At a Total Loss

HEADS UP: This episode speaks about having a living baby after loss. Sarah from episode 24 is back to chat with me about our experiences in this phase of loss life with a 4 month and 6 month old. This is uncharted territory for both of us and we have mutually felt that there is not much being said in the loss community about how challenging it is to have a living baby after loss. We want to tell y...

Amanda from Episode 12 is back! She talks about her recent efforts in DC to create awareness around stillbirth prevention and making moves to stop it. With the organization, Measure the Placenta, she hopes to help make some change in our prenatal healthcare in the US.  She is a wealth of knowledge on this subject and you will learn so much listening to her. This is for anyone that needs light shed...

Camila is a surrogate Loss Mom who experienced a full term stillbirth. In this episode we discuss her experiences with her surrogacy, the weight it put on her and her family and the preventable death of the baby that she was carrying. We talk about how her grief manifested, her relationship with the biological parents, and her calling to join advocacy and prevention efforts with PUSH for Empowered...

Andrea is the mother of 6 children. Her 5th baby, her beautiful daughter, Terra, died at 38 weeks in July of 2021. Terra's two vessel cord has not been to blame but Andrea wonders why there isn't more research on this. We discuss Andrea's experiences with loss & grief.  She has since had another daughter after Terra and is coming up for air getting the help she needs. We talk very openly about the...

Y'all asked and I'm answering! I polled my IG audience to see what topics you wanted me to address.  So it's just lil ole me on the mic giving you my perspective. Please note that I am not a professional, I'm just a loss mom who has had A LOT of conversations with professionals and other moms. Here to help! What I talk about: The months after the trenches Trying to Conceive and seeing Negative tes...

Jessica Correnti has been a Certified Child Life Specialist for 15+ years. Jessica's daughter, Maggie, was stillborn at 22 weeks nearly 7 years. She is the author of Forever Connected , a children’s book for bereaved siblings, and The ABCs of Grief , which will be released in Fall 2023. Jessica is the founder and owner of Kids Grief Support, a private practice that provides virtual and in-person s...

Maria lost her first son Rylen James Laxer on October 12, 2022 due to an umbilical cord accident. Maria was 39 weeks pregnant & her world was completely shattered.  She is doing the work in order to pick up the pieces.  The day Maria came home from the hospital without Rylen, she put on a bracelet with his name & felt instantly more connected with him. From that moment on, she designed jewelry tha...

Holly is a mother of 4 children: her 3  girls and her son Harry, who was born still on January 31, 2023. Holly is unapologetically navigating this loss life how she wants to just 8 months after his death. She has put in the work to make the best of the new life she is stuck with now, one where she can be happy and honor her son. She is a ball of positive energy, and I think it radiates through the...

Kelly is a mom to 2 living children and her son Owen, who died in January 2021 at 38 weeks after a placental abruption. To honor Owen, Kelly created #OwensLight to share his story and support her initiative to create and donate birthday cake kits to celebrate his birthday. The support group, SHARE has been instrumental in her grief journey and pregnancy after loss. She is currently working with ot...

Sarah is behind the rainbow skirt that you may have seen on social media, Project Finding Your Rainbow. She is a mother to three living children and a daughter, Jasmine, who died before she was born in 2018. This skirt has been worn by almost 300 loss mommas to celebrate their rainbow babies. The community she has created has helped so many. We also touch on the subject of gender disappointment an...

Alissa lost her first daughter, Anna, in 2018 to a placental abruption that almost took her life too. She talks about her experiences not only losing her daughter but also almost losing her own life. The changes that happened after and the magnitude of the experiences have shaped her in every way.   We discuss: Parenting after loss Kind nurses that are angels The impact of our experiences on our p...

Charmell is an IVF Warrior whose first child, Harper, died and was stillborn just a few months ago. I found Charmell's the way she speaks of her loss and copes inspiring. She loves to use her life and faith to motivate women all over the world with what she called Moments with Mell. Moments with Mell is just a transparent, sneak peak into her everyday life with hopes of encouraging others. Charmel...

Nicole is the momma of two. A 3 year old son on Earth and her daughter, Cameron, in heaven. An unrecognized virus spread throughout older son’s daycare class a week prior to Cameron’s birth. She was born via C-section at 35+2 but was not showing signs of sickness. Cameron was admitted to NICU for monitoring. She lived for 29 days and passed from Enterovirus. Nicole and her husband have started "Pl...

Emily's first and only child Oliver died and was stillborn just 6 months ago at the time of this recording. The cause is still unknown. While she finds peace in not knowing, she does want to investigate further as she hopefully navigates pregnancy after loss in the near future. Emily talks about what happened, the casualness of her care, knowing now what we didn't know then, and how she is preppin...

Kelsey, Patrick's Momma from Episode 2, is back to discuss a topic that is near and dear to both of us: Baby weight and body image after loss. This is a taboo subject where so many feel like, after the stillbirth of their baby, they aren't allowed to be uncomfortable in their skin, to see someone different in the mirror, to have more weight and no baby. But we're here to smash the stigma that it's...

Amy and I connected on Instagram shortly after her first and only child, Carter, was stillborn in July 2022. She is a total grief vibe as she still laughs, experiences joy and deals with her grief and coping in a way that is her own. Never receiving answers as to what happened to Carter, she has entered into pregnancy after loss. She has decided to relinquish control in some way and trust that thi...

This episode is incredible. Nikki talks to me about her beautiful baby Skye who died from a severe and rare disorder called Meckel-Gruber Syndrome. It is only passed to the baby if both parents are carriers. Upon hearing this news, Nikky and her husband decided not to have biological children moving forward, as the chances are high that it will happen again. Nikky talks about her journey through h...

Dr Heather Florescue is an OBGYN in Rochester, NY and works at Women’s Gynecology and Childbirth Associates. Her passion is caring for families who experience pregnancy loss and stillbirth awareness and prevention. Dr Florescue is championing for major change in the prevention of stillbirth and she alone seems to be the only one in her field. I am hopeful after hearing her speak, others will want...

The ladies from the 1st three episodes of At a Total Loss are back to tackle some popular topics regarding loss. If you didn't listen to their first episodes, Liz is Harrisons mom who was born over a year and a half ago. Kelsey is Patricks momma who was born still 4 years ago, and Sarah is the other Brody's momma who was stillborn 3.5 years ago.  They all have gone on to have "rainbow" babies and...

Sydney & I met up here in Atlanta to talk about her beautiful first born child, Leighton, who died at 39 weeks from a 4x nuchal cord on October 17, 2022. This is an extremely rare event, and unlike a lot of stories on this podcast, was not preventable. Sydney opens up about how this has altered her whole world and the choices she's had to make to keep moving forward. We are friends here in Atlanta...

Welp, y'all asked for it, so I'm givin it to ya! I've had some requests to tell my story, all the way back to my dancin days & what exactly happened to Brody. You could probably piece it all together on my IG but no one has time for that. So here is my story in my own words, the beginning of it at least. In this episode, I talk about how we got here. I laugh at myself, I cry, I curse, I rant, I ch...

Mim, Lenny & Bhai's mom, is back to catch up on what has happened since she came on Episode 18. Since then she has raised awareness about baby loss by cycling the length of New Zealand with her husband Roy, shot a film that she is submitting to all the major festivals, and started a training program for health care providers that will help improve the bereavement care of parents after their baby d...

Nathalie is a mother of twins, one here on earth and to the other, A'mya who died just days after birth 11.5 years ago. Since then, Nathalie has parented both of them the best she can while learning about her own grief. She is a holistic counsellor and coach as well as a writer and published author of multiple grief resource books and the founder of the Grieving Parents Support Network. This conve...

THIS episode is SO good, we NEED this convo ASAP. Ashton from Episode 29 is back to talk about TRIGGERS & what it means to manage them. She is a Loss Momma as well as  a certified transformational life coach and mentor for those looking for guidance in creating their version of success and fulfillment. This episode is excellent for those trying to navigate communication, relationships, going back...

I'm changing it up! This episode will not be centered around loss but more so about life after loss. Sarah from Episode 3 joins me to discuss what the Loss Life looks like! Things are different now, but that doesn't mean we still can't enjoy things, seek out fun, & laugh a lot. Sarah is the perfect example of this being 3 years out from losing her son.  Death of our babies alters us, we are a diff...