself? In this episode, we explore forgiveness as a radical act of self-love, not a requirement to reconcile or tolerate mistreatment. We talk about what it means to forgive someone who has died, especially if the relationship was complicated or painful. We also dive into the tender process of forgiving yourself — for...

As a companion to Episode 4, Debunking the 5 Stages of Grief, Nathan and Selysa delve into other ways of relating to the different periods and processes in grieving. Drawing from the three intervals and four orientations described in Conscious Grieving by Claire Bidwell Smith, as well as Psychologist J. William Worden’s “4 Tasks of Mourning” framework. A highly useful resource in orienting to your...

This episode can help prepare you, the griever, for the inevitable drop in support that will likely happen within six months of your loved one passing away. What do you do when your support system has run out of capacity, but you are still grieving? 1. Kindly communicate that you are still grieving, including boundaries around your time and commitments.  2. Get the support you need in a long term...

Most of us received childhood gender socialization: we were assigned a gender at birth, and we were trained to behave in accordance with that gender’s rules and expectations. Selysa and Nathan unpack the research (and lack thereof) of how this gender conditioning affects the grieving process in individuals, heterosexual couples, and queer relationships.  Free Download: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ How to Receive Su...

Send this episode to your loved ones who are supporting you while you grieve. Don’t know what to say to someone who is grieving? You don’t need you to. They just need you to be there. Sound easier said than done? Then give this episode a listen.  Nathan and Selysa discuss the harm of platitudes, why it's important to bring up the person who passed away, how to identify and meet the needs of th...

Have you ever lost someone you loved, but your relationship was far from perfect?  This episode delves into the painful and complex experience of grieving a complicated relationship, whether marked by estrangement, abuse, or a final, devastating argument. We explore the emotional rollercoaster of grief in these circumstances, acknowledging the guilt, anger, and confusion that can arise. We'll...

Grief isn't a temporary chapter; it's a lifelong companion that constantly evolves. In the immediate aftermath, it can feel like a demanding  120-hour-per-week job. For the rest of your days, you may feel a new form of presence with  your departed. Processing your sadness is the key to rediscovering joy and finding meaning in a world that feels irrevocably altered. Join us as we explore th...

In this episode, Selysa and Nathan explore the profound and enduring connection that exists between the living and the deceased through the infinite power of love. This special episode features a guided meditation by Selysa, designed to help you deepen your connection with your departed loved ones through your shared bond of unconditional love. This meditation is most suitable for those who have p...