Ayahuasca Integration Podcast

The Four Movements of Surrender: ( DOWNLOAD HERE: https://ayahuascaintegration.org/four-movements-of-surrender What if the life you built is not wrong, but simply too small for who you are becoming? What if Ayahuasca is not asking you to understand more, prepare more, or control the ceremony better, but to surrender more completely to what is already trying to move through you? In this episode, I...

Before you listen: grab the free 12 Dimensions of Wholeness Self-Enquiry Form — the exact tool we reference in this episode for getting honest with yourself before ceremony. 📥 [Download it free here → https://ayahuascaintegration.org/12-dimensions-of-wholeness Most conversations about Ayahuasca focus on one night — the ceremony. But after years of facilitating retreats, we've found that real,...

Imagine living your dream life — and then Ayahuasca shows you it's all going to burn to the ground. This is the most personal story I've ever shared. A story about love, identity, control, betrayal, and collapse. The relationship I thought would become my future family. The dream house. The animals I loved like children. The success. The identity I had spent years constructing. Suddenly a...

In the world's largest study of ayahuasca for depression and anxiety, the results are stunning: 1. ​ 78%  of people with depression reported major improvement or full resolution. ​2. Nearly  one in three  said their depression was completely gone. ​3. For anxiety?  70%  showed significant improvement. But what's even more fascinating is the  new model of healing  the scientists uncovered....

Why are you feeling worse after the Ayahuasca ceremony? You came for healing. Now you feel off. Angry. Disconnected. What felt clear in ceremony feels far away. This is where many people start doubting the process. In this episode, we break down the three real reasons this happens. What is actually being activated. Why the experience doesn’t hold once you’re back in your life. And how to work with...

Called to be of service with your medicine? This is a new series on the Ayahuasca Integration Podcast called Sacred Service . Alongside our regular weekly episodes, I share short teachings from the work I do with students who feel called to bring their healing, their voice, and their medicine into service. The dream behind this series is that more unique spiritual leaders step forward. People who...

What if the fear of spiritual parasites isn’t irrational… but incomplete? In this episode, I take you into a moment in ceremony where I felt something on my body that I could not remove. Not with breath. Not with force. Not with will. And what became clear in that moment changed how I understand this work completely: you don’t remove what’s feeding. you close what’s open. We go into what people ca...

What Happens When Ayahuasca Shows You Something You're Not Ready to See? ...Maybe you just walked out of ceremony carrying something you didn't ask for. ...Maybe it was about someone you love. ...Maybe it was so big, so confusing, or so threatening that part of you has been trying to put it back ever since. This episode is for that moment. In this podcast, David Vox shares two times the me...

You came home from ceremony changed — but the life that was waiting for you didn't know that yet. In this episode, we walk through the four essential dimensions of integration: the physical, the emotional, the mental, and the spiritual. In this episode you'll discover: 🌿 What integration actually means — and why the Latin root of the word holds the key to everything 🌍 The Physical Direct...

Is humanity healing — or is it falling apart? Right now the world feels like it's burning. And maybe it is. But what if that's not the tragedy we think it is? What if we're not dying — but in labor? Tina "Kat" Courtney has sat with thousands of people at their most vulnerable self. As one of the very few Western women traditionally trained as an Ayahuasca shaman in the Shipib...

What happens when the most profound healing in your life doesn't come from a therapist, a spiritual teacher, or even ayahuasca — but from an animal? Did you also have a deep relationship with an animal that felt like so much more than just "an animal"? This episode dives into the medicine of our animal allies and explores why they are essential guides in trauma healing — beyond what...

Do you feel broken beyond repair? Have you come home from an ayahuasca ceremony carrying something so profound you have no idea how to integrate it into your everyday life? Are you navigating a dark night of the soul—that terrifying space where everything you thought you knew has crumbled, leaving only confusion, fear, and the raw possibility of transformation? This episode is for anyone who has s...

You drink ayahuasca and suddenly you feel a collapse of your own self. The life you have built — studies, work, relationships, identity — cannot hold the person you are becoming. You touch your life’s calling, your authentic energy, your deeper capacity, and everything that is not aligned begins to fall away. The ceremony ends, but the real work starts after. What feels like your identity breaking...

What if the pain you are trying to heal is not yours to carry? Imagine drinking ayahuasca for your own healing and suddenly finding yourself face to face with your father’s shame, your grandmother’s unresolved pain, or your great-grandfather’s grief from a war you never lived through. For many people, ayahuasca does not work only on a personal level. It opens the lineage. In this episode, I speak...

Feeling the call to be of service? This episode is for you. If you have done a few ayahuasca retreats, you know the shift. You entered the medicine path for your own healing, and somewhere along the way a seed starts growing: “I want to give back. I want to support others.” That impulse can be real, clean, and sacred. It can also get tangled in performance, spiritual identity, and the need to be l...

What happens when you drink and touch real light, but you don’t integrate it? The vessel cracks. The current keeps coming, and what could have become wisdom turns into overload, inflation, chaos, or collapse. Today I’m sharing one of the most important lessons on the medicine path: the light can be so strong that it becomes difficult to hold. Ayahuasca, breathwork, and deep spiritual practices can...

Inner child integration is a practical return to inner power, self-trust, and coherence. In this episode, I share a medicine dream from my fiancé during the COVID period. In the dream he is a child with white angel wings, free and light. Every time he lies to someone else or to himself, a feather falls out. Over time the wings become bare, and adulthood arrives without lift, without movement, with...

Most people don't fail at transformation. They stall at expression. In this episode, we go straight to where integration becomes real: your gifts. Not your skills or credentials. Your natural way of being—what moves through you when you stop performing. We look at why sharing your gift often feels threatening, how fear protects it by delaying it, and how the "golden shadow" forms whe...

Many people come to ayahuasca to receive medicine for their own healing. Fewer are prepared for being called to serve. Because what happens when the medicine is no longer something you only drink in ceremony, but something you start living with day by day? When it begins shaping how you move through the world, how you relate, and how you show up? After ten years on the ayahuasca path, I’ve watched...

Your first home was the heart. Before language. Before identity. Before effort. This guided meditation takes you inward, through the layers of the heart, into the rhythm that existed before memory. You are guided to reconnect with the maternal heartbeat, the ancestral feminine line, and the inner masculine energy that protects and carries. The meditation moves through descent, remembrance, integra...

Are you hiding your gifts after Ayahuasca? Many people leave ceremony with insight, clarity, and energy—yet struggle when their gifts begin asking to be lived. This episode goes straight into that moment of truth. At a certain point in the integration journey, healing is no longer the work. Expression is. Your gifts want space. Your light wants movement. And as that light grows, the shadow doesn’t...

Did you know that we all play games in healing and transformational work? You have seen how healing turns into performance. How spiritual language starts replacing actual change. How people adopt identities that are not lived in daily life. How strong reactions appear in ceremony spaces without being understood. These are integration games. They are recurring patterns that show up when experiences...

Ayahuasca can show you the truth. But it cannot live it for you. In this episode, I speak about the part of integration that’s rarely named and often avoided: the quiet, daily cost of self-betrayal. The small lies. The compromises. The feathers that fall every time we abandon what we know is true. This is not about ceremony, visions, or peak experiences. It’s about what happens after. When the med...

If you’re navigating the complexities of Ayahuasca healing and you find yourself moving too fast on your path — pushing, improving, “doing the work,” yet still feeling that quiet internal pressure — this episode goes right to the heart of why. Because that pressure isn’t random. It’s the signature of a part of you that’s been left behind. In this episode, we explore the core mistake almost everyon...

Ayahuasca healing can transform your life in unexpected ways. In this episode, we explore the profound journey beyond trauma—that moment when healing shifts from repair to remembering the innate gifts you've always carried. With over a decade and more than a hundred ayahuasca ceremonies behind me, I share how this medicine revealed the hidden strengths and abilities within me, gifts I never kn...