Becoming Miriam Podcast

I know I've been full of sadness and maybe the podcast has become that. So I wanted to switch it up and share some major highlights over the last few months that have kept me sane. Most of them, or at least my favorite moments, have been related to the love of my life, The Weeknd. So here is a summary of some happy moments I've had through this dark path. :) 

I'm not gonna lie to you all, I was kind of just rambling here so idk if any of this made any sense. I think I was just kind of projecting my insecurities and feelings of not being important in peoples live. I completely understand that others have their whole lives and cannot be fully invested in me and my healing journey, just as I don't have it in me to be FULLY invested in theirs. I do my best...

Man! Thank GOODNESS the holidays are over! Sadly though that hasn't made anything better for me in regard to my mental health. In fact, your girl is feeling worse than ever LOL. But I'm at least moving in the right direction where I can recognize that I cannot just stay in avoidance state forever, I know I need to get back into therapy soon. Anywhoooo, hope you all are doing wonderful and happy ne...

You don't understand the madness my brain has been through trying to upload episode three since my return. LOL I swear I've recorded like 10 takes and scrapped them all. So here's the quickest update on the podcast regarding videos and I'll just try again in the new year (which is literally this weekend that is wild). 

Anime and RDCWorld1 have been my biggest support system through this depression! Here's the story on how they come together for the DREAM Convention and how not getting tickets lead to a big cry. 

I guess I'm back. I wasn't sure I would ever come back after the last few months. But maybe it can be a good distraction for me lol. I'm not sure the direction the podcast will take. In all honestly, it may not be the most positive place to be. But I guess we'll find out together if you choose to stick around again lol.  But one fun update is I'm trying out video again! Video should be availa...

sorry for the ugly crying Lolol

Lets chat current events... Well, I meant to chat about these as they were more current but turns out any little disruption in my routine totally throws my life in shambles. LOL I chat about important subjects like Roe V. Wade, to less important subjects like the Kardashians and music I'm excited about.  Follow me in IG: @becomingmiriampodcast

Alright so even though I was only supposed to give you a quick overview of several thing's I've been thinking about, somehow I ended up going way more into detail on my silly dating experiences. Here is how it went down and how I've determined it is just not my time to actively get into dating.  Follow me on IG: @becomingmiriampodcast

Here's what has been going on in my mind since I've been away! Basically I am now to a point where I want to really get refocused and begin actively working toward my goals of self-growth. For so long I was stuck in survival mode just trying to get through each day that when I was finally freed from that struggle, I let the days just keep passing me by (not a bad thing). But now I think it is a go...

Here is my breakdown and interpretation on the Five Love Languages. In my own words and opinions, I feel the love languages should extend past only romantic relationships and should be considered in any relationship (family, friends, professional, romantic). I also discuss my thoughts on the importance and effectiveness of understanding the love languages.  Follow me on Instagram: @becomingmi...

Let me walk you through my most recent weekend which included a random Sad Girl day. I'm learning to accept these days and know that they don't mean I'm not making progress. 

Possible trigger warning: Eating Disorder.  I've been having pretty mixed feelings about some accidental progress I've made when it comes to my weight loss. Just wanted to share my thoughts and maybe prompt others to think about possible situations before unknowingly praising peoples weight loss. Ehh.. I'm pretty conflicted about the whole thing so let me know what you think about it all.&nbs...

Lets go down memory lane and review the beautiful concerts I've attended! 

For some reason it feels a little weird being vulnerable this time around, not sure why. But my lack of self-confidence is definitely a struggle I have been dealing with for as long as I can remember. 

If you listen to this episode, you're agreeing to a non disclosure agreement (if you my coworker) lol. In all seriousness, I use this podcast almost like a diary. I mean no harm or negative intentions but I do want to continue to be transparent and vulnerable about how I'm feeling. I ask you understand that and respect my ask to keep my feelings confidential. 

Guess who was finally persuaded to download a dating app..... Here's how day one has gone. 

To be clear, these are MY personal opinions and experiences with religion and the church. They are valid just as your beliefs and experiences are also valid :)! Any who, listen to me roast the church LOL. Also, correction! After recorded I verified my point about the finances and had misunderstood when the guy called to the church. He was told he didn’t pay for the baptism, he simply made a donati...

I meant to give you all an update about my wisdom tooth surgery, and somehow ended up telling you about my social media handle journey... If anyone can lock down MonsterMIRIAM on IG for me, I'll love you forever. lol

Guess what's going on in my life this week. Welp, big thing is I have to get this dang wisdom tooth taken out. 

Once upon a time I said I would try online dating in 2022, thinking I had several months to get my life together before then. Then 2022 arrived.... Let's talk about some of my concerns about online dating and getting into a relationship in general. As well as some rules I should establish for if and when I do get on the apps!

I have all the love in my heart to give out, but not always show that through certain actions. I've learned to accept myself where I am so I don't feel bad if I'm perceived as a bad friend, I'm simply prioritizing myself. AKA I’m the worst friend ever LOL

What a way to bring in 2022! 

This wasn't supposed to turn into another vent session about my mental health providers butttttt here we are. I'm debating breaking up with yet another therapist. Then after that story, I'll get a little more serious and tell you guys about an interaction I had with Steven's sisters... It's also his birthday. Happy Birthday Steven, you should be here. And I am so sorry that you are not. 

Finally I've broken down what I've learned about ADHD and how I feel it impacts and effects my personal life. My hope is to give a deeper understanding to others on what this neurodevelopmental disorder can look like. Disclaimer of course, I am not a professional! This is just what I have learned so far and my understanding of it.