Coming Back Online

For years, I thought I was trying to escape stress, anxiety, boredom, and pain. What I eventually realized was that I was trying to escape myself. In this episode of Coming Back Online, I talk about what happened after quitting weed, why recovery was never just about substances, and what it means to slowly rebuild trust in yourself after years of numbing, distracting, and disconnecting. We talk ab...

In this episode, we’re talking about one of the most powerful shifts you can make in your life — learning to focus on what you can actually control. We live in a world full of noise, unpredictability, and other people’s behavior, and most of it is completely out of our hands. But how you take care of your mind, your body, and your habits? That’s yours. I get personal in this one — talking about my...

In this episode, I’m responding directly to comments and messages from people going through all kinds of struggles—grief, divorce, depression, feeling stuck, feeling empty, and wondering what’s missing in their lives. We talk about the importance of listening to your body, paying attention to the signals your life is giving you, and being honest about what’s helping you and what’s holding you back...

In this episode, I’m answering some questions and messages I’ve been getting on social media about sobriety, healing, and what actually helped me quit smoking weed after struggling with it for a long time. I talk about some of the things that helped me personally, but also why recovery isn’t the same for everybody. What works for one person might not work for someone else. A big part of the proces...

This is the first video episode of Coming Back Online — a podcast about long-term weed use, dependence, sobriety, mental clarity, and trying to reconnect with yourself after years of feeling disconnected. In this episode, I open up about what originally got me started smoking weed, how it slowly became part of my identity and everyday life, and the complicated relationship I developed with it over...

This episode is honestly just me talking. No heavy editing. No perfect structure. Just a real conversation about my history with weed, dependency, creativity, comfort, escape, and the role it played in my life for a long time. I grew up around it. A lot of my friends smoked. It became part of hard times, good times, relationships, routines… life. But I also started dealing with serious stomach iss...

In this episode, I talk about a side of addiction that doesn’t get enough attention—the kind that doesn’t destroy your life overnight, but slowly keeps you stuck. After watching Anonymous People and reflecting on my own journey, I started to see addiction differently. Not just as something that causes chaos, but something that can quietly hold you back from becoming who you’re meant to be. This ep...

What if the thing you’ve been using to feel better… is actually what’s making you sick? In this episode, we unpack Cannabinoid Hyperemesis Syndrome (CHS) — a paradoxical condition where chronic cannabis use can lead to severe nausea, stomach pain, and cycles of physical distress. But this isn’t just about CHS. We go deeper into the mind–gut connection, the rise of high-potency THC, and how the bod...

For over 20 years, weed was a constant part of my life. In this episode, I share why I finally decided to walk away from it — and the surprising backlash I’ve received online for talking openly about my experience. Some people have reached out with gratitude, saying they feel the same way and want their clarity back. Others have gotten defensive or angry. And that reaction made me realize somethin...

In this episode of Coming Back Online, I share a deeply personal conversation about long-term cannabis use, Cannabinoid Hyperemesis Syndrome (CHS), and the connection between gut health, anxiety, and emotional regulation. For years, I didn’t fully understand why my body felt off — stomach issues, nervous system dysregulation, anxiety spikes, and periods where I just didn’t feel like myself. What I...

For 26 years, weed was part of my identity. I started smoking at 15. It felt cool. It felt freeing. It felt like it helped me cope. But somewhere along the way… it stopped working. In this episode, I talk honestly about my experience with long-term cannabis use — how it changed over the years, how the potency feels different now, the questions around pesticides and chemicals, and the severe stomac...

In this episode, I share my personal experience with long-term weed use and the symptoms I went through that resembled Cannabinoid Hyperemesis Syndrome (CHS). I want to be clear — I was never officially diagnosed. This is not medical advice. This is simply my lived experience. After more than 25 years of using weed, I noticed patterns in my body, my motivation, my energy, and my overall quality of...

For a long time, I used weed to cope. It started as a way to feel less, to quiet my mind, to escape the weight of things I didn’t know how to process yet. Over time, what felt like relief slowly turned into numbness — and I didn’t even realize how disconnected I had become from myself, my purpose, and the life I wanted. In this first episode of Coming Back Online, I share the real story behind my...