At a Total Loss

Courtney's precious Conrad was born still after a seemingly perfect pregnancy. Her journey to this point is super insightful and extremely raw. We chat about literally everything in this episode. No really, like, wanna hear 2 loss moms just going IN on this whole situation, this is the episode. Does it sound like we're ranting? GOOD because we are and we are allowed to. Most *normal* mothers do th...

Bri's daughter Caroline was diagnosed with a rare form of CHD called Ebstein’s Anomaly. Living in Sacramento, her and her husband moved to Stanford to ensure she received the best possible care. After Caroline was born, she spent 27 days fighting for her life until ultimately passing away peacefully in her mother's arms. Among her diagnoses it was also found that she had Pallister-Killian Syndrome...

Loss of relationships is a HUGE topic after  baby death. In this episode, I break down the 4 categories of family & friend relationship loss that I see and hear about all the time. 1) People who choose to exit your life 2) Toxic people who you choose to separate from 3) Good intentioned people who just don't see your loss the same 4) Awesome people whose stage of life is too hard to be around. I b...

I'm tackling the topic of having to make decisions after loss. While some don't think this is an issue, Loss Moms find it to be a massive one. Especially when it comes to PAL, babies, loved ones, & anything having to do with choices.  \Loss changes us radically. So much so that everything becomes a matter of life & death even if it's a casual situation. The weight of having to make choices is almo...

Sharon's life changed forever with the tragic death of Matthew, her only child, when he was just 17 years old. She felt she had no purpose and became angry and lost. She then consulted with many mediums and received validating messages, proving that Matthew was still “alive” and was helping from the other side. Sharon realized that we all have the natural ability to communicate with our loved ones...

For Edlyn, lightning has struck twice: Her first son, Emiliano, was born still 6 years ago. And just 2 years ago, her daughter Avianna died at just 5 months old. She tells us their stories and how she has dealt with such incredible pain and heartbreak, as well as, the tremendous blame she puts on herself. Her perspective is inspiring and for anyone who needs a reminder of how to keep going, Edlyn...

Serena joins me to talk about her beautiful son, Christopher who died from Cord Stricture just one year ago. We talk about signs from him and the strong connection she has. Serena believes that we are all intuitive we just have to pay attention and recognize it. The signs from Christopher that she tells me about are WILD y'all. You have to listen! I think once our baby dies, we still feel so conne...

Anna joins me to talk about her beautiful daughter Evie, who was born still after a uterine abruption. Anna's pregnancies have been extremely high risk and accepting that it was ultimately too dangerous to carry again, she decided to contact a surrogate, or in this case a gestational carrier. She explains to us the complicated journey of finding one and going through the entire process.  We hope t...

Dr. Jason Collins is the founder of the Pregnancy Institute.  His career and passion has focused on stillbirth, umbilical cord accidents and umbilical cord pathology.  Dr. Collins has been researching cord issues and deaths for over 20 years. His professional opinions come from evidence based facts, which you will hear throughout this entire episode. He continues his research into these tragic los...

Ashley and I are in the Atlanta studio to talk about her precious son Daniel who died from a cord accident and was born still in April 2023. As she approaches his first birthday, she talks about how her grief has evolved, her faith and how she decided to plan a golf tournament in Daniel's name.  What we discuss: Regretting the decision not to have a funeral/memorial service Not knowing how to answ...

Lindsey M. Henke is a licensed clinical social worker and psychotherapist specializing in the grief that accompanies life transitions, specifically during motherhood. She founded Pregnancy After Loss Support (PALS), a nonprofit for parents pregnant after a previous perinatal loss or infant death. Her writing has been featured on TODAY.com and in Pregnancy and Newborn magazine, Huffington Post, and...

Liz's son, Harrison, was stillborn at full term. She joins me in discussing her experiences in her workplace with maternity leave policy and what that looked like. When she found that the terms were not even in place for mothers who didn't get to bring their baby home, she did a ton of research and went to bat for herself and her son, Harrison. She gives some recommendations on how you too can app...

In this episode, I answer your questions and concerns regarding your baby's birthday. I also give perspective on the difference in Brody's 1st Birthday and his 2nd that we just experienced yesterday. Along with all of this, I read to you some examples of what other parents do on their baby's birthday to help give you some ideas or to help normalize what you'd like to or are already doing. It's a t...

At the request of many, Liz and I created this short episode to share with those in your circle. We answer your Instagram submissions on what you want others to know. So many times support people just have no idea how to navigate this and in the thick of grief, loss parents don't have the words to tell them. Well, we hope that this episode can be shared with those that are looking for ways to help...

Liz (from episode 1 and 30) is back to discuss this taboo topic of "Gender Disappointment" during PAL. This is a topic we get asked about A LOT. Now, I don't love this phrase but it's general and we understand what it means without further explanation. I'd like to say it's more like Gender Processing because there's definitely a reaction to having the opposite sex of the baby you lost. We dive int...

Amanda Louder is a Certified Sex & Marriage Coach who helps men & women overcome their obstacles to create a more emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and physically intimate relationship.  She speaks from her own Christian faith lens for those who want to involve their Christianity in their coaching.  We discuss a topic that I feel doesn't get addressed: Intimacy after loss and the challenges it b...

You asked and I'm answering! Y'all submitted questions and topics on Instagram and here's what I'm covering in this episode: New Years resolutions are sh*t now. Not setting goals and making plans much anymore How conversations with Loss Moms are soooo different than non loss My downloadable survival guides coming soon! I go off on a leaf blower tangent Answering your questions: “Getting past carin...

This momma's beautiful daughter was stillborn in 1985. Her perspective ranges over 40 years and she gives insight on what she did and didn't do over the years. We talk about shame behind stillbirth, fear of telling people about them, bringing them through the years and trying to honor them privately.   This is incredible insight from a momma who has done this for decades. If you are a momma who lo...

Brody's dad, my husband Michael is back to answer questions that we polled from Instagram. This is the perspective of a loss dad and you will hear our back and forth regarding how differently we feel and think in grief, coping, PAL and parenting after loss.  Michael also has 3 other episodes: one right after Brody's death, one about TTC and PAL, and the most recent is about holidays after loss. Ch...

Casey tells us about her beautiful daughter, Charlotte, who was stillborn at 39 weeks from what she feels was a failed induction. She walked into the hospital with a perfectly healthy baby, was heavily monitored but ended up leaving  heartbroken without her daughter. It’s been over 2 years and Casey now hopes to find other loss moms that share her experience of losing her daughter during labor. If...

I figured today was heavy for a lot of us so I asked Andrea, Terra's Mom, from episode 59 to hop on a quick recording with like 2 hours notice. I scrapped my whole plan for this week and just wanted a conversation that might be entertaining for those who may need it. We do cover baby death as we both had full term stillbirths and miss our babies tremendously but we have given ourselves "permission...

Brody's Dad, my husband Michael is back in the studio with me to discuss the upcoming holidays. This is the second holiday season after loss for us and we discuss how different they are from last year's. Michael and I are very different, even in our style of communicating. So this is helpful for those that want to maybe get a glimpse of what their partner may be thinking. What else we discuss: Tri...

Lauren tells us about her beautiful boy, Austin, who died at 38 weeks from a cord compression. Her way of accepting what has happened has brought her peace which she explains in this episode. She also discusses how poorly some of the medical professionals around her treated her when Austin was born and then what she DID about it. We've all had experiences with people having no compassion right aft...

Chelsea talks about her daughter Elizabeth who died and was stillborn just 9 months ago. Chelsea and I had connected just after her death and to see what she has done with her grief, how she copes and Elizabeth's legacy is inspiring. She never thought she'd make it to the day where she gets to tell Elizabeth's story. But it wasn't without putting in the work to get to this point.   We talk about a...

Crystal-Gayle tells her story from where she lives, Jamaica, and the many efforts she has put in to get change to happen there. Her precious son, Damani, was born prematurely and died just a few short days after his birth. During her time in the hospital, Crystal-Gayle noticed just how horrible the bereavement standards were and how uneducated the staff was on how to treat her. She dives into what...